Bord-J02hu4~Line

"And that is how I ended up staying up this Friday against my intention to go to bed early, because it is important to capture moments like these, these sudden mood swings, rather than lose them while sleeping. I had lost all perspective; I was wandering in a desperate purgatory (with a gray man in a gray boat on a gray river: an apathetic Charon swaying on an inert and phlegmatic Styx... and a whiny Baby Jesus throwing a tantrum on the train...). The orange sun was a flat disk stuck to a harsh and smoky sky. Hell was the Grand Central Subway on a Sunday morning. And I was condemned to burn in the ice, cold and numb, tossing and turning, emptied of feelings, in the crystalline, neutral, passive voids."

Sylva Plath

19. No water, no moon.

"In this way and that I tried to save the old bucket

Because the bamboo rope was worn out and about to break.

fell And then all of a sudden the bottom fell out and

No more water in the bucket!

No more moon in the water!"

Nyogen Senzaki

22. My heart burns like fire

Soyen Shaku, the first Zen teacher to come to America, said, "My heart burns like fire, but my eyes are as cold as dead ashes." He established the following rules, which he practiced every day of his life:

In the morning, before getting dressed, burn some incense and meditate.

Always go to bed at the same time. Eat at regular intervals. Eat in moderation and never to the point of being full.

Receive a guest with the same attitude you have when you're alone. When you're alone, maintain the same attitude you have when receiving guests.

Be careful what you say, and whatever you say, do.

When an opportunity presents itself, don't let it slip away, but think twice before acting.

Don't regret the past. Look to the future.

Have the fearless attitude of a hero and the tender heart of a child.

As soon as you go to bed, sleep as if it were your last sleep. As soon as you wake, leave the bed behind you as if you had thrown away a pair of old shoes.

Nyogen senzaki

- Why imagination die?

- because people have given up on hoping. And forget their dreams. so nothingness, spreads.

"Human nature is not like a machine which is built according to a model and which is made to do exactly what is prescribed for it, but like a tree which needs to grow and develop in every direction in accordance with the tendency of the internal forces which make it a living thing."

John Stuart Mill

Pensieri 50# ²

Diary abstract

Thoughts 50# ²

I understand your satisfaction

Mom

I know, you would have liked to do more

You think you haven't done anything yet

I feel how much you're suffering

But don't worry, it's okay

Il primo addio

anche se non lo saprò mai

sperò ci perdoneremo

per quello che ci siamo fatti

è complicato

ti auguro sempre

che tutto vada

meglio

addio.

J02hu4

The first goodbye

even if I'll never know

i hope we'll forgive each other

for what we did to each other

it's complicated

i always hope for you

that everything goes

better

goodbye.

"humanity's fatal tendency to no longer think about a thing when it is no longer doubtful is the cause of half of its errors"

John Stuart mill

Pensieri 50# ¹

Diary abstract

Thoughts 50# ¹

You know, what I miss

You can give it to me

It's beyond money, experience or

acquaintance

I miss the world they bode to me