simply jordyn.

i know you said you do. but deep down i feel like you don’t really want to be with me anymore. & that leaves the biggest pit in my stomach :( i guess only time will tell.

i guess i just want you to care. i don’t want to be an inconvenience in your life anymore. i don’t want to feel lk i’m bothering you when i invite to my family functions. i don’t want to feel lk a burden when you’d rather have a day off doing nothing then a day spent with me & my family. Can’t call out if i’m going to my moms, even if it meant a day with me. Tell me you want to go to breakfast? that you’ll bathe the dog? that you’ll keep a light on for him? nope. too much to ask. too much to keep track of in your mind. sense that i’m upset? it’s okay, keep ignoring it. she’ll get over it, she always gets over it. idk if i wanna get over it this time. idk if i feel lk having an effort to be upset either. i’m stuck in limbo between debating if i should give a fuck or not anymore. because you sure as hell don’t. keep doing you, just wait to see if i’ll keep doing me by your side anymore.