I think the last time I was heart broken. She was my first love and it was tough. I’m just so glad that we’re okay now. Bc she helped me grow so so so much. I owe her so much. I’m sorry I’m a shitty friend. If you ever see this, you mean so much!!! I can never thank you enough for how much you’ve been there for me. Love you so much.

I’m at this point in my life where I just feel lost. And it makes me sad, scared, and insecure honestly. I now have this amazing boyfriend in my life that I’ve grown a lot with as well. Our relationship has gone through a lot but it’s always something we work on together. He’s so patient with me and so caring. I feel like I take him for granted a lot. I get too selfish. And it’s something I’m working on bc I know he can’t always be with me/talking to me. I’m just so needy; I want to be able to be okay without needed so much reassurance from him. I want to be able to feel at peace, not worry so much, not overthink. I want to be able to trust again.

I haven’t told him I love him. Yet. I love him. So much. I’m just scared. I’m scared to tell him and get hurt. I don’t know what I would be hurt from. He’s amazing. Although sometimes too lazy for his own good. Smh. But I fucking love that idiot and i want him to know. I hope I have the courage to tell him soon. I’m seeing him tomorrow night. Should I tell him? If it feels right I will.