♱⃓ Jinjie ♱⃓

I’m really going through it today. I cried because I needed to eat something. I eat I promise I don’t starve myself I eat. But fucking hell I’m pretty…yeah but I hate my round face. I hate my body. I was so skinny before I became a mother. I don’t regret becoming a mom don’t get me wrong. Course it hurts when my son tells me how pretty I look or how he looks at me when I put on makeup and do my hair like I’m literally so beautiful but I can’t see it. My husband looks at me like I hung the stars in the sky but why can’t I see it? Some days are good, I do stare and smile. But there has been too many days where I’m hard on myself too much. The damn people who picked on me did a damn number on me growing up. I just miss the scale not being something I feared but something I was excited to hop on. I’m so sorry I’m on here running my mouth. Promise I’m actively working on myself it’s the in between that’s hard. Good habit was former though..I love hiking now.