Ellie 🍀

(These are copied from my Notes app, haha-)

It is the kind in which he is without a HEV suit, but in a white tanktop and white shorts, he has a little longer hair, slightly longer than in the original. He is also slimmer. But in this version, I portray his psychological status by “places”. Each place represents his psychological state. This version of him is more vulnerable, a kind that… can’t do anything. He shows up in places where he sees the absolute horrors of society, but he can’t do anything but just watch. He gets more and more insecure throughout the time. But, he is selective mute. Unlike the "original".

He is more expressive than OG Gordon too.

It all starts with him waking up in a white room on the cold floor, with a mirror hanging on a wall, facing him as he stood up. Every new stage of mind he reaches, he wakes up in there again, but his look in the mirror changes, sometimes the light in the room slowly disappears the more he sees the horror of society in full view.

He can’t do anything about it but just stare. And cry.

It ends with him surrounded by everyone he knows, the closer ones, the ones he loves, even the ones he hates. Like I said, they’re all grey except one thing that is showed in their appearance which determines their priorities. They all praise him, but he steps back, steps back more, and more, until he falls into a pit… and completely disappears after that. Deleting his own appearance from everyone’s memory, to not cause harm to them again.

But he wakes up. Everything’s repeated. Because he has to live, not as a hero, but for the sake of others. Repeated. Respawned. But by the means of that, he is fully renewed; has to face the horrors again. And again.

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It has weirdcore-dreamcore vibes. There is a scene he witnesses in front of his friends, everyone he knows, but they’re all just coloured in gray, and each single one of them has a specific thing that is only shown in their appearance they prioritize in themselves. Like for instance, G-Man is all coloured in gray and his face doesn’t show anything except his eyes— because he is the one who watches all along.

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