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I can't stop smiling It's the way you talk to me I can't stop these feelings It's in the way you hold me I can't sleep at night You're always on my mind The way you touch me So soft and gentle The stars in the sky Remind me of the sparkle in your eyes "You mean twinkle?" You say Baby, the twinkle is what I get Every time I see you smile You are so incredibly gorgeous Your laughter is contagious And when you kiss me Shivers go down my spine Thinking of that thing you do Gives me butterflies inside I can't think straight It just feels so right I can't explain what you do to me I think you already know It's pretty plain to see I lost control a long time ago I am falling for you

It's uncontrollable!!

Later, and always remember, take care of you! :)

Later peeps, take care of you ;)

You know, even though a lot of people know the rights & wrongs of relationships when it comes to cheating or being the other…. This story that I have….. Guy & girl meet 8ish years ago, they instantly fell in love, the attraction between them undeniable & strong, it’s complicated though, the girl had a boyfriend at the time, but she still hung out with the guy, made sure to spend time with him, talked to him on the phone, they had a lot of really good conversations, held each other, but they never kissed or were “together”, but ohh did they want to be, anyways, the girl’s bf found out & confronted the guy, guy & girl argue, girl apologizes for her bf, girl & guy eventually fall apart! 4 years go by, girl hasn’t seen or talked to guy at all, she thinks of him everyday, another year goes by, still nothing, until the next year!! They each have children now but they finally reunite and it’s like nothing changed! Their feelings for each other, still strong as ever, then they finally kissed!! God, that kiss could make the world stop! It was magical, it made you weak in the knees….they eventually ended up “together” and it was more than just sex, it was everything that lead up to it, the talking, the cuddling, the kissing, the shower, just being wrapped up, intertwined with each other physically, mentally, emotionally……but my God!! Why can’t they go on without complications of having a bf/gf?? They don’t talk anymore AGAIN, but she still thinks of him everyday, and I mean EVERYDAY!! I don’t think she’s ever loved anyone else the way she loves him, he scares the shit out of her though, because he’s everything she ever wanted! They were never together as a couple, but they both know marriage is what they want from each other!! They both told each other, they could love each other forever, but they’re scared, because they feel so intensely about each other! Do they regret being together while having their own bf/gf? No!! But that doesn’t mean they didn’t feel bad, they knew it was wrong that they were “ok” with being the others “other”….so they stopped & now, that’s something to regret!! Passing by each other on the street without a single word said, not even a smile, not a wave, just quick glances as they walk past each other, and looking back when they’ve already walked by!!   They know they’re meant to be, it’s just always been bad timing for them!!

Damn right!!! Happened to me a few times……push, push, push, accuse, accuse, accuse, to the point where I didn’t give a fuck anymore!! I hate that I can’t move on from my past sometimes, things I did then followed me to now! People need to realize I am not who I used to be, I’m not who I wanna be just yet, but thank God I’m not that same girl I was back then!! I think this is another reason why those trying to do better with their lives struggle, people refuse to forgive, forget, and move on, concentrating on the bigger & better things in life!! Idk?! Just a thought! :/

And the wisdom to know the difference!!

Godless Cranium: “ A journey, would be my answer given the choices.”

Definitely not something I’d wish upon my worst nightmare that’s for sure!!! Heal your heart’s people!! Make them whole again!!! It’s not fun walking around lost in confusion!! SMILE…….LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE :D <3

Take care of you!

You ever get to the state of mind where nothing feels real? You look around and it’s just empty? You feel like you’re out of body? How do we get to that point and when there, how do we get out? It’s crazy that we let ourselves get to that point, everyone always says, it’s nothing….maybe it is?! What’s big to some is small to others, so how do we even judge it?

As she sits there on the bed, nothing seems right, and then she realizes, she’s all alone in this world! Yeahhh, suree, she’s got these great people “backing” her in every corner, but they’re never really there, you know!? Heart aches as she thinks of all that has come and gone in her life, one in particular! Remember how I said earlier that I didn’t want to struggle anymore? Well, this evening gave me a very clear reminder on why I always gave up in the first place! It’s crazy you know, how people prove time and time and again, that maybe it all really isn’t in your head!! Maybe it is me!! Am I that bad?!?

I just wish I had the strength of ‘Hayley’ and the confidence of ‘Brooke’!

Sometimes, I don’t know what I’m looking for, so please do, respond!

…..change is scary when you go at it alone, but for once, I feel like I can do it. I got this, I WILL be okay!! :D

I will be adding things from a previous blog.... I am new to ‘tumblr’, so this is just to get used to how this works, so please, bare with me, thanks!! :) lol