This long distance relationship I'm currently in is easily one of the toughest challenges I have ever been put through. In the coming weeks, I will have accomplished what seemed like the impossible for me, I will finally have the love of my life back home for the summer again. Last summer I was unfortunately counting down the days till you left, and I realize that this summer won't be any different. Except this time, I'll be counting down the days to you leaving this humble little town of Elk Grove for good. It hurts for me to even think that, but that's the reality of it. I never thought Summer would come back around this quickly. From the moment you left back in August the month of May seemed like it would never come, yet here we are close to the finish line. Or is it? As difficult as these past 9 months have been, I admit that it made our relationship and love for each other grow a lot stronger. Through every argument and all the tears, in the end, you were the one I still loved with all my heart. There were plenty of times when I just really wished you were back home, or that I was just there with you. Those time when I just needed my boyfriend to simply hug me, hold me, kiss me, and tell me that everything is going to be okay. That's when I couldn't help but just break down because there was nothing I could do about it. Yet, you somehow managed to lift my spirits up through nothing more than your voice, for you always knew the right words to say to me. Even when it didn't seem like it was working, it was. Everything you would say to me helped me get through those tough times and the result was us being stronger as a couple. Looking back at these 9 months I ask myself this one very important question: Am I ready to go through this for another 4 more years? To be completely honest, no, I'm not. Yet, then again, when is anyone ready to go through a long distance relationship? Yes, it made us stronger, yes our distance was only a 2 hour difference, yes we saw each other as often as we could, but through all of this I realize that I can't stand being away from you. Right now I see two possible scenarios that could happen. One: I stay home, finish school here, and continue with this long distance the way we have been doing it. Or two: I move to San Francisco, finish school there and not have to deal with long distance anymore. Each has it's pros and cons but I'm looking at which one will make me the most happy. One thing is for sure, the plan to live in SoCal is out of the picture. I see that now, and I'm learning to accept the reality of that more and more each day. I don't know what I'm going to do, but I know that I need to make a decision that will not only affect me but our relationship and our future together in the long run. I'm willing to do whatever it takes. Here's to hoping this Summer goes by as slowly as possible.
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