“you’re bleeding! why are you bleeding?” Saoirse Byrnes & Jack Donovan
It’s nearly six in the morning. The pub’s been closed for hours and Jack can’t understand why she’s here.
There’s blood everywhere: it’s staining his shirt, his hands, the sink … there’s no way he can explain it away. He’s lost a lot of blood and everything feels cloudy. He knows he needs to move, to speak, to say something, anything, to get her to leave.
“I’m okay.” He says, finally. He remembers, suddenly, that she lives upstairs with her brother. He’d forgotten that when he’d selected the bar as the closest place he could go to pull a bullet out of his shoulder.
But she’s not stupid. So she doesn’t go away. Instead, she’s fumbling with her phone, “I’m calling an ambulance.”
He knows he has to stop her. “Don’t – “ He wipes his hands quickly on a towel before moving to stop her. He doesn’t mean to, but he grabs her arm a bit too violently before she can dial the number. He catches her expression and he can see she’s scared. He quickly releases her arm. “I’m sorry,” He says, hastily, as he realizes he may have hurt her.
He exhales, takes a step back, runs a hand through his hair as he thinks. “It’s just – I’m okay,” He says, “Look, I was just – my brothers and I – we got drunk and we were stupid and I got hurt, but I know what I’m doing. I don’t need any help.”
She shakes her head. She doesn’t believe a word. “Don’t lie to me, Jack. You don’t drink.” She said, crossing her arms. “What’s going on?” She lowers her voice, “Are you in trouble?”
He’s searching for an answer for her, but he finds he can’t think of one fast enough. He’s always been good at thinking on his feet: it’s one of the things that’s kept him alive. But he knows she’ll see through all of them. He feels tired and he isn’t sure he wants to lie to her, either.
“I’m not in trouble.” He says, “Not anymore. You don’t need to know what happened. It’s better if you don’t. Go to bed. Forget you saw me. If you do that, everything will be okay. I promise.”








