JeNeal Be.

New Moon in Cancer.

Grasshopper medicine.

 Feeling uninspired I decided to head outside into the sunshine with my little guy. Happily,he finds magic within the grass, he enjoys filling his belly with dirt and trying to climb the mountain he knows as mom. I sit and be that mountain and ask the sunshine to fill my heart with inspiration and love. 

 A tiny, little, ADORABLE, grasshopper hops onto my leg-- I'm a huge believer that the Universe speaks to us all day long if we are open and willing to listen and I know this baby grasshopper came to me on purpose.-- I decided to look into the shaman definition of grasshopper medicine and I was delighted and inspired with what I read. You can read it here.  

But to summarize: I am to go back to my roots (crazy cuz I'm working on my root chakra this week) and really look into my ancestors and honor them. I am to jump forward into my dreams and aspirations and have faith in my desires. Wisdom comes from my imagination and I must tap into that. All ideas and creation begins within me. I also learned that when grasshoppers are feeling crowded and starved they are no longer peaceful and they can destroy everything. 

 As of late, being a stay at home mother who's going to school as well as designing her dream business I'm feeling a little starved. My husband is a full time student with a business on the side and so finding the balance in our relationship and for our family can be a little difficult at times but I know how important it is to make sure no one is feeling starved. 

 I love this-- "Remember: the fruits of the earth are for all to enjoy and there is plenty for all if used in a sacred way." (from the article linked above) 

 I must respect my time and understand that it can be very easily managed. I am determined and I love and respect myself enough to feed my spirit so that I can give of myself without feeling the need to destroy what is most important to me. 

My family and my home deserve my love and I don't want to deny that by denying it for myself first. 

A New Moon Circle was exactly what I needed last night. Being able to host this circle and share my knowledge with such beautiful women was heart opening and filled with love and gratitude for friendships. 

There is something really beautiful that happens when women come together. I love this quote from MysticMama on New Moon Circles

Most of us, live our lives so disconnected from the Earth, and devoid of any kind of ritual that creates the space for us to connect. So the New Moon provides us with an opportunity to take the time to create SACRED SPACE for ourselves. It’s essential.

There is something so powerful when women come together to support each other on their journey, in the hopes and dreams. We are healed, we are nurtured, we feel comforted and understood. Moreover, when you share sacred space together you magnify the power of your intentions and you energetically create a web of support for not only your circle of women friends but with women everywhere. 

We opened this circle with a blessing inviting the beautiful energy from all parts of the earth to share their love with us.

I shared how my relationship with the Moon runs deep and how it has been a blessing for my well being. I have gone from having complete downfalls into the spiraling abyss of depression to recognizing these moments of fear and insecurity by stopping the negative reaction and instead forming it into something completely different and actually beneficial. Because of the moon I am learning to ride the wave of life. Enjoy the ebb and flow, the shadows and the light. Graciously accept the emotions and the frustrations that come along for the ride. 

Together, we took a journey to a magical place where we were able to sit with nature inside our mind’s eye -- giving ourselves a gift of stillness and breath. Letting go of the worries from the outside reality, we allowed beauty to reveal herself. 

I brought with me soil and seeds and each of us shared a little bit about what we intended to manifest in this New Moon cycle while filling our little cups with garden soil and planted seeds to represent our intentions. We blessed those seeds with love, vision, and manifestation.

There was so much beauty in all that was shared in this evening and I am so grateful for building deeper connections and friendships.

Being able to celebrate our moments of inspiration, and growth, in a sacred space is so important. Coming together in The Space gets me super excited for the future and what is waiting for us to open up to.

If you haven’t yet checked out The Space -- where shift happens. YOU MUST! Mariah is seriously a bad ass that you definitely want to get to know! Plus there is so much planned amazing classes and workshops!!  You definitely don’t want to miss out on this!! 

I leave with you words from Rumi~

I will find new meaning in every joy and sorrow. In that silence, I will hear the voice of spirit, and freed from this world, I will see another world where the end is another beginning.

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10 little wishes.

She picked up a jar and gathered some wishes, very carefully making sure each were unharmed. Their little white skirts made her smile.

She put the jar on her back and sat down near her favorite tree. She stared at her wishes and counted them, she counted ten. She could see their skirts through the glass jar, she imagined them dancing and flittering.

The night approached and the little fairy saw that mother moon had appeared, this made her smile. She loved her moments with Mother Moon. She shared with the moon stories of her wishes that made her giggle.

The little fairy wanted to grant these wishes and asked for Mother Moon’s help. The moon sent down her beams and blessed those wishes. First with love, second abundance, third beauty, then strength and creativity, blessing the last five with endless possibility.

The fairy thanked mother moon and began her travels. After days of searching she had to stop and rest she could see that there was a garden not to far away. When she landed she couldn’t believe her eyes; she found herself standing in a tiny little garden fit perfectly for her. There were beautiful flowers and a tiny little home just her size. She went inside to rest her wings and sleep for the night.

In the morning she woke and it was time to journey back to her tree. She left the little jar of wishes there in that garden made especially for her–giving thanks.

Enlightened -- HBO series. 

I’m not a huge fan of television but there a few favorites of mine and THIS is one.  I came across it a few days ago and I LOVE it. Every SINGLE thing about it.

Amy is freaking crazy. but she’s trying. I am in love with her character.

Amy is a 40 year old, self-destructive, divorcee-- who is working for a shit company that she wants to bring down. She’s living with her mother who has many issues of her own and doesn’t quite understand anything that Amy is about. 

There are simple and amazing messages with each episode and i find myself laughing and moments where I’m a tad uncomfortable.... embarrassed for her. But she’s the best and always comes out ON TOP! 

FOOD my worst enemy. 

While looking through one of my old notebooks, I came across a entry that was titled. I’m Embarrassed..  so I kept reading it was short and it said this--

I am addicted to food! Not just any food... I am addicted to really really bad food... anything loaded with horrible chemicals and SUGAR. How can I change this? I’ve bought recipe book after recipe book and I really try to buy organic and healthy but most of the food goes wasted because instead of taking the time to create meals I choose to grab and go... Fast Food. McDonalds...Jack in the Crack... ARBYS... anything that is pre-made so I don’t have to spend any time cooking a meal. I hate cooking.

and then underneath it this I had written -- I forgive you. 

I had completely forgotten about this small entry, but I remember the feeling I had when I wrote down the words. I remember the anger... the embarrassment and the hatred I had for food. I also remember adding that “I forgive you months later and the feeling that came with those three words, there was a release, there was acceptance, and there was love. I remember why I wrote those three words too. It was after I had a conversation with a group of women about this problem of mine and how insecure and overwhelmed I was when it came to meal planning and what types of food I was feeding my family on a regular basis. I KNEW I wanted change but I was CLUELESS how to make the changes. Fast Food had always been a part of my life, it was easy, it was fast, it took ZERO time planning.

BUT...

It also caused me to become overweight, have zero energy, and really messed up my stomach.. The advice from these women is when it clicked.

ONLY YOU can decide your relationship with food. Coming here and asking how to make it easier, or for tips will do NOTHING for you, if you aren’t willing to make the changes. 

Okay. Well I choose LOVE. I choose to love myself enough that I feed my body fuel instead of depleting it. I choose to love my family enough to prepare healthy food so that they can THRIVE! 

I choose to start over. Begin a NEW relationship with food, one that is made of love and honesty. I choose to prepare these meals with magical intentions of love. 

THIS IS HUGE GUYS! This was my ah ha! moment. AND IT FELT SOOO GOOD! 

In the last, probably 5 months, my husband and I, have started paying attention to labels. We started choosing organic and whole. We’ve skipped eating out pretty much entirely (there’ve been a couple of times) BUT nothing like we used to. 

We have both LOST so much weight. I’ve lost 20 pounds and he’s lost I think about 30. This has been without ANY exercise. The only thing we’ve changed in our life is our food habits. 

I feel better, I feel more ALIVE! I am also PROUD that we are changing bad habits into good ones so that our children can understand the importance of food. 

Food is everything. It is our medicine, our fuel. 

Just wanted to put this out there. Update that journal entry that I made a few years ago. I forgive. and I’ve moved on to better things.