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for sureeee i also am rlly endeared to spongs. i’ve been for awhile but his energy and unique style of playing has been really refreshing on lifesteal

zam & spongs do bounce off eachother really well too !! i rlly enjoy their vcs and interactions so much and spongs has honestly improved zams mindset a bit when it comes to losing hearts and being set back. ik people dont like him but i rlly do want them to team up one day… zam said she would like that too >_<

obviously i’m not a fan of no bans because it’s just kind of dumb especially the argument that bans don’t provide any content when its like the main motive and source of desperation/stakes which make lifesteal, lifesteal. like yeah the server is changing but fundamentally changing a core part of the server’s gimmick and what they’re known for sucks. I have faith they’ll turn bans on again but it’s kind of a matter of when. I’m not like that mad ab it though unless they decide to do this again 😭

they are arguably the people who know him the best on the server and zam's immediate reaction was grief and to throw herself into flow out of her anger, whereas ro seemed more mad at mapicc and kept saying how she has no doubt in her mind that he'll regret banning himself bc it would be stupid if he did. and its funny bc i dont think either of them were particularly in the wrong for their reactions or how they felt bc it does not come down to who knows mapicc better or who loves him more, but to what their experiences w mapicc throughout the seasons have been like

when you realize that ro's experiences with mapicc, especially in the past few seasons, have always revolved around her ability to always return to him bc he will always be there no matter how far she wanders it makes sense that she reacted in anger. she has not had to deal w the fear of ever losing him and having no home to come back to since s4 began bc in her absence, the mapicc she knows and loves has been the same mapicc who would never ever actually give up or leave no matter how hard he got beaten down

BUT it also completely makes sense that zam would immediately begin to grieve him and be angry at the person who she thinks "took" mapicc away from her bc she has repeatedly lost him the past few seasons. s6 was especially bad bc not only did she feel like she lost him to the empire in him always choosing them over her, which drove her to actually lose him bc he pulled away so severely when she began teaming w derap, but she Actually lost him when he died and lost the mace in the most content griefing horrible way possible nd basically gave up on the server entirely by the time she came back. like he was still there kind of, but he was no longer a mapicc she recognized. and when he finally began being himself again she didnt even get to actually have him back bc he actually fully left her upon realizing she had betrayed EVERYONE for bacon (which absolutely was a betrayal and i stand by that!!!).

so its like . they are both people who love him so very much and who almost center him in their world, consciously or not, but they have such vastly different experiences when it comes to loss when it comes to mapicc. i don't think either of them are wrong for viewing him the way they do bc it is just their lived experience as people who have loved him for as long as they have. to zam, mapicc is someone she has lost and who she is always terrified of losing bc she has experienced it enough in the past to know its not something she ever wants to do again. whereas to ro, mapicc has always been and will always be the person she can come home to and attach herself to no matter how far she wanders or how long shes gone bc he has always accepted her w open arms no matter what his own situation has been.

It does make sense to me. This season they've been so heavy on the old season talks. They're trying so hard to compare s8 to previous seasons. I think they've went through the entire list, everyday and every second they try to grasp onto comparisons that... I'm not sure if I can say make much sense most of the times, but it's also not really something I Can decide. It's some kind of internal feeling for them, comparing how they felt then and how they feel now.

And everytime an old season comes up, comes up Spoke with it. He was so tangled with the server, his problem causing habits were incredible for the server. And sure, while a lot of it was to satate his own want for fun, so much of it has always been calculated, and well thought-out, it's something I had always admired about him. Especially with the finales, how well he set up the days leading up to them, this includes s3, s4, s6.

They decided against inviting Leo to the team, and he was only an ally for the end fight, but if Leo was a permanate member, which I honestly don't even doubt that he would naturally orbit around the gummyworms moving forward, that'd be 7 whole people stuck having to deal with a change that's so sudden and new. Which would lead to even more old season mentions, which would lead to so many Spoke mentions. All 7 of them are people who had at least one major arc with Spoke in the spotlight, he was an integral part of things that drove the action. Besides, Leo and Mapicc were the last people who saw Spoke online on Lifesteal.........

It is so difficult to image a Lifesteal without Spoke, and I feel that's the case for them too. Even though there are so many new members, and I have no doubt that they're capable of doing interesting things. They aren't Spoke, the guy who was literally self-proclaimed lifesteal.

shes got separation anxiety rlly rlly bad