Cele

Me- I'm really gonna starve myself

my mutuals and i praying that july will be the month we miraculously lose 30 lbs:

"Wow! You look great! Have you lost weight? Keep it up!"

I need to be underweight again, then someone will care about me.

"its ok to stop counting calories"

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Things I've wanted to brag about to friends (but I can't, for obvious reasons):

i actually hate how ed works. i hate how much i question if i'm faking it or not. somedays i eat 600 cals and cry about it and get anxious. other days i'm so fucking sad and eat 2500-3000 cals, eat shit tons of fear foods without freaking out and say "fuck it, it wouldn't matter if i lost weight anyway, my life will be as shitty as it is now" and don't shed a tear or get icky about it. it makes me question if i really have a disordered eating pattern or if i'm just trying to find a way to cope for all other shit going on in life.