Jae|33|Taurus☀️ Tumblr In Spirit, Not In Truth

Just found out my favorite aunt who is also my godmother is being moved to hospice and I feel broken. It’s all too similar to how things went with my mom. Like damn how much can a person take of the same loss. Something has been gnawing at me like things weren’t right and I guess this is confirmation. Life sucks.

She passed today. I feel so numb. I can’t allow myself to cry too long about it because I fear I may not stop. She was in pain and tired. She’s at peace now and that gives me peace as well. She’s reunited with her husband, my mom and her mom. God keep her.

i pray in 2022 women stop creating their own pain through forcing relationships with men that don’t care and invest their time in things that actually offer them nurturing, growth, and fulfillment

for all the people commenting “and same for men” you are failing to realize that your personal experience as a man does not reshape reality. you PERSONALLY over prioritizing your relationship is not equivalent to being socially conditioned to put others before yourself. majority of girls have been taught to prioritize men/romantic relationships and have to unlearn it to prioritize themselves. you singularly making space for someone you shouldn’t have is human, but isn’t in relation to social conditioning. this post is for and about women.

but the moral of the story is, I’m more at peace in solitude than I could ever be with anyone else

I don’t ever want to go through another stage in my life where I am telling someone how they should treat me.