Losing Power
Sigh.
I am having power issues. Â On so many levels. Â First my poor mbp's power adapter has died a crappy cabley death right at the MBP. Â Second, the power adapters that are presently installed in BIG are about 30W too wimpy. Â Third, my personal power is at an all time low both in terms of fitness and overall schedule/health/attitude/confidence level. Â I need to bring my A game if I'm going to convince a bunch of brazilians they need me instead of someone with 4 times my experience level. Â I need to bring it and bring it hard. Â Right now... I just feel like playing LoL. Â I know this feeling, this is depression. Â I'm not sure why; this next phase should be exciting. Â Instead, I'm totally indifferent. Â I was thinking about it tonight while watching the Perseids at Overlook park for 45 minutes before some stratus clouds rolled in and blocked a borderline breathtaking show. Â What do I want to do now? Â What do I want to be when I grow up? Â Where do I want my career to go? Â I keep jumping to little things but I can't help but feel I'm dancing around some greater ambition that no present opportunity is really going to tap. Â Oh well... that's kind of what life is about... figuring out what makes us happy and pursuing that with every breath. Â Hmmm, just writing this has given me a little bit of clarity.
















