i'm dr. cx, by the way. thirtysomething, lesbian, she/her/hers, living in the uk. if you're feeling generous, i do in theory have ko-fi https://ko-fi.com/islandoforder
really in love with this fic just have to, you know, write it
A momentās hesitation. Is it dishonoring Shannon to ignore this shade? Or is it dishonoring her to go talk to it, to her? The woman gives a sly grin that Eddie saw a hundred thousand times on Shannonās face, and as she looks up, she makes direct eye contact with Eddie, and it softens into a different smile, into an expression he never thought heād see again.Ā
This has to be a sign from the gods. Eddie might not like to call on them, not if he can help it, was always taught itās safer to escape their notice, but he knows better than to ignore their direct wishes. History is littered with examples of exactly why thatās dangerous, the knock on effects of hubris are myriad and world-changing. It doesnāt matter whether he wants to approach this woman, heĀ hasĀ to.Ā
āHey, Iām going to hit the head, Iāll be right back,ā he says, getting up from the table, and Chris and Marisol wave him off easily, chattering away.Ā
He circles, just a little, walking up past the bathrooms, wending his way closer and closer to her shop. Throughout, as she talks to customers, she throws glances his way. Itās like she canāt help herself, finding him like itās fated. Eddie feels outside his own body, like heās in story, a myth of old.Ā
Itās rare for the gods to bring people back from the dead, and he didnāt make the journey to the underworld himself, and besides, he can see sheāsĀ notĀ Shannon. Sheās just also notĀ notĀ Shannon.Ā
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of course my darling, you know I'd never actually make you choose
Heās been woken up by pain before, though itās been years now. You donāt forget what that feels like though. Pain so sharp it dulls again, a throbbing ache that makes up the backbone of your world. He lies there, panting through it, aching waves of pain that wash over him in rhythm.Ā
It takes a little too long to realize an alarm is blaring as well. The pain sharpens in waves because thereās a loud noise screaming at him in those moments. It all seems very urgent for a guy who was sure he wasnāt waking up ever again.Ā
Heās up and moving before he even realizes it, the nature of their training so drummed into them. You hear alarm, you start moving. Itās infinitely easier to fall back on training, to practically let autopilot take over, and focus on the realities of what this all means later.Ā
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As he approaches the pew with the 118 sitting in it, he can hear the susurrus of whispers around the room, and then clearer than any of the others by virtue of whoās talking, āSo thatās him?ā
āYeah, Adriana,ā says Eddie. āThatās him.ā
āHe seems sweet,ā says Adriana.
āHe can hear you,ā says Eddie pointedly, and Buck has to stifle a little laugh.Ā
āIām not complaining,ā he mutters, as he takes a seat between Maddie and Bobby.Ā
āIām sure,ā says Eddie dryly, and in the same moment Bobby asks, āWhat was that?ā so Buck has to focus up.
āOh, nothing, just talking to myself,ā says Buck airily. āHow are you doing?ā
Bobby looks like heās aged years in the few days since the hit and run.Ā
Buck pauses, hyper aware that they have a much larger audience than Maddie could know. It canāt hurt to remind everyone here that heās on good terms with the head of their pack.
āYeah,ā he says after a moment. āWe met after she broke her leg, she cooks the best enchiladas Iāve ever had.ā As they get closer to the front, and he sees how incredibly stiff looks up ahead, he adds, āShe loves Eddie and Chris more than anything.ā Up ahead, he sees Eddie soften just a little at the reminder.Ā
āIām glad,ā says Maddie, āAnd itās nice to see so many of his family flew out for this as well.ā
āYeah,ā says Buck, tries to be as neutral as he can be. āTheyāre a close family, for all that theyāre across multiple states.ā
A beat of silence, and Buck thinks for a brief moment about the difference between the Diaz pack and his own. Between the fact that the Diazes might not have approved of Shannon in a variety of ways, but so many of them are here to show their love and support for Eddie and Chris despite that. Between the unshakeable fact that his own pack can only really rely on the people in this room, and Athena Grant, who was working today. The 118 has almost inadvertently collected people who donāt really have anywhere else to turn, who donāt have a strong support system. Theyāre a close knit group, and thereās a reason for that.
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okay so let's start with a lil snippet from pt 2 of canine teeth
āEvancito,ā says Isabel, from just inside the entrance, āIt is good to see you.ā She pulls him close, drops a kiss on each cheek, and Buck can feel his own shoulders relaxing. āThank you for coming,ā she says, earnest, as she holds him by each shoulder.Ā
āNowhere else Iād want to be,ā says Buck earnestly. āHere, let me introduce you to my sister, Maddie, and our coworkers, Chimney, Hen, her wife Karen, and our Captain, Bobby.āĀ
āItās a pleasure to meet you all,ā says Isabel, āEddie is up at the front with Christopher, Iām sure heāll be glad to see you all.āĀ
āShe seems nice,ā says Maddie in an undertone as they walk up the aisle towards Eddie and Chris.Ā
āIsabel?ā asks Buck, āOh yeah, sheās the best.āĀ
āDidnāt realize you knew his grandmother so well,ā says Maddie thoughtfully.Ā
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lavonte finishing that conversation with maya by doing a lil shovel talk for coming in between him and his boy bestieā¦.. my guy you are simply never going to beat the allegations
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genuinely wild how black and white maya thinks, she would do alarmingly well on twt and tumblr like girl genuinely chill out you can want to help fix things and also want to plan for more things than just that
Submissions are now open for Family/Firefam week! Send in your favorite fics about the 118, the Diaz and Buckley families, found family dynamics, and the people who stand by Buck and Eddie no matter what.
Sometimes all it takes is one chapter to tell a story. This week's recs celebrate one shots that tell unforgettable stories in a single sitting.
37 fic recs under the cut:
1. tell me the truth will disappear if i'm holding your hands by ryliversbuddie (@ryliversbuddie) (11.4k, Teen)
Warnings: Graphic Depictions of Violence; blood and injury details, medical procedureĀ
9x18 spec/fix it fic where buck is in the elevator with eddie and had to do a field transfusionĀ
Reccer says: the tension of the situation in the hospital was so well conveyed. the buck/eddie dynamic was so well written. the blood transfusion is done in a poetic way and is a red string of fate metaphor. and a third party feelings confession!
2. Table For Two In Manhattan by buckmeetsboy (12.6k, General)
Warnings: grief/mourningĀ
Three years after Bobby's funeral, Eddie and Buck finally talk.Ā
Reccer says: it's an incredibly well-written, incredibly tender story about grief and love and the characterization of both Buck and Eddie is so on point. It made me cry and laugh and cry again.Ā Ā
3. authentication by v_greyson (greyson) (@vgreysoncellars) (18k, Explicit)
Warnings: none
Eddie judges Buck's taste in guys, which somehow leads to him picking guys out for Buck on night's out. In a chill and normal and platonic and straight way.Ā
Reccer says: funny and hot and heartfelt by turnsĀ
4. glass on the pavement under my shoe by doitgently (@doitbuckley) (9.4k, Teen)
Warnings: Near Death Experiences, Major Character InjuryĀ
Buck takes a great big tumble. Like always, Eddie is right behind him.Ā
Reccer says: incredible whump with a really really excellent dark dry sense of humor that fits the tone perfectly. the character voices here are incredible.
5. how do I say what you already know by martianbarnes (@diazboys) (5.1k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Buck asks Eddie to dinner. Eddie doesn't think much about it.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
6. listen (do you want to know a secret) by Minalover (@Minalover) (3.6k, General)
Warnings: none
Buck throws a barbecue at Bobby's with some surprisesĀ
Reccer says: absolutely adorable, bright and bubbly and sweet!Ā
7. ain't i fallen (in love) by headlightsoup (14.4k, Explicit)
Warnings: Implied/referenced homophobiaĀ
After the events of Mother's Boy, Buck and Eddie drive home together. Buck does his best to navigate his feelings.Ā
Reccer says: This is a really lovely character exploration with a bonus of hot sex.Ā
8. Ā the tortured poets department by colonoscopys (19k, Explicit)
Warnings: NoneĀ
The first time Buck touched him, Eddie blew an ambulance up. (Ft. Witch!Eddie)Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
9. Iām in a situation by rotisserie_marie_chicken (3.7k, General)
Warnings: none
Buck calls Eddie when he gets into a situation just before Eddieās move to El Paso. They (kind of) talk about it.Ā
Reccer says: Thereās no rush to resolve the conflict. The fic is just okay with exploring their dynamic in a short slice of time and itās a wonderful, angsty read.Ā
10. Little by little (move a little closer to me) by tyremarbles (@brratbuck) (12.3k, Teen)
Warnings: none
5 times Eddie sneaks a taste of something Buck baked and 1 time Buck sneaks a taste of something insteadĀ
Reccer says: I liked it!
11. Surprise Me by DJW760 (15.7k, General)
Warnings: none
5 times Buck knows exactly what food to get Eddie, and the 1 time Eddie knows exactly what to get BuckĀ
Reccer says: I liked it!
12. you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad by bellabrady (5k, General)
Warnings: none
Eddie is annoyed with Buck for being so very kissable but his drunk self isn't the best at phrasing things.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
13. Ā Ā The Wedding Planner by xylodemon (@xylodemon) (15.3k, Explicit)
Warnings: none
Buck starts accidentally planning his wedding with Eddie before they're dating.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
14. eau de vie by veil_nebula (@eddiesgayladder ) (4.6k, Explicit)
Warnings: Undernegotiated KinkĀ
Eddie has an oral fixation, and Buck has an idea.Ā
Reccer says: excellent porn, and genuinely lovely prose while the boys fuck nastyĀ
15. forbearance by waterlanding (@exhausteddiaz) (5.7k, Explicit)
Warnings: none
Buck forces himself to slow down, take a second. Replay the last five minutes in his head. He can look at this logically, assess the facts: he and Eddie had gone out. He and Eddie had a few drinks. He and Eddie had been shooting the shit and now heās rifling through his nightstand, grabbing for a device that keeps your dick from getting hard.
Because Buck said heād show it. To Eddie.Ā
Reccer says: incredibly in-character sexual dynamics, and very very good and hot pornĀ
16. Elevator Pitch by floatyourboat1997 (@floatboats) (11.7k, Teen)
Warnings: none
The fic where the 118 gets trapped in an elevator, and with too much free time on their hands, they treat it as an impromptu therapy sesh.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
17. light, dark, light again by fruitsdoesnotknow (@fruitsdontknow) (5.6k, Teen)
Warnings: Author Chose Not to Use Archive WarningsĀ
Eddie finds out that Buck used to have a crush on him. Past tense. He spirals about it.Ā
Reccer says: Deeply sweet, full of the fear of missed chancesĀ
18. Hit and Run by Talls (@tallsinspace) (7.7k, Mature)
Warnings: none
"Youāre acting like youāre not going to have to miss me,ā Buck says, pressing the bruise. āLike Iāll be able to come over whenever I want, crash at your place when I get too tired, like youāre not leaving the timezone.ā
āYeah, well Iām trying to keep you in my life,ā Eddie bites out, āand youāre acting like this is some kind of permanent goodbye.ā
āThis is goodbye, Eddie,ā Buck retorts, his jaw tense. āYouāre leaving.āĀ Ā Ā Ā
Reccer says: it's beautiful and aching and catharticĀ
19. 800 Miles by facewithoutheart (@facewithoutheart) (1.9k, Teen)
Warnings: brief and vague references to canonical suicide attemptĀ
Buck tells Maddie that he plans to move to Texas with Eddie. Maddie goes straight to Eddie about it.Ā
Reccer says: Maddie and Eddie is such an underrated and underrepresented dynamic, and this is a really perfect look at the two of them in a very difficult moment.Ā
20. the ghost you're dressed up as by MegsWrites (@megsvstheworld) (5.2k, Teen)
Warnings: Author Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings; car accidents, some depiction of blood and injury, minor character death, minor haunting, supernatural elementsĀ
Eddie falls off a cliff and climbs a mountain. And finds a little help along the way.Ā
Reccer says: It's tender! I teared up reading this, I felt each of those 5k words, and it felt like a 9-1-1 episode!Ā
When Buck starts a fight in a bar, a stranger comes to his rescue. Buck brings him back to his hotel to patch him up.Ā
Reccer says: Amazing fic and so so so hot, with a nice twist at the end ;)Ā
22. vile prophecy (scrape it out of me) by literalmetaphor (@absolutelybifurious) (17.6k, Explicit)
Warnings: Author Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings; Mildly Dubious Consent, Passive SuicidalityĀ
Eddie gets a pair of wings that may or may not be terminal.Ā
Reccer says: This is a really gorgeous exploration of Eddie's tendency towards self-sacrifice. The way Buck loves him is also so tender.Ā
23. Eddie Diaz Picks a Book by CourtepointeClementine, sunlight (@courtepointeclementine, @justonebigbee) (21.8k, Mature)
Warnings: none
Eddie joins Maddie's bookclub and learns things about himself through reading.Ā
Reccer says: i loved the maddieddie friendship and watching eddie get excited about books. a fic for booklovers (and everyone else)!Ā
24. transference by waterlanding (@exhausteddiaz) (3k, Explicit)
Warnings: none
Buck sleeps with Tommy to make Eddie jealous instead of adopting Blaze. Things go differently when Buck shows up as Freddie Fakeman to apologize.Ā
Reccer says: Small canon divergences in fics, especially ones hinged on sex, can be so tricky to navigate well, but this story nails it. It's hot, funny, believable, and close to canon but just different enough to keep the reader guessing.Ā
25. Answer me this by Graceful_Ashes (@graceful-ashes) (2.4k, Mature)
Warnings: None
Buck likes to watch Jeopardy! And answer the clues. Eddie decides to test just how good he is at this...when he's a little preoccupied.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
26. they say history repeats itself (but this time itās you) by kabnd (7.1k, Teen)
Warnings: Panic Attacks, Car AccidentĀ
Buck gets hit by a car, and he knows heās going to be fineā¦but he knows Eddie wonāt be, not when Buck is lying on the ground in a puddle of his blood like a bad recreation of the day that Shannon diedĀ
Reccer says: for all the buckshannon parallel lovers out thereĀ
27. Live or Die - Make Your Choice by Sassay (@Sassay) (4.1k, Explicit)
Warnings: Graphic Depictions of ViolenceĀ Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā
Wrong place, wrong time - Buck and Eddie unintentionally fall into a saw trap of life and death. A choice needs to be made and sacrifice is the aim of the game.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
28. Trapped With This Love by Graceful_Ashes (@graceful-ashes) (2.5k, General)
Warnings: none
Buck realises he has feelings for Eddie and begins avoiding him.
Then they get trapped in a cave together and avoiding Eddie is no longer an option.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
29. Your Kiss Might Kill Me (So Won't You Kill Me) by morganofthefairies (9k, Explicit)
Warnings: orgasm delay, D/sĀ
Buck had lightly explored submission with a previous partner, and he has a totally chill and normal reaction when Eddie offhandedly calls him a good boy on a call.Ā
Reccer says: sweet and hot and has a classic lil bi panic spiralĀ
30. christopher diaz and the plights of stan twitter by thesquinky (8.2k, Teen)
Warnings: crack ficĀ
Chris is the youngest member of Hotshots stan twt, and famous Sanchez haterĀ
Reccer says: Hilarious, silly, deeply funĀ
31. awakening at your hand by wontrewpeering (Trudemaethien) (4.6k, Explicit)
Warnings: Mutual dubconĀ
Eddie, home alone, jacks off in bed and goes to sleep without getting dressed. Buck gets off an exhausting shift and comes home to drop into bed.
Two perfectly logical and innocent choices collide and change everything.Ā Ā Ā Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
32. Aftershocks by pansiesandposies (5.9k, Explicit)
Warnings: none
Eddie finds out that Buck and Tommy slept together. He proceeds to be very normal and straight about the whole thing.Ā
Reccer says: It's fun and hot, but also full of aching feelings and their innate obsession with each other.Ā
33. the guy next door by madforyou (8.1k, Teen)
Warnings: none
The odds of the universe dropping a naked man on your doorstep are low, but never zero.Ā
Reccer says: This fic is SO funny and SO well written! You're gonna love Eddie "disaster gay" Diaz internal monologue!Ā
34. I'm addicted to your [hugs] by passionfruitwriter (3.5k, General)
Warnings: Mention of addiction [to hugs]Ā
"And now here Eddie is, hyping himself up to choose joy.
The thing is that hugging isnāt something Buck and Eddie usually do. He can count on one, maybe two hands, how many times theyāve hugged in seven years. So he canāt just open his arms and have Buck come crawling into him. He must take different, more calculated measures. "Ā Ā Ā
Reccer says: It's fluffy, sweet, and feels like a hug!Ā
35. All About Eddie by Sintari (OriginalSintari) (@sintari) (1.1k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Eddie keeps mentioning things he finds attractive in men. Buck hears this and spirals.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
36. (low) by rogerzsteven (@rogerzsteven) (3.6k, General)
Warnings: none
Some days, after the lighting strike, Buck canāt get out of bed. Eddie helps take care of him when this happens.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
37. imagine being loved by me by montygreenn (20.5k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Buck copes with unrequited love by maladaptive daydreaming, buying Eddie flowers, and lying to the farmers market vendor about his imaginary husband.Ā
Reccer says: This is sweet, sad, and hilarious. It has a little bit of everything.Ā Ā
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Submissions are now open for One Shots week! Send in your favorite standalone fics, emotional snapshots, bite-sized masterpieces, and single-chapter stories that leave a lasting impact.
wait so vesper died in 2003, 23 years ago, and nancy is 51. she was 28 when she wrote that obituary. how long do you think sheād been working for the omaha sunday scoop at that point? no wonder it hit hard, a girl just a few years younger than she is, passionate and driven like she is, who never had the chance to be more. how much of nancyās career do you think was driven by the determination that someone needs to tell the story of people who think theyāll disappear without anyone noticing, how many nights did she spend doggedly pursing a story, exhausted and upset, and pulling out that old obituary for the strength to keep pushing forwards?
