My name is John. Im 25 years old. I’m a Voice actor! #dndbackgroundguy This blog is crazy and weird and 99.9% of the things you see here will not have been made by me. alot of reblogs.
I actually managed to finish this on time! Holy shit! Granted, a major part of that is because this one's mostly just character drawing and little to no backgrounds, but still!
I don't have much else to say, honestly, but I hope you enjoy and now I'm gonna hop right back into drawing page 5. (Y,know...after I'm off work...)
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I'm so so late on this one. But between work and doing all the adult shit I need to do when I'm not working, this just took longer than I anticipated and I only just finished super late last night, so I figured it'd be better to just wait and post it in the morning.
I've also got a really full schedule for the next week, so I'm not gonna assume I'll be able to post by Friday or even Saturday at this point. I'm gonna do my best, but I make no promises whatsoever.
Uploading way later than I would've liked, but had a lot of setbacks. Internet went down a lot today, but also I kept, like, redoing the layout for this one because I wasn't vibing with it, which put me behind and now I'm here.
No excuses, just explanations. I'm still pretty new to actually drawing comics like this, so still learning!
I've never done anything like this blog, but I have an idea for a short comic of a reunion between Cain and Abel and I'm getting started on it now, but I'm a little stuck on one thing:
Should I post that comic here or put it only on my main blog? I know neither is very prominent (like, at all) and I dunno how many people will actually see this (if anyone), but I'd really appreciate the feedback if anyone would be so kind.
Please and thank you! ❤️
Also I know I should also reach out to specific blogs for other interactions in the meantime (and in general), but I'm the actual worst at starting convos and trying to figure out how the asocial goddamn shut-in I'm role-playing would do that is a challenge I have not yet been able to meet.
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Just got my schedule for next couple weeks and my hours are indeed pretty sparse and my supervisor is implying this trend will continue for a bit. And while it’s nice to have a lighter work load, it also means a lighter paycheck, which is not ideal. So I’ve decided it couldn't hurt to open up commissions for now:
I’m mostly sticking with Hellaverse with the examples (and...specifically my Cain) because it’s what I’ve been drawing most recently (and what got me back to drawing in the first place after not drawing for months). So I'm most comfortable in this fandom at the moment; open to tackling fan designs or OCs or fanart of the characters in general, but I’m also open to other fandoms/styles if you want something different. It'll just depend on what you're looking for.
Either way, let me know if you’re interested and we can discuss. My messenger is open.
Just got my schedule for next couple weeks and my hours are indeed pretty sparse and my supervisor is implying this trend will continue for a bit. And while it’s nice to have a lighter work load, it also means a lighter paycheck, which is not ideal. So I’ve decided it couldn't hurt to open up commissions for now:
I’m mostly sticking with Hellaverse with the examples (and...specifically my Cain) because it’s what I’ve been drawing most recently (and what got me back to drawing in the first place after not drawing for months). So I'm most comfortable in this fandom at the moment; open to tackling fan designs or OCs or fanart of the characters in general, but I’m also open to other fandoms/styles if you want something different. It'll just depend on what you're looking for.
Either way, let me know if you’re interested and we can discuss. My messenger is open.
Just got my schedule for next couple weeks and my hours are indeed pretty sparse and my supervisor is implying this trend will continue for a bit. And while it’s nice to have a lighter work load, it also means a lighter paycheck, which is not ideal. So I’ve decided it couldn't hurt to open up commissions for now:
I’m mostly sticking with Hellaverse with the examples (and...specifically my Cain) because it’s what I’ve been drawing most recently (and what got me back to drawing in the first place after not drawing for months). So I'm most comfortable in this fandom at the moment; open to tackling fan designs or OCs or fanart of the characters in general, but I’m also open to other fandoms/styles if you want something different. It'll just depend on what you're looking for.
Either way, let me know if you’re interested and we can discuss. My messenger is open.
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When you run into your mom in Hell after a millennia and you're just waiting for the blade to strike because you killed her baby and why wouldn't she hate you for that forever and want you dead on sight?
I mean, who hasn't been there, right?
Anyway, it was nice seeing you, @root-of-eve. Still not totally sure I buy this whole 'instant forgiveness' thing, but thanks for not trying to kill me on the spot. That was nice.
Uh so...Never done this before (obviously), but I've been told I need to be more 'sociable' so...fuck it.
Ask me whatever or start a conversation however you'd like. I'm good to talk about pretty much anything so if you've just been itching to shoot the shit with the first murderer (who hasn't, right?) then send me a message or ask or...whatever.
((OOC: Hi! @scammydoesstuff here. I've had this in the back of my mind for a while and decided to finally actually try it. Not 100% sure anyone will be interested in this, but gonna give it a shot regardless because it sounds kinda fun. Also it gives me an excuse to draw my boy more because I do intend to draw most of the responses and possibly any random posts I feel like making for him. You can also consider this a bit of an RP blog as well. Anything posted will be in-character unless otherwise noted, so feel free to engage however you'd like, if you'd like.
Additionally for contextual purposes: Anything with him and Abel that I've drawn before this - and anything I draw with them in the future that I do not post here - are separate from this account and should be treated as such. As of the start of this blog, the Cain here has not seen or spoken to Abel since he killed him. So do with that as you like.))
So this is something I wrote out a little while back now but just haven't posted anywhere because I wasn't sure I wanted to. I have another (much longer) piece that I would definitely not be able to post here (because it's almost 6K words). I'm still kinda working that out too, so we'll see.
Anyway, I wanted to try and write something from the perspective of my version of Cain. To explore this notion of committing his sin without actually comprehending the consequences and to specifically show how he'd react to the gravity of his own actions. As I've said before - and I cannot stress this enough - he still did it. He still killed Abel and did so brutally. This is just "what if he didn't mean to kill him?"
All that to say, this is basically just another interpretation in a long line of interpretations of this story and this character. If you're not into it; cool. If you like it; thanks! If you wanna discuss; by all means. I just finally feel like putting it out there.
So...enjoy, I guess?
I don't remember much else from that day and I don't remember what set me off past His rejection. Though, whatever it was will never be a good enough reason...
All I do remember is what happened after. When the fog in my mind lifted and the anger seeped coldly from my body, leaving me hot and deeply uncomfortable. In hindsight, I recognize that much to have been shame. A shame that I had lost myself to a moment of rage like a toddler throwing a tantrum.
I remember rising to my feet to walk away, beckoning for Abel to follow as I uttered a half-hearted apology to the silence. I remember turning when I didn't hear him follow or move. I remember thinking he was somehow sleeping. I remember nudging him to wake. I remember the vacant stare in his eyes that I noticed only then hadn't closed.
I remember the creeping dread as my movements quickened - all in a vain attempt to rouse my brother from this trance. I remember finally seeing the blood on my hands and the rest seeping into the ground from his head where I…I remember making the connection to the way an animal's body would lay like this after a kill - limp and motionless amid its own blood.
I remember the way that realization made me cold.
I remember begging it to not be true. Begging Abel to wake because the knowledge that my baby brother was...That I could have...
The apologies tumbled from my lips as I cradled him to my chest. Apologies I slowly realized would never reach him.
What I don't remember is how long I sat there with him, weeping and begging him to come back to me - insisting that I hadn't meant it. That I didn't know.
I don't remember what I did with his body.
Most retellings say I hid it. Guess that makes sense? Scared as I was in the moment, I probably did. Too afraid for anyone to find out and desperate to hide what I'd done.
Sounds pretty pathetic though, now that I think on it. I mean, really, at that time you could count on two hands the number of existing humans. It'd be foolish to believe no one would notice someone missing.
But this had never happened before. None of us had ever come close to dying. I didn't...How could I have known that we could...Th-That I could...?
No. It doesn't matter. That's an excuse. I want to believe I wouldn't have done it if I knew we could die. If I had any inkling that my actions would result in this grave consequence.
But I can't know for sure...
When God came to us...I remember the anger bubbling back up in His presence. Responding sharply and coldly when He asked me where my brother was. Denying responsibility that was rightfully mine. I wanted to blame Him for it instead. Surely it was this distant Being who dared to claim He 'loved us'.
But He's not the one who brought the stone down. It wasn't His hands stained with blood.
Still, what He called me... "Murderer..." Something about the way He spat this new word at me…Even before I truly understood its meaning, I remember how sick it made me feel.
I remember fighting with Dad, who hopped right onto the bandwagon of calling me a monster. Piece of shit...Even if he's not wrong, he didn't need to be such an ass about it. Hell, he barely tolerated Abel most of the time! Who the fuck is he to pretend to be so upset?
Mom's face has mostly faded from my memory by now. I know she was devastated (I can actually believe that), but, as was the case with most of her life, she wilted behind Adam, allowing him to handle the family 'drama'.
Then came my punishment. The details made my heart sink. The ground would never again yield produce to me and that I was to wander the earth a fugitive. I dared to retort - that I would simply die at the hands of whomever sought to slay me. I'd invite their justice and forfeit my life in return for the one I stole.
Yet another foolish mistake.
In response, God placed a mark upon my forehead. It burned like nothing I'd ever experienced. Only Hellfire has ever offered a comparable agony. My vision bled white as I writhed upon the ground and my ears rang from the screams that tore from me.
As the pain began to numb, He further explained that I would be granted divine protection from a premature death.
It was too much.
Denied death to pay my penance. Forced into an unbreaking solitude. Trapped beneath my crushing guilt loss that will never yield. Far too much for one man to bear.
But it was done.
Whatever any of them said after that or whatever I said in return was of no consequence. I was banished shortly after, departing my family to begin my eternal punishment.
After that, the memories blur and fade into a fuzzy recollection at best, and little more than a void in my mind at worse.
But I remember how shit hit the fan afterwards. The way His curse proved to be all too real. The many hungry days and nights if I couldn't find food already growing. Food I could no longer grow myself.
And then came the nightmares. The constant, painful reminders of my crime. As if the guilt wasn't already eating me alive. I remember praying once or twice. Begging God to grant me the slightest mercy and allow me but a brief respite from the haunting visions.
Another mistake, of course. That made them worse. How dare I, the wicked wretch who could never curry His favor - the murderous beast who took the life of one so innocent - beg forgiveness? No…not forgiveness. I never wanted His forgiveness. There's only one person I've ever dared to want forgiveness from.
And I'll never get it. Not that I'd deserve it, of course...
Because, after all this time - after what I did - why in all of Heaven or Hell or Earth would Abel ever forgive the monster who took his life?
Once again I have no good explanation or excuse. I just liked the idea of Cain seeing Abel wearing the helmet in person and how he...eh...doesn't like it one bit.
Anyway, this took way too long. I have a couple more ideas in mind, but definitely open to any suggestions or requests still! My asks are open.
It occurred to me that I haven't drawn my Cain as a human before now.
...so here's that:
I also decided to draw what would technically be an original version of his demon form (like, first day in Hell version) to show how he'd changed in the millennia he's been in Hell.
...so here's that too:
It also kinda gave me an excuse to draw a part of his demon anatomy that I hadn't actually depicted yet, but which I had kept in mind, at least. And that's him hooves. I imagine he'd kinda hate them, if only because he already feels like a monster/less human and seeing those instead of feet would definitely make that worse. So he wears his boots that are able to hide how inhuman they are so he can feel a little less monstrous. I wouldn't say there's, like, a ton of shame around them. If someone else were to see them, it's not like he's gonna be devastated. It's more that he just personally doesn't like them.
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I typically couldn't give a shit about Easter if I'm being honest. I like me the chocolate bunnies and the day offa work, but that's about it. That being said, this idea came to mind, and I wanted to draw it. So here we are.
In terms of how each of the brothers would approach the holiday:
Abel's all in on the fun traditions like coloring eggs, the candies, the big-ass bunny rabbit. It's fun, it's cute, he loves it. He's the reason the other two are engaging at all.
Seth is kinda being dragged along. I see him viewing the egg coloring and overconsumption of sugary treats as wholly unnecessary when they could just be observing the holiday through services n' shit. He'd care way more about the actual religious aspects of the holiday.
And then there's Cain who'd have no fucking idea what the hell Easter is. It would've come about long after his death and I don't exactly see them celebrating Easter in Hell so there's not much of a reason for him to have been exposed to it before now. He's basically here for free sweets and cuz Abel asked him to.