Jess

I’m just getting started, hopefully I’ll lose 2 more this week.

I fell in love in November 2024 and ever since, I’ve been gaining love weight which I desperately need to get rid of.

So this is me, 25 yo, 5ft3, 150ish lbs trying to go back to the 120s.

I'm over the moon right now. I want to scream out of happiness.

However... I've gained some weight and wanted to see him until Saturday cause I'd planned to fast throughout the week, but he wants to see me tomorrow!! I most definitely won't be eating anything for the whole day of tomorrow so I get to look descent.

Now she knows how I’ve felt for most of my life, but it hurt to see her struggling for the first time in her life cause I’ve been there and I don’t want her to go through all the shit I have. I understand how easy it is to gain during the first year of college and how hard it is to stop.

I even gave her tips and kind words cause she looked so sad and made my heart break.

A lot happened during this couple of months. First I got my wisdom teeth taken out and got to my lowest weight ever which was 121lbs. Second, my parents found my vape and got me grounded, and couldn’t go to my best friend’s birthday party and her parents are mad at me lol. I got a new vape just three days ago haha. Third, went back to college from mid year vacation and everyone complimented me on how skinny I’ve gotten. I still don’t know how to react to people telling me I’m skinny.

And well… Those are the most relevant events of this break.

Recently I have been eating really bad and got back to 126lbs, so I made this past week a fasting week and today I’m back to 124lbs. I’m just 10 pounds away from my ugw and I’m planning to drop at least half of that in two weeks (bc I’m going to the beach with my family on the 15th) and get to a new lw.

Might be updating in a week or so.

Right is from March 2022

Left is from May 2023

I don't have a more recent bodychecks and I know they're not the same type of picture.

- I finally dropped to 123lbs, however I've been eating a lot more lately so I haven't had the courage to check my weight again. I feel like if I check I'll see 127 o 128 again and don't want to get discouraged by that.

- This past weekend I went to a baby shower and saw one of my cousins that I hadn't seen since May of last year. She pointed out how skinny I've gotten and my only response was a nervous laugh (I don't like thanking that comment since it's not a real compliment) but then she said I look really pretty. That made my day tbh. It's good to know that people are noticing my progress 🥰

- Also, my parents were overseas for almost a month and some days after they had returned told me that my grandma was mad at me because I rarely eat breakfast. Now they are probably suspicious. Later they asked if I have dropped the weight by fasting, so now they know and did not mind that much. I guess I can continue to fast without a problem.

I guess that's it at the time.

Currently I've been fasting to look nice on a dress for a party this coming Saturday.

My birthday is this week on Friday and I want to look decent that day.

The plan is to fast as much as possible and to walk/exercise as much as my body resists. I need to lose the weight I gained during this week, but I'm not gonna weigh in til Wednesday.

My 20hr fast ends tomorrow at midday, hoping to push it as much as my willpower allows me.

I'm turning 22 next week and I feel like I'll look like a whale in every picture. Why can't I ever look okay for my birthday?