The dilemmas of being a woman. (men - take notes)

I remember growing up, I never wanted to be weird. But at that age, I didn’t know what weird was. So I tried my luck accordingly in different genres of people to see where I made music. I once even tried to fit in with 5th grade “bullies.” - lol I know, right? - One day I *accidentally* said the f word to this one kid who struck me out in kickball. The moment I got called to the principle’s office, I came up with an ingenious idea. The scenario went as following: 1. My big, intimidating, real life GI-Joe sized principal came up to me with dark, scary eyes and asked me what happened 2. I politely claimed that after striking me out, I might have mentioned that “I don’t give a buck” to the kid. But, this was only because I was not willing to give him one of my dollar bills in my pocket. There was no way in hell that I would’ve ever said that I don’t give a f*ck.. ~ it was at that moment that I realized that I might possibly be the worst liar on the planet. Also, I realized that I was never meant to be a bully, ever. When I think about it, though, why did I care in the first place? I’m molding my own cerebral cortex to be like these people instead of exploring the lobes of my inner brain. The people who are truly remembered are the people that get lost in their own serendipity and pursue their dreams, their true passions. Nobody other than you knows what your passion is and your God, Dao(Tao?), Buddha, whatever you believe in, leads you to what you are passionate about via a series of unfortunate events (or so it seems). I explained my passion in the last blog, but I want to explain what I truly want to do - and why.

My definition of passion is the undying need to express your inner beauty via physical intimacy; I guess thats why my pre-major is the philosophy of love and sex. For me, i love to dissect the mental processes behind sex. Not that I don’t like sex - obviously i think its one of the best things in the world - but I need to know what makes the little clocks in our heads go ticking and tocking in a harmonious rhythm. I need to know why we all (even secretly) love love. We’ve all had at least one moment in our lives when we just look at someone in their eyes and know that we would have amazing sex. Sometimes its a go, sometimes its a no. It’s all in the vibrations. When you find something (or someone) that youre truly passionate about, you will not EVER let anything get in the way of you. Of course, I believe the same goes for relationships. Do you feel this vibrant, passionate relationship with your partner or is it kind of *blah, boring*? if your answer is the latter, its time to reevaluate your sanity. HELLO IN THERE!! Sex is a wonderful thing..if this is past the third sexual encounter, and you aren’t feeling crazy, passionate euphoria, its time to ditch the fake feelings and move on. We all enjoy the idea of “having someone there” but when are you going to realize that if you are not one hundred percent satisfied sexually after the third intimate moment, your relationship is never going to work. There are 383948281018 bajillion people* in this world and its truly up to you to find your eternal happiness. Whether you are male or female, you deserve to be one hundred percent satisfied (sexually, mentally, emotionally) in your relationship. You should believe that yourself. You cant love, or even respect anyone else, before you love & respect yourself.