alice

thank you for tagging me @nothingwithoutwannaone!~

i promise you by wanna one

boomerang by wanna one

wanna by wanna one

wings by bts

stigma by bts

butterfly by bts

starry night by mamamoo

tt by twice

knock knock by twice

i was tagged by @livingthejeojanglife but the original post i found was from @/billyandsteve, thank you so much for tagging me~

5 things you’ll find in my bag:

portable charger

wallet

house keys

charger cord

earbuds

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom:

wanna one albums lololol

fairy lights

bts posters

a lot of souvenirs from china lmao

my sci o medals

5 of my favorite things:

wanna one

fried chicken

jungkook’s covers

traveling

summer

5 things I’m currently into:

the new cardcaptor series

taekook aus!!!

fashion as in attempting to make myself look cute

learning dances

photography

5 things on my to-do list:

find a job

do well at my next and most likely final competition for sci o this year

homework

that’s about it? wait i still have to write ong’s imagine in the series rip i swear i started it

i was tagged by @livingthejeojanglife but the post was originally from @/keyismystarlight~

What was the first song you heard by your bias group? When did you hear it? energetic by wanna one on august 22nd

List your top 5 favorite k-pop groups. wanna one, bts, twice, mamamoo and blackpink

Who is your ultimate bias and why? jihoon because he stood out to me from the start like wow whatta king

Has a k-pop song or music video ever made you cry? yes; cough spring day and i need you by bts cough

Name your top 10 favorite k-pop albums. 

to be one, nothing without you, and i promise you by wanna one

young forever, you never walk alone, the most beautiful moments in life pt 1 and pt 2 by bts

twicecoasters: lane 2, and signal by twice (PSA: ALL OF TWICES SONGS ARE FINALLY ON SPOTIFY I REPEAT ALL OF THEIR SONGS ARE ON SPOTIFY NOW)

yellow flower by mamamoo

Who is the funniest idol in your opinion? jungkook

What is your favorite k-pop choreo? i promise you or starry night

Put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 5 songs that play. 

i don’t care by 2ne1

best of me by bts

never by sons of people/wanna on

why don’t you know by chungha

baby by astro

What is your favorite k-drama that any k-pop idol has played a part in? while you were sleeping like suzy is such a queen

What is your favorite OST by a k-pop group/idol? it’s definitely you with taehyung and seokjin omfg

List your top 10 bias wreckers. guanlin, jungkook, tzuyu, yongsun, hyejin, wheein and that’s about it tbh

What is the oldest group that you stan? bts <33

What is the youngest group you stan? um wanna one atm because i’m not fully into the boyz yet

Do you have a favorite music video of all time? If so, what? i can rewatch tt and starry night all the time :’)

What is the most underrated/under-appreciated group you stan? mamamoo imo? pls don’t come at me

How long have you been listening to k-pop? almost a whole year like geezus time flies

Do you have a favorite k-pop blog? If so, tag them. @jihoonslattee @ongnable @yukhass <33

Do you own any k-pop albums? If so, how many? yes and 4!!

Name the top 5 groups you’d like to see live. just wanna one, bts and twice because i’m broke and i’m not really a multifandom stan?

Who is your favorite soloist? heize and chungha like their songs are 11/10

Are there any k-pop songs that you can sing or dance to? If so, which ones? imma just list five or else we’re gonna be here forever...

energetic

signal

knock knock

heartshaker

likey

Is there an idol you’d like to hug? If so, who? guanlin because the treatment he gets is so ridiculous. he deserves so much more and he has so much talents so how about you give him more events and whatnot @ymc. he didn’t learn a whole new language and leave his family for a foreign country to be treated like this.

What groups do you like that have either disbanded or disappeared? ioi ;;;;;

What idol do you think you have the most in common with? um jimin from bts i think? idk

i want to start writing the imagines but i don’t know who to write for first so i would really appreciate it if you guys could help me by taking this poll. it takes less than a minute and i would really appreciate it~

savior

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a/n: well dang i haven’t updated in  f o r e v e r  but ayo i’m back. i’ll genuinely try my hardest to try and update as frequently as i can but ngl i kinda lost inspiration but hopefully i’ll be back to the way i was before. also make sure to check out the warnings before reading!! (credit to @jihoonslattee for the au idea~)

disclaimer: the moodboard was created by me but the photos used are not mine. 

warnings!: depression, attempted suicide, and curse words

message to all: writing this actually didn’t take that long. it took like 30-40 mins which is a record time for me. it was scary seeing how easy i was able to write about depression and how these feeling hit a little too close to home. personally i’m fine but i know there are people out there who aren’t. i want each and every single one of you to know you are loved. you might be tired of hearing this but that’s only because it’s true. life made be rough now but i swear it’ll get better. i manage to get through depression so i’m absolutely confident you can too. i’m always here if you need to talk and i’m down to talk about anything. if you’re going through a hard time, stay strong. i truly believed you’re a strong, beautiful and absolutely wonderful person who can make through the roughest of the storms.

waking up early in the morning for school has always been hard for everyone and it was especially difficult when they had nothing to look forward to. however, it was extremely harder and worse for you. you struggled to tell yourself that getting up everyday was worth it so imagine you telling yourself living life was worth all this hassle.

your parents meant the whole freaking entire world to you. sure, they could be unfair to you at times but they always had the best intention in mind. they always listened to your problems and was also really understanding. they strived to help you achieve your future and always supported you. they were parents unlike any others.

it all came crashing down on a fateful night back when you were in eighth grade. the entire night was pure chaos and to be completely honest, you had a hard time remembering specific details like you remembered the cause of their deaths but not necessarily how you found out or how you exactly reacted. but one think always stood clear to you: it was the day you started despising everything.

you began to question the entire existence of life. why the fuck did people believe in god if he did nothing to save your parents? they were spectacular people who helped out those in need. was it even worth it to continue on if the ones most dear to you was no longer along your side? for an entire month, you holed up inside your room wondering what exactly did the future held for you.

it’s been three years since. you drifted away from all your friends and you stayed with your grandparents. you loved your grandparents, not as much as your mother and father, but grateful that they took you in and moved to your city just so you could keep going to the same school.

as you dragged yourself out of bed, you thought this was going to be the day, the day where it’ll all end. in your opinion, life wasn’t worth it anymore. it hadn’t been for a long time but you had thought if you continued enduring it, you’ll see some sign of hope. but nothing came to you. in fact all you got were bad news and you were fed up.

walking to school and going through all your classes all happened like a blur. you wanted to experience what high school would feel like one last time even if you thought it was shit. all these fake friends pretending to be there for each other but in reality they’ll gossip and talk behind each others’ back within the next minute. the couples with their signs of affection that you simply didn’t understand.

when the final bell rang, you made your way up to the rooftop. a bittersweet smile made its way onto your face as you reminisced about all the happy memories with your parents. you hoped you would see them again after you took your jump. two years was two years too long for you. you hoped that your grandparents would forgive you and not blame themselves because they weren’t at fault. you knew they they couldn’t stop you even if they knew. in fact, you believed no one could stop you. but boy, oh boy were you wrong.

as you kicked one leg over the fence, you admired the view. ironic how the scenery looked so beautiful as you were about to take your last breath. the sunlight filtered through the trees and the buildings that stood so tall and strong. there was a gentle breeze that rustled the nearby trees and made the moment much more ethereal. it was truly sad that this gorgeous autumn day was going to be your last,

swinging your other leg over, you looked down. it was all going to be over soon. you were going to finally see them. closing your eyes, you jumped. for a minute you felt weightless until you felt a sudden jerk at your arm. your eyes shot open and they landed on a gorgeous boy who desperately clung to your arm.

“yo....h..old..on...ti..ght” he mumbled out as he strained to lift you up.

tears trickled down your face without you even realizing. “why..who even- i don’t even know you so why bother saving me?” he didn’t reply and a silence settled over you two.

as he slowly but surely lifted you up, he took his time sorting out his thoughts. once he finally got you over safely, he lunged at you and hugged you so tightly. “i don’t know whether i should be offended or not that you don’t know me. i’m park jihoon...i’ve been in the exact same classes as you since sixth grade. but hey (y/n) i know you think you’re alone but i promise you’re not. you’ll always have me by your side, regardless of anything, so live your life to the fullest. your parents wouldn’t want you to leave this planet so early..” he whispered into your ear.

you were speechless. you had no clue what to say. when you opened your mouth to speak, no sounds came out. so you simply cried within his arms. who would have thought you would find such comfort that reminded you of your parents inside a stranger’s arms? you felt safe for the the first time in years. a strange feeling that you couldn’t exactly pinpoint blossomed in your chest. vowing to show your gratitude, you made a promise to yourself you would live without any regrets for jihoon’s sake, your parents’ sake and yourself.

the upcoming months were so different compared to your previous ones. it took you a while before you warmed up to jihoon and your mindset of life began to change. but jihoon was always by your side. it wasn’t long before he introduced you to his friends resulting in even more supporting figure in your life. you were glowing with so much happiness that no one would have expected you to be depressed a few months ago.

in the end, you knew everything was going to okay. whether life will go smoothly or not didn’t matter anymore. what was truly important to you was the fact you had amazing friends who will always support you and remain by your side and you hoped that your parents were proud of you while watching from wherever they are. 

wow um i can’t believe i actually hit 100 followers on here. i never really expected this account to go anywhere since i just write for fun and i also haven’t updated in a really long time but thank you guys so much! to celebrate this, i’ll try my best to release something asap and feel free to ask me questions in my ask (you’re welcome to do this anytime!!). since my account has been jihoon based, it’ll be a jihoon imagine but i plan on writing for all the members very soon! also i have my first series planned out and i really hope you guys will enjoy it once i find the time to work on it. thank you guys for everything again~ 

update: i posted the imagine already (can you believe i didn’t wait another month?!?!) and you can find it here!

one - i try my best to always be there for my friends who mean so much to me.

two - i’ve become more confident and happier with who i am over the years.

three - i’m in science olympiad and i currently have two events. during my first competition, i placed first and sixth (one short of getting a medal ;;;). 

thank you for tagging me jasmine, @ongnable! :)

rules: answer the questions and tag (10) people

age? 15! i was born in 2002~

birthplace? new york city

current time? around 4:30pm

drink (last)? water

easiest person to talk to? my best friends and my mom tbh

favorite song (recently)? roller coaster by chungha she’s such a queen omg

grossest memory? um idrk...i almost saw a d*ck on omegle once but thank god it was a laggy laptop...never again :’)

hogwarts house? i never read the harry potter books but i took a whole bunch of quizzes rn and ravenclaw showed up pretty frequently

in love? panwink and wanna one

jealous of people? i tend to get jealous to only realize i should be happy with who i am 

love at first sight or should i walk by again? it was love at first sight with jihoon tbh lolol

middle name? don’t have oneee~

number of siblings? a younger brother

one wish? have a successful and happy future which hopefully includes seeing wanna one in person one day :’)

person you called last? my mom

question you are always asked? “are you chinese, japanese, etc?”

reasons to smile? panwink

song you sang last? and bang bang by jessie j because i thought of the pd101 performance lmao

time you woke up? 6am ;;;;

underwear color? light blue

vacation destination? switzerland, japan, south korea, and china (again)

worst habit? i can have a horrible memory at times and biting my nails

x-rays? nope unless you count the ones of your teeth at dentist check-ups

your favorite food? chicken and french fries

zodiac sign? libra

ultimate bias? the one and only, park jeojang jihoon

ultimate bias wrecker? lai guanlin omg

favorite kpop song (all time)? i really can’t choose between energetic by wanna one, roller coaster or why don’t you know by chungha

favorite kpop album? to be one by wanna one or young forever by bts

favorite kpop ship? panwink cause they’re adorable and wow my bias and bias wrecker??

hard or soft stan? softtt~

favorite kpop company? jyp tbh

backstory of how i got into kpop? i was first into anime and i saw a dance cover of people that were cosplaying attack on titan covering dope and i got into bts after trying to learn the dance as well lololol

like a spirit

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unedited (edited 2/24/18)

a/n: oof i didn’t write that much at all but this was an iffy attempt at writing something studio ghibli themed. i also need more wannable friends so feel free to shoot me a dm! 

disclaimer: the moodboard was created by me but the photos used are not mine.

wandering into the nearby forest has always been part of your summers. every year, during summer vacation, you would head off to your godmother’s home. staying in your hometown was boring since your parents always worked and rarely had days off. their bosses were awfully strict so there wasn’t anything they could do even though they wish there was. they decided that sending you to your godmother’s was the best choice as a change of scenery might just be enough to keep you entertained.

as you followed the steps that would lead you further into the woods, you swore you heard something nearby. you quickly turned around only to spot nothing. 

“stop overthinking things (y/n). you’ve wandered into here for the past 4 years. there’s nothing to be afraid of.” you thought to yourself in hopes of comforting yourself. turning back around, you continued walking deeper into the woods. little did you know, you were being watched.

reaching your little personal hangout, you let out a sigh of relief. everything seemed to be the same compared to the last time you’ve been here. you were glad that no one happened to stumble upon it and mess it up. standing still, you took a minute to close your eyes and take in the smells and sounds that surrounded you.

you could hear the trickle of the nearby stream that was accompanied by the cicadas and other bugs like a melody. birds chirped and sang adding their own parts to the song. you could smell the wet, earthy and musky smell that you would have never gotten to experience if you remained in the city. the sweet smell of the evergreens and other trees tickled your nose as well.

opening your eyes to finally closely observe the surrounding, you noticed a boy looking at you with curiosity right besides your hangout. you let out a gasp and took a step back in shock. where had he appeared from? the boy looked just as surprised as you were and looked around frantically.

“y-you can see me?” he questioned you.

you slowly nodded in response. “of course, i mean who can’t? you’re out in broad daylight.” 

the boy avoided meeting your eyes and stuttered out a “sure” as if he was trying to convince himself more than you. “...i’m jihoon, what’s your name? i’ve never seen you around.” he asked awkwardly.

“i’m (y/n)! i only come here during the summer since i’m from the city.” you slowly walked over to him. “i see you’ve discovered my hideout.” 

“i swear i haven’t been messing around with it! in fact, i’ve been making sure the tent doesn’t get too dirty and that the fairy lights don’t cause a forest fire.” he frantically defended himself. after a little pause he added “i guess you can say i was guarding this place from any strangers even though i’m one myself..”

he stared at his shoes while waiting for a reply from you to only be met with laughter. “it’s okay, i didn’t accuse you of anything! thank you though, i really appreciate it since i’m always worried someone will come along and destroy it.” you reassured him. “i guess this is no longer my personal space anymore so let’s make it belong to the two of us. you seem nice and i would love to get to know you better.” you stated.

in response, he stared at you with pink cheeks as if you were a goddess standing in front of him. “are you sure?...i don’t want to intrude..” he squeaked out nervously.

“of course! after all i wouldn't have mentioned it if i wasn’t sure.” you reassured him once again. “feel free to be make yourself at home with me!”

“um..okay if you say you’re absolutely fine with it” he quietly muttered in reply.

the rest of the evening began awkwardly as the two of you tried to get to know each other but he soon warmed up to you. giggles and loud shouts soon occupied the air as you guys cracked jokes. his bright smiles felt like it lit up the entire place and the sound of his booming laughter was contagious. who would have thought the shy boy from before was also this open and carefree?

as nighttime began to fall upon you two, you told him you had better get started on your walk back home. he understood and told you he’ll be waiting for you here again tomorrow and you agreed you would come to meet him.

“i feel like he’s hiding something and i’m determined to find out. after all, i think i’m starting to develop feelings for him and the best chance i’m going to get is to get to know him better..” you thought. you knew this summer was going to be much more memorable than all of your other summers simply because you meet jihoon this time. 

you were still in range with the hideout and so you looked back one last time. however, what you noticed was mysterious...jihoon was no longer there anymore. there was no other way out of the forest but he was gone...almost like a spirit.

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disappearing worries

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a/n: oml i’ve been so lazy lately so i’m sorry for this super late imagine. i’m hoping on writing a lot more over winter break to make up for the lack of writing. even though i have no clue how concerts work since i’ve never been to one, i still hope you still enjoy this. also merry christmas eve!

disclaimer: the moodboard was created by me but the photos used are not mine.

ahhh, the dream city of yours. london, england. not only did you come to london because you wanted to check one more thing off of your bucketlist and finally meet your close internet friends in person, it was also because your best friend was having a concert here tonight. you promised him you would be there to support him and there was no way you were going to go back on your word. so what better way to keep a promise and have an experience of a lifetime?

as you walked along the pretty streets that were already decorated for christmas, your mind got clouded with thoughts of your feelings for jihoon. it’s been months since your crush developed and over time, it only seemed to get stronger. you couldn’t keep it away from him for much longer since you always blushed whenever he accidentally touched your hand or when he gave you his frequent hugs. besides, how has he not heard your thundering heartbeats whenever he came near you?

on your way to the stadium, you took in the beautiful city that you had always wanted to travel to. you admire the gorgeous boutiques and stores. the lights on the trees made the experience much more magical than it would have been without them. however, your eyes always seemed to linger on the couples that were holding hands, laughing at whatever they were talking about without a care in the world. oh, how you wish you could be like that with jihoon.

even if he did returned your feelings which you doubted ohoho you’re in for a ride, his job would absolutely forbid this. his career depended on him being well liked by the public and him in a relationship would most likely risk that. he would lose a good amount of his female fans(which mainly made up his fanbase) and if he didn’t lose any he would surely gain some angry ones. sadly, not everyone was open to accepting their idols in a relationship and there was no way you would be selfish enough to put your happiness before his accomplishment that he spent his whole life working towards.

you soon reached the stadium and began to wait in line to enter the arena. originally, you had wanted to buy merchandise but jihoon said there was no need for you to wait in such a long line especially with the freezing weather when he could easily get it for you. the line of people in front of you surprisingly didn’t take that long to disappear and you entered the stadium. excitement grew in your stomach as you walked down to the pit. of course you saw fancams of jihoon but never have you seen him perform live. 

the lights began to dim and you heard the beginning of “nayana” start to play. your focus immediately went to the stage and your eyes immediately went to jihoon. you could tell his eyes were searching the crowd for you and it wasn’t long before he found you. you wondered how he found you so fast in the sea of people but it didn’t matter as his dazzling smile and flirty wink soon took over your mind.

the concert flew by and you knew you would lose your voice by tomorrow. you did the fan chants as loudly as you could with all of the other fans there and it was a lot of fun. you really hoped you could attend more of wanna one’s concerts. you headed backstage to meet up with jihoon and all the other members in the makeup room.

jihoon was the one who opened the door when you knocked.

“oh my goodness, (y/n)! i haven’t seen you in forever, how was the concert?!” he questioned you. however you hear him as you could only stare at the mistletoe that was hanging above you two.

“(y/n), did you not hear a single thing i said? hey! i’m talking to you!” it took him a bit before he glanced up at where you were looking and he could only let out a small “oh”.

“hey jeojang, why don’t you make a move already?” seongwoo shouted from the back with a teasing grin.

“facts! all you do is talk about how badly you want to kiss her anyway so hurry up with it.” daniel snickered and added on to the previous comment. ongniel is science

“hyung, as much as i ship us together, i love you and (y/n) together more.” guanlin yelled at you guys with a gummy smile. oh my god i can see his precious adorable smile in my mind as i write this and i love panwink so much

winter chills

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unedited (edited 12/2417)

a/n: this was long overdue omg i’m so sorry jkahizck but go check out 365 days please and enjoy! (bless chii for motivating me)

disclaimer: the moodboard was created by me but the photos used are not mine.

as you turned the key in the doorknob and opened the door, you were suddenly greeted with the smell of baked cookies and a comforting warmth. you quickly closed the door behind you in order to escape the cold and started undressing the huge coat and scarf you had on. a sigh left your lips as you remembered how busy it was at work today and you couldn’t wait to unwind from the stress that had accumulated.

following the smell of the cookies, you entered the kitchen to see jihoon jamming out to some christmas tunes. you immediately whipped out your phone just like how you’re whipped for him lmaoo to record this rare event as he hardly ever lets you see this side of him. he wanted you to think of him as a man who was capable of protecting you both and he did succeed at that. however, you also knew the other half of his personality which was like a little kid who wanted your attention and affection 24/7.

your laughter alerted him of your presence and he turned around with red cheeks. 

“(y/n) i didn’t know you came home already!” he stuttered out.

“didn’t you hear the door open? i guess you couldn’t due to your little concert in here.” you teased him.

“whoops? but you were recording me, weren’t you?! (y/n), if you did, delete it right now!!” he frantically questioned you.

“no one else is going to see this so just let your girlfriend admire how cute and amazing her boyfriend is.” you giggled.

his eyes softened as he closely observed your appearance. “alright, but it’s only because i love you. by the way, you look like you had a long day so let’s watch some christmas movies while eating these freshly made cookies from yours truly along with some tea.”

“i love you too babe and you know me too well.” you smiled in reply.

“of course i do. besides, you deserve to escape those winter chills with your hot boyfriend.” he winked at you.

been thinking about you a latte

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unedited (edited 11/04/2017)

a/n: this is my first time writing and posting so i apologize for any amateur mistakes! i hope my writing will only improve as time goes by. i also made the moodboard but the photos used are not mine! :)

disclaimer: the moodboard was created by me but the photos used are not mine. 

dedicated to @jihoonslattee and @livingthejeojanglife

the smell of roasted coffee beans and baked goods brought a small smile to your face. it had been a hectic week for you as being a university student meant work, work, and more work so you decided why not take a break by going to the new cafe. as you took in the beauty and simplicity of the shop when you first walked in, your eyes couldn’t help but land on the barista who happened to be your classmate…and crush. there stood the wonder of park jihoon with his kindness and beauty ready to take your order.

 “hi (y/n)!! how may i help you?” he asked you after sending a wink.

“jihoon?? i didn’t know you worked here.” you replied in shock while trying to cover the fact that your cheeks were most likely dusted with pink. who would have thought you would bump into your adorable crush working inside this gorgeous cafe.

“well i can’t always continue being a broke college student. constantly eating instant noodles does get tiring.” he replied with a grin.

“true, the college life is rough. i’ll take a caramel macchiato by the way” you smiled back and you felt your face burn it up [a/n sorry not sorry ;)]. that mischievous grin had quickened your heartbeat so much as you came to realize what exactly was the thumping noise you were suddenly all so aware of.

“okay coming right up! that’ll be $4.50.″ as you handed the money to him, his fingertips lightly grazed yours. electricity ran through your body and you had to stop yourself from shivering. 

you quickly retrieved your change and left the register to await for your drink. your face was hot and red at this point but i mean who’s face wouldn’t be after seeing their crush be ten times cuter than normal. seeing him in biology was so much different than seeing him on a beautiful saturday and you knew you were going to drop by here way more often than you had originally planned.

months had passed with you visiting the cafe on a weekly basis. during this time, you and jihoon had gotten so much closer. you two were now lab partners in bio with laughter and smiles making the class fly by. there was no fear of being yourself anymore but a new fear came to take its place. you tried your hardest to not think about it but there were always those moments. what would happen if he found out about your feelings that were only growing stronger and stronger? would they be mutual? 

“(y/n), here’s your caramel macchiato!” the other barista on shift interrupted your thoughts. you quickly got up to get your drink.

jihoon had disappeared to change since his shift was about to end and you were waiting for him to finish in hopes of hanging out afterwards. as you were about to take a sip, you noticed a message on the side of your cup. “i’ve been thinking about you a latte, want to go on a date?” a huge smile made its way onto your face and you soon saw jihoon walk towards you with rosy cheeks and a nervous smile.