J. T. MacK

Today is 1 year post OP (1- day of OP, 2- 1 week post OP, 3+4- 1 month post OP, 5+6- 6 months post OP, 7+8- 1 year post OP) #trans #transgender #transguy #topsurgerypostop #ftm #ftmtopsurgery https://www.instagram.com/p/CKmpp1kAqs2SR-L2LL65OaDxahabe8LLV9CcVE0/?igshid=363onsuqm1sl

My pumpkin for Halloween

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I’m alone Completely alone I just want to rip off my skin and leave. Leave this place I don’t belong I’m not the good student I’ve never been Told time and time again if u don’t go u won’t become anything It’s not that I don’t like school I don’t even know what it is any more I’m putting down to I just don’t belong I don’t fit in I’m not normal I never will be I can’t take stress And a human’s life is only stress Lost in a world where to be successful is to have a good paying job Only worrying about money When I tell people what I want to be all I get is “there is no money in that, u won’t be happy” It seems at every turn there is someone, someone to turn me down To tell me I’m going no where If I don’t go to school my life is over Everything is over and I don’t know what to do I’m getting torn apart It’s better to do it myself then let others do it I’m not cut out for this world I never have been I just wish I was normal This acing in side will kill me one day Why not end it now I try and I try Challenge the thoughts Come on its not that hard just do it Choose life over dead It’s not hard just do it? Challenge it Challenge it Challenge it Challenge it Challenge it Challenge it Challenge it Come on U have to try You have to It’s not that hard Just try Like I’m not trying I’ve been trying since I was born Have a successful life Do what u want! Always those words Nothing else just those words Try to have a happy life with all the stress of life Money Work Money Status Money Family Money Schooling Money Qualifications Money Money Money Money I hate it The existence of it The creation of it The idea of it They base happiness on money It drives me crazy But u can’t get money without school You can’t get anywhere without school Just look To have a good paying job u need school You don’t want to be living on the streets Alone Terrified I’m alone now I’m terrified now The only thing I have is a home That’s more than some But I’m just a kid It’s not even mine Anything happens I’m on the street any way I have no future Nothing to live for But I want to try But it’s so hard to try I’m just lazy and useless Useless Worthless Not future Lowest Of The Low

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I love this song

If only I had wings I would soar so high and plummet back down only to catch my self the last second. To glide on the wind with nothing under me the tickle of feathers. The beating of strong wings. If only I could fly