It Was All Better Than It Felt At The Time

Happy birthday to me

Deleted so many people off snap and insta;family included, and it felt good tbh, don’t miss them and won’t miss seeing them (some quick background im in Oregon and all of my family is in Chicago with some in Atlanta, facebook been deactivated for 7 years with random pop-ins for family updates))

The way people are so bold to just ask for money will always baffle me…at the very least give me a nude or something. I’d have to really know you/we talk regularly, not a lot or even often but at least once a few weeks lol

Person messaged me said “hey handsome” bro I got one picture of me on this whole thing lol had to mark it as spam

It feels like I’m too old to still feel lost

*sees a cute girl on social media that has a following….. runs to Reddit*

I want to breed you

My mother died in July her birthday is tomorrow 11/30 and idk how to feel about it. We were close enough but had some pretty unresolved issues at least I thought so and now she’s just gone. Even her dying was a fucking issue. I found out she has a stage 3 cancer and within a literal week she died, I saw her pretty much in a vegetative state and she died overnight. She deteriorated so fast within a week and a half to the point where her own blood was killing her. I still can process this, we were talking the beginning of July and then mid July she’s dying, family members telling me come out because she don’t have long yeah she’s in Chicago and I’m in Portland, Or….i go and she’s dead within 7hrs of me seeing her, and now her birthday is tomorrow

I strayed but I’m determined to finish No Nut November, but my sex drive is honestly ridiculous