𝖍𝖊'𝖘 𝖕𝖔𝖘𝖘𝖊𝖘𝖘𝖊𝖉!

I know that I have more or less basically been on a hiatus through the winter , but I wanted to come in and let people know that I have plans to come back here soon , but I am going to be coming back on a fresh blog , with new threads unless people request to keep threads. I am going to do a fresh start with the new year so that as we move into spring we start off nice and clean.

Thank you to everyone who has shown support to me this season. It was really a rough one but I'm so glad that we are coming to the end of it and I'm doing my best to look at the next year with an open mind and some optimism. (really , the people who have been reaching out even once or twice have been a great help) I struggle feeling like I can speak up about what's bothering me to others , so it's been so nice to have the support I've had from you guys.

You all know who you are.

The last few days I spent time doing some hardcore reflecting , as is usual for me in the last week of the year. This time of year I am always very closed off and in my own self reflection , so if I have seemed distant or neglectful in conversations with people , please know that it is nothing personal to anyone. I'm not even good at keeping in touch with my family this time of year so when I say it's not personal ... I really do mean it.

I'm excited to come back to Tae and work on him in 2026. I have a couple other projects I'm going to be working on as well , but he's a muse I have been missing and would like to get back to writing again. Once again , thank you so much to the people who have been checking in on me. The group chats and servers I've been in this season have really been lifesavers ... So you guys really have been amazing this year. Thank you.

IT'S JUST A LITTLE LONGER TO THE NEW YEAR AND WHEN I'M DONE WITH THE FRESH BLOG I'LL BE POSTING ABOUT IT HERE TO DO A ROUND OF FOLLOWING. UNTIL THEN ...

I know that I have more or less basically been on a hiatus through the winter , but I wanted to come in and let people know that I have plans to come back here soon , but I am going to be coming back on a fresh blog , with new threads unless people request to keep threads. I am going to do a fresh start with the new year so that as we move into spring we start off nice and clean.

Thank you to everyone who has shown support to me this season. It was really a rough one but I'm so glad that we are coming to the end of it and I'm doing my best to look at the next year with an open mind and some optimism. (really , the people who have been reaching out even once or twice have been a great help) I struggle feeling like I can speak up about what's bothering me to others , so it's been so nice to have the support I've had from you guys.

You all know who you are.

The last few days I spent time doing some hardcore reflecting , as is usual for me in the last week of the year. This time of year I am always very closed off and in my own self reflection , so if I have seemed distant or neglectful in conversations with people , please know that it is nothing personal to anyone. I'm not even good at keeping in touch with my family this time of year so when I say it's not personal ... I really do mean it.

I'm excited to come back to Tae and work on him in 2026. I have a couple other projects I'm going to be working on as well , but he's a muse I have been missing and would like to get back to writing again. Once again , thank you so much to the people who have been checking in on me. The group chats and servers I've been in this season have really been lifesavers ... So you guys really have been amazing this year. Thank you.

IT'S JUST A LITTLE LONGER TO THE NEW YEAR AND WHEN I'M DONE WITH THE FRESH BLOG I'LL BE POSTING ABOUT IT HERE TO DO A ROUND OF FOLLOWING. UNTIL THEN ...

₊˚。ఌ      PIHAIN ; is a private , mutuals only roleplay blog for NAM A-YEONG , THE KUMIHO OF JINHONGSEOM/THE CRIMSON ISLE. this blog is a multiship/multiverse roleplay blog telling the tale of the caged soul who just wants to be free and loved. must be 21+ to interact. triggering content ahead...proceed carefully. written by jj.

₊˚。ఌ      PIHAIN ; is a private , mutuals only roleplay blog for NAM A-YEONG , THE KUMIHO OF JINHONGSEOM/THE CRIMSON ISLE. this blog is a multiship/multiverse roleplay blog telling the tale of the caged soul who just wants to be free and loved. must be 21+ to interact. triggering content ahead...proceed carefully. written by jj.

𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐊𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐍 as 𝐏𝐀𝐘𝐔 and 𝐍𝐎𝐄𝐔𝐋 𝐍𝐔𝐓𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐓 as 𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍

"Why   would   you   do   that?"   There   is   a   short   pause.   There   is   an   ache   by   his   head,   a   sharp   pain   that   comes   when   he   strains   his   brain   to   try   and   bring   more   memories   back   to   the   surface   of   everything,   but   he   never   understood   why   would   he   get   such   loyalty   out   of   everyone.   Tae   specially,   had   not   questioned   anything   about   his   plans   or   what   he   had   been   wanting   to   do.   Losing   his   memories   would   mean   forgetting   everyone,   wouldn't   it?   Even   now,   when   he   is   told   that   he   got   what   he   wanted,   it   doesn't   feel   right,   because   he   doesn't   have   the   people   he   needed   and   missed   the   most.   "Don't   shut   me   off.   That's   all   I   ask.   Just.   .   .give   me   time.   To   remember   everything."   There   is   a   smile   on   his   lips,   a   grin   almost,   as   he   does   know   a   few   things.  

He   remembers   easy   nights   by   apple   trees,   or   the   dead   trees   of   the   underworld,   his   bipa   by   his   hand,   and   Tae   by   his   side,   as   they   sang   together.   It   was   small   glimpses,   but   he   knew   they   were   real   for   how   his   body   reacted   to   it   all.   "I   know   we   were   close.   And   even   if   I   don't   remember   everything.   .   .I   miss   it   too."   Waking   up   next   to   the   other,   flirtatious   glances   and   heavy   breathing   after   a   good   night   after   a   concert.

𝐈𝐓'𝐒  𝐔𝐍𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐑  𝐓𝐎  𝐇𝐈𝐌  𝐁𝐔𝐓  𝐈𝐓'𝐒  𝐔𝐍𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐑  𝐓𝐎  𝐉𝐈𝐍𝐔  𝐓𝐎𝐎.   The  others  might  blame  him  for  not  being  completely  honest  with  them  ,  or  whatever  excuse  it  was  they  came  up  with  …  But  not  Tae.   Sure  it  hurt  ,  the  idea  that  if  this  worked  he  might  not  remember  who  they  were.   Perhaps  he  would  ,  and  maybe  they  all  thought  things  would  simply    go  back    to  the  way  things  were.  Maybe  deep  down  …  Tae  secretly  hoped  that  would  happen  too.  That  maybe  Gwi-Ma  would  make  Jinu  forget  what  he  wanted  ,  and  they  could  all  carry  on  the  way  they  always  had.

But  Tae  would  still  see  the  way  that  the  life  they  live  …  wasn't  Jinu.   He'd  still  eventually  see  the  way  the  glow  in  his  eyes  seemed  to  lack  something.   Jinu  didn't  want  to  reap.  He  wanted  a  way  out.   That  was  what  Tae-Gang  had  signed  up  for.  He  signed  up  for  the  chance  to  see  someone  who  meant  more  than  words  could  explain  for  people  like  them.

❝  You  ask  me  why  ...  but  you  still  sit  here  wondering  what's  missing.  ❞   He  paused  for  only  a  short  moment  ,  before  gesturing  between  the  two  of  them.   ❝  I  did  it  for  the  times  when  Gwi-Ma  was  far  enough  away  that  you  could  be  honest  for  once.  ❞   Shoulders  shrugged  some  ,  slightly  pacing  as  a  means  to  stay  where  he  was  ,  rather  than  just    bolting    at  the  first  chance  he  got.   ❝  Maybe  deep  down  I  guess  I  just  hoped  it  wouldn't  include  the  good  stuff.  ❞   Foolish  thinking.  In  their  world  …  was  anything  good?

₊˚。ఌ      PIHAIN ; is a private , mutuals only roleplay blog for NAM A-YEONG , THE KUMIHO OF JINHONGSEOM/THE CRIMSON ISLE. this blog is a multiship/multiverse roleplay blog telling the tale of the caged soul who just wants to be free and loved. must be 21+ to interact. triggering content ahead...proceed carefully. written by jj.