I fall a lot.

me:

That’s why it’s so tough to break those habits and patterns, you can’t hate your way out of them. It’s been really helpful for me to reframe triggers and urges that way, instead of saying “you’re an adult you shouldn’t still be feeling like this, you’re stupid and immature for still wanting to self-harm” 

I’m trying to say things like 

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s having sex because you want to be used or abused or defiled. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

This is fascinating to me - I am sharing a screencap of a twitter post on tumblr of a list of desires - what direct evidence am I supposed to put when simply sharing a photo, @luckyboys1?

Frankly, it is not my job to convince supporters of 45 why his actions taken as president are worthy of impeachment. It’s not my job to try and convince people why he’s simply an awful person. If we have made it to the middle of 2019 and you’re “on the fence” about his actions, you’re either willfully ignorant or incapable of being reasoned with in the first place. Economy, civil rights, diplomacy, education, income inequality - you name it, it has suffered with him as president. If we’ve made it to this point and you still defend him (putting aside the human rights violations, his tariffs and tax cuts alone have done lasting damage to the economy) nothing I can say will change your mind! 

Supporters of conservative policies love to shift the burden of proof and demand evidence, demand debate, but there is no good faith present. No one comes out with proof and direct evidence about how the tariffs have improved domestic manufacturing (they haven’t), no one comes with proof that locking refugees in cells has reduced crime or kept the border “safe” (they haven’t) - but I am supposed to take hours out of my day to do your fucking job and research?

45 getting elected was not “my fault” in the first place. I screamed from the moment he secured the nomination, I donated, I phone banked, I was involved in local efforts to get out the vote. I did every thing one individual can do. What got that man elected was bullshit pseudo-centrism acting as if “both sides are the same and just as bad” and “my vote doesn’t even matter anyway”. What got him elected was people being afraid of a changing world and taken in by a charlatan who promised them that they were in the right and it was everyone else who was wrong. It was 30 years of district gerrymandering and an archaic electoral college that allowed someone to dramatically lose the popular vote but still win the election.