every thorn has its rose

who do you think will be the best dressed at the amas?

i know i said this and made you confirm except i wasn't prepared for the emotions and betrayal i would be feeling. i can't be held back, i need to cover your beautiful face in kisses without a doubt. you know how perfect you would be in a scream queen role? get your ass up and find the perfect script for this. now, you're telling me i'm going have to collect merch for this movie too? i can't wait for this romantic drama. what would you like to know? i can tell you, i was very drunk when i said those words. it's not like i haven't felt them, but it's early and it's almost like i dropped a bomb on him. it feels like he'll start to avoid me because i'm crazy or something. he makes me feel like a princess, there's something about him, and it drives me over the edge. pause, you asked out a football player? who? when? where are you going to go? i need these details, oh god, this is way more important.

Don't feel betrayed! I was just going by what you said, you're welcome to cover my face in kisses as much as you'd like. You've just made my day right now because I would love to be a scream queen! I'm going to start searching now, I want to be in all the horror films. I'm excited about this romantic drama though, and I'm filming in Boston, and I love that city. I'm going to assume he's a good guy, right? Since you've fallen for him and all? Does he treat you right? That's what matters most to me. Sometimes you can't help when you fall for someone, babe, even if you feel it's early. And he's not avoided you, right? So I'm sure you're just being silly! I love that he treats you like a princess, and that's exactly how you deserve to be treated. I'm a little jealous, I miss the princess treatment. But I love that he drives you over the edge, that's exactly the kind of man you need! I did, and it was Brock Purdy. And I think he wants to take me to his favorite Italian place? But I also made plans to get completely wrecked in the best way possible by Austin, so there's that.

I'm all for us doing something together,  and honestly, sign me up to doing a movie with you! Though I'd settle for going to an event or a fashion show with you, but really I think we'd be awesome in a movie together. You might be right that the world is scared at how amazing we'd be together, I'm sure they wouldn't know how to handle us! Things in the world of Zendaya are a little crazy, but good. What about you? How is everything going with you?

I'll be happy to help out musically however much I can! But yes, we all heard you singing, there's no denying you got a voice there. I wanna say I didn't do much acting and what I did can barely be counted as that. Years ago, we did this teeny tiny thing called 'Fangirl' where the whole band basically just played themselves and that alone was hard. And then I got a tiny role in the 'Spinning Gold' movie. Which was fun, but I wouldn't say I did exceptionally great. More of an average okay there. Alright, for writing music I think most of the time it's people actually finding ways to feel understood by you putting your own heart on your sleeves, rather than anyone judging you for it. Of course some people are gonna talk, but it's never gonna be all about that but about helping people feel understood when they realize you may just be going through the same things as them. When you write songs about.. - sensual songs, that's a nice way to put it - you'll just learn to be okay with your parents possibly realizing what you're writing about. I'm not gonna lie, we've had several songs about more adult topics and thankfully none of our parents gave us crap about it.

Which you're very sweet for, so thank you for offering to help me out if I dip my toes back into the music scene! I was wondering if you did anything I might have seen you in, but now you've got me wanting to check these things out just so I can see your acting chops! I'm sure you did a lot better than you thought you did, though, and I'll have to check it out! I agree with you on that point when it comes to writing music, and a lot of the time when you write something, there usually is someone else that's going through the same thing at that time. Or they've gone through something like that in the past, so they can really understand the lyrics and what you're writing. Even with knowing that, I still worry sometimes that someone is going to judge me, but I'm just a person that worries. It's something I'm working on. I'm laughing a little at myself for saying sensual songs, instead of being a big girl and just calling it what it is. But that was the word that popped into my head at the time. But you're right, and honestly, I shouldn't worry what my parents would think because we're all adults and they know I'm far from innocent. I obviously need to listen to your music more because I didn't realize you had a few songs that were more adult topics.

and I'll never tire of saying this nor seeing your precious smile. of course! don't you know how much I adore you? making time for you is nothing! easy peasy or so I hope. with this tour schedule, I'm left scratching my head. haha. but hey, if you're free, you're more than welcome to come to my show on the 5th. I'll be performing at the promiseland festival in sydney, australia. it's going to be a wild ride. you know me, daya boo—putting pen to paper whenever the muse strikes and I have a lot of it these days. hehe. we should totally do a girl's trip to the caribbean. sun, sand, and beach is our aesthetic for happy living. you're absolutely killing paris fashion week, by the way. giving the models a run for their money like the triple threat you are. that I fucking do! christian is amazing. has envisioned this whole life with me and that has me feeling pretty excited. I'll be waiting for the update, then. oooh, and what did he say? likewise, superstar.

You're the best, which I know you know, but I can't help reminding you every now and then that you're wonderful. And I love hearing how much you adore me, since I adore you right back! Girl, if I didn't have plans, I'd be in Australia seeing you right now for sure. Especially when I love being in Sydney so much! But you'll have to let me know how it went, but I just know you're going to kill it on stage. I'm glad to hear that you've got a lot of muse, that makes me so happy for you! Oh, you're speaking my language because that's exactly what I need right now! And thank you, I was nervous about what I was wearing in Paris, but I love all the positive feedback. I saw someone say that models should be lucky I don't change careers, and it made me crack up. Girl, I'm so happy for you, though I still lowkey want to give him a talking to and make sure he's treating you well. Because you deserve nothing but good, which I know you know. Well, he said yes, and he's on the same team as Christian! Though honestly, I'm playing the field a little, which I never thought I'd say.

let me take you out on the town. we'll find a way to unleash your wild side - i'm sure it'll reveal itself after a couple of strong margaritas. we sure as fuck would. drunk or not, there's no doubt that we'd stay on perfect pitch and get all the lyrics right. ooh, i'm excited for you and this mystery blind date. first dates can be nerve-racking, but so much fun - especially if you two have chemistry and hit it off. i'm manifesting that this girl gives you butterflies and that you have a magical first date with her. asking guys out when convention expects it to be the other way around does buck tradition a bit, but i'm proud of you for having the confidence to make the first move. i used to be like that, too, always waiting around for men to ask me out first, but i've learned to just go for it. life's too short not to. thank you, babe, i've been having the best time on tour. i'm so stoked for you to come out, i just know you're gonna love the show from start to finish.

Oh, I would love that, because I feel like I don't let my wild side out near enough. I know you're busy with tour right now, but as soon as you're not, we'll make this happen! Well, it's not a mystery blind date anymore, as she reached out to me and told me who she was. Her name is Ella, and she's gorgeous, so I feel a lot better about it now. I'll admit that it's a little odd being the one to make the first move, I'm not really used to doing that. But, I figured if I'm going to get over Tom and move forward, I need to put myself out there more. I love the way that you think though, and you're right, life is too short not to go for it . And I've been going for it in a couple situations now, I feel like a different person a little. I'm so glad that you've been having such a great time on your tour, and honestly, I have been seeing so many amazing photos and videos from it. You're killing it out there, and I know I'll be seeing you perform to soon! And there's no doubt I'll love the show from start to finish too! / @scbrinac

i am! hope it's not too disappointed! truly, they are diabolical with this whole idea of a blind date. i think we had the same fears because you never know these days. that is true, we can have an amazing date and just deal with the normal amount of nerves that come from a first date. oh, i'm flattered! when i found out that it was you, i actually gasped and told my friend that he better not be joking. since you are absolutely lovely!

I am not disappointed in the slightest! Though I agree that they're diabolical, especially when they don't give you any clues outside of she's an actress! I'm glad that we had the same fears though, now I don't feel so bad assuming the worst. So, where should we have this amazing date, do you think? I'll admit I'm a little more nervous knowing it's you, because you're so talented and very pretty. Plus, I just get nervous in situations like first dates anyway, I always worry about every outcome, so I'll apologize now for that. Also, you're so sweet! I love your reaction when you found out it was me, and honestly, that makes me feel better too.

never imagined what a crazy ride it would be either! we are clearly a match made in heaven. we never have a bad time plus if things are boring around us? we make sure to change that! i do know that and that is why it's going to be amazing. oh my god, i'm jealous of those two. it sounds like it would be fun! hell yes, i know how hard working we both are and we deserve to be pampered. yeah, i have to admit, not loving that the two of you aren't on good terms. i do get that it's not my business though. i do kind of want it too but we'll see what happens. please, do! give me something to look at between takes that will make me laugh. well no time like the present to start having fun again? tom and you are on good terms? that's good! listen, we embrace our old age and know ourselves. we can cuddle with tank and noon in bed, watch some true crime and sleep early!

Girl, me either! It really has been a crazy ride, but I got to agree that we're a match made in heaven. And you're right about us never having a bad time, and we always make sure it's never boring. If you weren't working, I would have invited you to come to New York with me, it was such a fun time. Or I could have taken you to Paris with me since I'm there right now, but I know you're working hard right now. And you're right, we really do both deserve to be pampered, and I'm here for it. Maybe we should do a spa weekend sometime soon and really get pampered? I'll admit that even I wish we were on better terms, but I don't think that's ever going to happen, and I understand why he feels the way he does, even if I give him a hard time back. I was going to post some things on Instagram from Paris, but I forgot, though I'll have to send you the video I took of when I was people watching. Well, I am having some fun, with some people, I'll admit to that. And we are, we've been texting and everything. It's been good. That's very true, sometimes I swear I'm 28 going on 85. I love the idea of cuddling with Tank and Noon in bed, we'll pick the best true crime shows to watch too, and yes, sleeping early is very important.

how can i not adore you? let's be honest, not many people can resist your beauty and i'm one of those people. you're very welcome, holding grudges doesn't get me anywhere besides bad karma. i'm jus' saying if you ever want to pretend it didn't happen then i'll follow your lead as always! you can come over to mine, i bought a couple new pieces of art. you might like to see those and well i did get new chairs. not sure why i went chair shopping, but i felt like i needed more comfortable ones in the kitchen. let me clarify, i would love your visit to end up with you on the kitchen counter and between your legs. it just happens the ball is in your court and if you tell me you don't want anything to happen, nothing will happen. if you tell me that you want me to eat you up like a three-course meal then i guess i'll have to leave the actual dinner for you. i'll be fine having you for all three courses. besides, it may be i want to see you before i start filming for my new project.

I feel the same way about you, you're very easy to adore after all, I think it's all that charm you have. Exactly, which is why I do my best not to hold grudges either, I don't want that karma. I don't want to pretend it didn't happen, it was a good night, and I want to remember that. I'm always open to seeing some new art pieces, and maybe testing out those new chairs of yours. Thank you for clarifying, and honestly, I love the idea of me on the kitchen counter with you between my legs. Look, it's safe to say I can't get that night we spent together out of my head, and I do want something to happen. Plus, you eating me up like a three-course meal sounds like a great way to spend the night, and now it's the only thing I can think about, so thank you for that. Plus, I do want to see you before you start filming your new project and before I start filming mine. I'm just leaving Paris now, but I can make you my first stop when I get back if you'd like?

You're probably super busy and forgot about lil old me. Which makes me super sad, Z. What have you been up to in your life? Cause I might miss you just a little bit. Don't make me admit that again, though. @itszendayamaree

While I am a little busy at the moment because I had to travel to Paris, I'm never too busy that I would forget about you, of course. So don't be sad, though I guess if you're really sad about not talking to me for a while, I could come up with a few ways to cheer you up. Well, I just went to Paris for fashion week, but besides that, I've been taking a much needed break before I start filming toward the end of the month. What have you been up to? You might miss me? I guess I might miss you just a little too. We'll have to make time for each other then, right? I wouldn't want you to have to admit that you might miss me again and all.

i finally convinced my mate to tell me who in the world they had set me up with. i don't know about you but i was on the verge of losing my mind not knowing. purely because i wanted to plan and it's hard to do that when i didn't know who i had the pleasure of spending an evening with. so, sorry, if this ruined the surprise or anything. @itszendayamaree

You're the one that I've been set up with? I'm so damn relieved, you have no idea. I've been losing my mind not knowing, and I've been worried that my friend was playing a trick on me, and I was going to be going on the blind date with someone who was truly awful. I'm so glad that's not the case. Plus, now that we both know, we can make sure we have an amazing date, right? I'm not at all upset that it's ruined the surprise, I'm thankful I know now and feel pretty happy that my friend has good taste!