meow

Yes, I’m in a decent relationship. Yes, I have a wonderful dog. Yes, I’ve never been closer with my family. and yes, I have a great job that I love.  But it feels like something is missing...like there’s a gap in my life. I’m not sure if this is because I finally have a break and am able to breathe or if I’m slipping back into my depression. I have no friends that I see regularly.  My significant other just moved home (maybe for good) since they just graduated. And on top of the added distance, we have been arguing more than usual and he has brought up breaking up twice within a week, so that’s been on my mind.  Should we? Feelings for a high school crush have come up in the past month, they could move to the other side of the country for work, half the time I think their family hates me. This is not what I imagined for my life. I wanted a good person with a family that I could get along with and not be scared around, especially scared that they are talking bad about me behind my back. I wanted a person that would get along with my family and not complain about spending too much time with them. I wanted a person that understands that sometimes I need some time to myself and not get angry at me when I need the space. I wanted a person who I could share my interests with. Someone who cares about my beliefs.  I just need a best friend I can confide in.