armor to amor

"I...I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I thought I was strong enough, I really did—and I want to be! ...But this is too much."

Did they always pay attention to all the pressure she puts on herself, the pressure they, too, put on her? Did they always make sure she took breaks and didn't heal every single wound? Did they always check in on her the way she checks on them? Did they always make sure she knew how important she is, how cared for she is, how much she matters, beyond her capacity as a healer?

...Or did they only start doing all of that after the crystals became visible and she couldn't physically handle the toll anymore?

"You only say nothing, Smiling while I beg To take away my regret. And it's only when you're dead, They'll put a crown on your head. They put a crown on her head ...It's only 'cause she's dead"