sunrise, abram. death

I, knowing that this was a once in a lifetime opportunity, waited carefully for the lab director to be deep in conversation with someone else on the other side of the laboratory. And then I took my chance.

Test tubes, as it turns out, are really bad as shot glasses. Their shape turns any liquid inside into a stream, so you really can't knock it back quickly - it takes a couple seconds. Additionally, the best way I can describe the taste of virus concentrate was "sterile rot". A very unique kind of bad! Made worse by the test tube's inefficiency as a shot glass.

(by the way we were studying bacteriophages, not animal viruses. these viruses are too specialized on attacking prokaryotes to even recognize our cells as targets at all, according to studies.)

(but also like. if the viruses managed to successfully switch hosts and killed me with a violent infection, itd still be worth it.)

“You heard us earlier with the mumbo-jumbo, right? That was German. The little punks studied it at high school because they knew I could help them pass.”

I didn’t think much of this quote in the first book until I read the other two books and learned that Andrew has a photographic memory and Aaron is super smart and self-motivated.

hello hello!!! now that we've reached the end of @febuwhump, i have compiled a list of all 28 fics i wrote for it!! thank you SO much to any of you who have already read/interacted with any of these fics, it has helped me push through to the finish line!!

I love so many of the ideas that I came up with so much, so I hope you do too :)

DAY 1: vocal chords - andrew losing his voice when he first starts taking his meds

DAY 2: holding back tears - dan, after learning that wymack is kevin's father

DAY 3: pinned down - kevin, after baltimore, telling andrew "you were always going to lose him"

DAY 4: hivemind - kevin's transition period after leaving the nest

DAY 5: not trusting reality - after losing neil in the binghamton, kevin doesn't believe that it's really him in baltimore

DAY 6: forced to stay awake - natalie shields (before she became renee walker)

DAY 7: alternate timeline self - seth wakes from a nightmare where he died and the world was better off without him

DAY 8: bleeding out - stefan (read: neil) just got shot

DAY 9: necromancy - jean brings kevin back to life

DAY 10: magic exhaustion - jean deals with the consequences of bringing kevin back to life

DAY 11: demonic possession - neil hears someone call andrew a psycho, and 'nathaniel' comes out to play

DAY 12: used as practice - aaron has to set allison's broken leg

DAY 13: “i don’t trust anyone else” - kevin convincing andrew to let him stay in palmetto

DAY 14: becoming the monster - andrew, writing the "fuck off" letter to aaron

DAY 15: icarus - kevin day, finding the courage to step out of riko's shadow

DAY 16: eaten alive - jean's grief for elodie consumes him

DAY 17: power instability - kevin's first time taking the court right-handed

DAY 18: living weapon - ichirou makes an amendment to his and neil's deal

DAY 19: death wish - jean was never going to text renee, but after january, he has nothing left to lose

DAY 20: “i did good right?” - seth was on the path to doing better

DAY 21: put on display - andrew and aaron's supervised first meeting

DAY 22: “grab the little one” - lola teaches nathaniel a lesson

DAY 23: gunshot wound - in the aftermath of being shot, abram struggles

DAY 24: forced to beg - wymack begs the palmetto state board to let him have dan and renee on his team

DAY 25: bound and gagged - allison's shame "gags" her

DAY 26: concealing an injury - aaron accidentally burns himself while cooking dinner. he makes sure andrew doesn't notice

DAY 27: post-victory collapse - upon making it to david wymack's doorstep in the aftermath of riko's attack, kevin immediately collapses

DAY 28: recovery - andrew gets aaron sober

closing time, semisonic / god gave the desert too many teeth, r. wright / x / all these things that i've done, the killers / all my friends, lcd soundsystem / earth in sunlight from apollo 15 / dear evan hansen, val emmich / judgement day, victoria hutchins / caramel, sleep token.

waiting for this story to end before i begin another by jan heller levi / gethsemane by sleep token / x / the long and the short of it by richard siken / right up here by zane frederick / reimagining masculinity by ocean vuong / x / he saved me first, you know / sue zhao