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Why do I always think of you it’s been years and I can’t seem to shake you. I want to reach out but I feel as if it would end badly. I’m sorry I asked you to never ghost me but then I had done it to you. If your reading this I miss you and you have been in my dreams lately. But I will be wishing you the best and I hope life has been treating you well.

Posting on here means nothing, life is meaningless and nothing in the world is worth living. I’m sad I’m done. I have been done for years. I hate that I have silently let myself get so close to the idea that suicide is worth doing. Because there isn’t much to live for when life just doesn’t want to get better despite why I do. I can’t tell my mom my brother touched me. I can’t tell my mom or my Gf I’m trapped in the wrong body. And living a life with those secrets is such a burden I just don’t want to anymore.

I miss having a friend. I have been so alone and wishing someone would want to hang out but when I seem to make plans in advance something always happens day of and I never get to see anyone. I’m beginning to think I don’t matter and that my life isn’t worth anything anymore. I know my life isn’t based off the friends that I had but the people I have in my life. But even those people don’t even make an effort. My own family won’t message me unless I message them. I’m just sad, alone and hopeless…. What’s new :/