i'm dr. cx, by the way. thirtysomething, lesbian, she/her/hers, living in the uk. if you're feeling generous, i do in theory have ko-fi https://ko-fi.com/islandoforder
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Sometimes all it takes is one chapter to tell a story. This week's recs celebrate one shots that tell unforgettable stories in a single sitting.
37 fic recs under the cut:
1. tell me the truth will disappear if i'm holding your hands by ryliversbuddie (@ryliversbuddie) (11.4k, Teen)
Warnings: Graphic Depictions of Violence; blood and injury details, medical procedureĀ
9x18 spec/fix it fic where buck is in the elevator with eddie and had to do a field transfusionĀ
Reccer says: the tension of the situation in the hospital was so well conveyed. the buck/eddie dynamic was so well written. the blood transfusion is done in a poetic way and is a red string of fate metaphor. and a third party feelings confession!
2. Table For Two In Manhattan by buckmeetsboy (12.6k, General)
Warnings: grief/mourningĀ
Three years after Bobby's funeral, Eddie and Buck finally talk.Ā
Reccer says: it's an incredibly well-written, incredibly tender story about grief and love and the characterization of both Buck and Eddie is so on point. It made me cry and laugh and cry again.Ā Ā
3. authentication by v_greyson (greyson) (@vgreysoncellars) (18k, Explicit)
Warnings: none
Eddie judges Buck's taste in guys, which somehow leads to him picking guys out for Buck on night's out. In a chill and normal and platonic and straight way.Ā
Reccer says: funny and hot and heartfelt by turnsĀ
4. glass on the pavement under my shoe by doitgently (@doitbuckley) (9.4k, Teen)
Warnings: Near Death Experiences, Major Character InjuryĀ
Buck takes a great big tumble. Like always, Eddie is right behind him.Ā
Reccer says: incredible whump with a really really excellent dark dry sense of humor that fits the tone perfectly. the character voices here are incredible.
5. how do I say what you already know by martianbarnes (@diazboys) (5.1k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Buck asks Eddie to dinner. Eddie doesn't think much about it.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
6. listen (do you want to know a secret) by Minalover (@Minalover) (3.6k, General)
Warnings: none
Buck throws a barbecue at Bobby's with some surprisesĀ
Reccer says: absolutely adorable, bright and bubbly and sweet!Ā
7. ain't i fallen (in love) by headlightsoup (14.4k, Explicit)
Warnings: Implied/referenced homophobiaĀ
After the events of Mother's Boy, Buck and Eddie drive home together. Buck does his best to navigate his feelings.Ā
Reccer says: This is a really lovely character exploration with a bonus of hot sex.Ā
8. Ā the tortured poets department by colonoscopys (19k, Explicit)
Warnings: NoneĀ
The first time Buck touched him, Eddie blew an ambulance up. (Ft. Witch!Eddie)Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
9. Iām in a situation by rotisserie_marie_chicken (3.7k, General)
Warnings: none
Buck calls Eddie when he gets into a situation just before Eddieās move to El Paso. They (kind of) talk about it.Ā
Reccer says: Thereās no rush to resolve the conflict. The fic is just okay with exploring their dynamic in a short slice of time and itās a wonderful, angsty read.Ā
10. Little by little (move a little closer to me) by tyremarbles (@brratbuck) (12.3k, Teen)
Warnings: none
5 times Eddie sneaks a taste of something Buck baked and 1 time Buck sneaks a taste of something insteadĀ
Reccer says: I liked it!
11. Surprise Me by DJW760 (15.7k, General)
Warnings: none
5 times Buck knows exactly what food to get Eddie, and the 1 time Eddie knows exactly what to get BuckĀ
Reccer says: I liked it!
12. you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad by bellabrady (5k, General)
Warnings: none
Eddie is annoyed with Buck for being so very kissable but his drunk self isn't the best at phrasing things.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
13. Ā Ā The Wedding Planner by xylodemon (@xylodemon) (15.3k, Explicit)
Warnings: none
Buck starts accidentally planning his wedding with Eddie before they're dating.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
14. eau de vie by veil_nebula (@eddiesgayladder ) (4.6k, Explicit)
Warnings: Undernegotiated KinkĀ
Eddie has an oral fixation, and Buck has an idea.Ā
Reccer says: excellent porn, and genuinely lovely prose while the boys fuck nastyĀ
15. forbearance by waterlanding (@exhausteddiaz) (5.7k, Explicit)
Warnings: none
Buck forces himself to slow down, take a second. Replay the last five minutes in his head. He can look at this logically, assess the facts: he and Eddie had gone out. He and Eddie had a few drinks. He and Eddie had been shooting the shit and now heās rifling through his nightstand, grabbing for a device that keeps your dick from getting hard.
Because Buck said heād show it. To Eddie.Ā
Reccer says: incredibly in-character sexual dynamics, and very very good and hot pornĀ
16. Elevator Pitch by floatyourboat1997 (@floatboats) (11.7k, Teen)
Warnings: none
The fic where the 118 gets trapped in an elevator, and with too much free time on their hands, they treat it as an impromptu therapy sesh.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
17. light, dark, light again by fruitsdoesnotknow (@fruitsdontknow) (5.6k, Teen)
Warnings: Author Chose Not to Use Archive WarningsĀ
Eddie finds out that Buck used to have a crush on him. Past tense. He spirals about it.Ā
Reccer says: Deeply sweet, full of the fear of missed chancesĀ
18. Hit and Run by Talls (@tallsinspace) (7.7k, Mature)
Warnings: none
"Youāre acting like youāre not going to have to miss me,ā Buck says, pressing the bruise. āLike Iāll be able to come over whenever I want, crash at your place when I get too tired, like youāre not leaving the timezone.ā
āYeah, well Iām trying to keep you in my life,ā Eddie bites out, āand youāre acting like this is some kind of permanent goodbye.ā
āThis is goodbye, Eddie,ā Buck retorts, his jaw tense. āYouāre leaving.āĀ Ā Ā Ā
Reccer says: it's beautiful and aching and catharticĀ
19. 800 Miles by facewithoutheart (@facewithoutheart) (1.9k, Teen)
Warnings: brief and vague references to canonical suicide attemptĀ
Buck tells Maddie that he plans to move to Texas with Eddie. Maddie goes straight to Eddie about it.Ā
Reccer says: Maddie and Eddie is such an underrated and underrepresented dynamic, and this is a really perfect look at the two of them in a very difficult moment.Ā
20. the ghost you're dressed up as by MegsWrites (@megsvstheworld) (5.2k, Teen)
Warnings: Author Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings; car accidents, some depiction of blood and injury, minor character death, minor haunting, supernatural elementsĀ
Eddie falls off a cliff and climbs a mountain. And finds a little help along the way.Ā
Reccer says: It's tender! I teared up reading this, I felt each of those 5k words, and it felt like a 9-1-1 episode!Ā
When Buck starts a fight in a bar, a stranger comes to his rescue. Buck brings him back to his hotel to patch him up.Ā
Reccer says: Amazing fic and so so so hot, with a nice twist at the end ;)Ā
22. vile prophecy (scrape it out of me) by literalmetaphor (@absolutelybifurious) (17.6k, Explicit)
Warnings: Author Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings; Mildly Dubious Consent, Passive SuicidalityĀ
Eddie gets a pair of wings that may or may not be terminal.Ā
Reccer says: This is a really gorgeous exploration of Eddie's tendency towards self-sacrifice. The way Buck loves him is also so tender.Ā
23. Eddie Diaz Picks a Book by CourtepointeClementine, sunlight (@courtepointeclementine, @justonebigbee) (21.8k, Mature)
Warnings: none
Eddie joins Maddie's bookclub and learns things about himself through reading.Ā
Reccer says: i loved the maddieddie friendship and watching eddie get excited about books. a fic for booklovers (and everyone else)!Ā
24. transference by waterlanding (@exhausteddiaz) (3k, Explicit)
Warnings: none
Buck sleeps with Tommy to make Eddie jealous instead of adopting Blaze. Things go differently when Buck shows up as Freddie Fakeman to apologize.Ā
Reccer says: Small canon divergences in fics, especially ones hinged on sex, can be so tricky to navigate well, but this story nails it. It's hot, funny, believable, and close to canon but just different enough to keep the reader guessing.Ā
25. Answer me this by Graceful_Ashes (@graceful-ashes) (2.4k, Mature)
Warnings: None
Buck likes to watch Jeopardy! And answer the clues. Eddie decides to test just how good he is at this...when he's a little preoccupied.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
26. they say history repeats itself (but this time itās you) by kabnd (7.1k, Teen)
Warnings: Panic Attacks, Car AccidentĀ
Buck gets hit by a car, and he knows heās going to be fineā¦but he knows Eddie wonāt be, not when Buck is lying on the ground in a puddle of his blood like a bad recreation of the day that Shannon diedĀ
Reccer says: for all the buckshannon parallel lovers out thereĀ
27. Live or Die - Make Your Choice by Sassay (@Sassay) (4.1k, Explicit)
Warnings: Graphic Depictions of ViolenceĀ Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā
Wrong place, wrong time - Buck and Eddie unintentionally fall into a saw trap of life and death. A choice needs to be made and sacrifice is the aim of the game.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
28. Trapped With This Love by Graceful_Ashes (@graceful-ashes) (2.5k, General)
Warnings: none
Buck realises he has feelings for Eddie and begins avoiding him.
Then they get trapped in a cave together and avoiding Eddie is no longer an option.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
29. Your Kiss Might Kill Me (So Won't You Kill Me) by morganofthefairies (9k, Explicit)
Warnings: orgasm delay, D/sĀ
Buck had lightly explored submission with a previous partner, and he has a totally chill and normal reaction when Eddie offhandedly calls him a good boy on a call.Ā
Reccer says: sweet and hot and has a classic lil bi panic spiralĀ
30. christopher diaz and the plights of stan twitter by thesquinky (8.2k, Teen)
Warnings: crack ficĀ
Chris is the youngest member of Hotshots stan twt, and famous Sanchez haterĀ
Reccer says: Hilarious, silly, deeply funĀ
31. awakening at your hand by wontrewpeering (Trudemaethien) (4.6k, Explicit)
Warnings: Mutual dubconĀ
Eddie, home alone, jacks off in bed and goes to sleep without getting dressed. Buck gets off an exhausting shift and comes home to drop into bed.
Two perfectly logical and innocent choices collide and change everything.Ā Ā Ā Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
32. Aftershocks by pansiesandposies (5.9k, Explicit)
Warnings: none
Eddie finds out that Buck and Tommy slept together. He proceeds to be very normal and straight about the whole thing.Ā
Reccer says: It's fun and hot, but also full of aching feelings and their innate obsession with each other.Ā
33. the guy next door by madforyou (8.1k, Teen)
Warnings: none
The odds of the universe dropping a naked man on your doorstep are low, but never zero.Ā
Reccer says: This fic is SO funny and SO well written! You're gonna love Eddie "disaster gay" Diaz internal monologue!Ā
34. I'm addicted to your [hugs] by passionfruitwriter (3.5k, General)
Warnings: Mention of addiction [to hugs]Ā
"And now here Eddie is, hyping himself up to choose joy.
The thing is that hugging isnāt something Buck and Eddie usually do. He can count on one, maybe two hands, how many times theyāve hugged in seven years. So he canāt just open his arms and have Buck come crawling into him. He must take different, more calculated measures. "Ā Ā Ā
Reccer says: It's fluffy, sweet, and feels like a hug!Ā
35. All About Eddie by Sintari (OriginalSintari) (@sintari) (1.1k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Eddie keeps mentioning things he finds attractive in men. Buck hears this and spirals.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
36. (low) by rogerzsteven (@rogerzsteven) (3.6k, General)
Warnings: none
Some days, after the lighting strike, Buck canāt get out of bed. Eddie helps take care of him when this happens.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
37. imagine being loved by me by montygreenn (20.5k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Buck copes with unrequited love by maladaptive daydreaming, buying Eddie flowers, and lying to the farmers market vendor about his imaginary husband.Ā
Reccer says: This is sweet, sad, and hilarious. It has a little bit of everything.Ā Ā
Submissions are now open for One Shots week! Send in your favorite standalone fics, emotional snapshots, bite-sized masterpieces, and single-chapter stories that leave a lasting impact.
wait so vesper died in 2003, 23 years ago, and nancy is 51. she was 28 when she wrote that obituary. how long do you think sheād been working for the omaha sunday scoop at that point? no wonder it hit hard, a girl just a few years younger than she is, passionate and driven like she is, who never had the chance to be more. how much of nancyās career do you think was driven by the determination that someone needs to tell the story of people who think theyāll disappear without anyone noticing, how many nights did she spend doggedly pursing a story, exhausted and upset, and pulling out that old obituary for the strength to keep pushing forwards?
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hype to see tumblr, famously the source of almost all black sails fans, be irrationally mad at siobhan for calling it a) black flag and b) not that gay even though she binged like six episodes a year ago
Pride is about celebration, community, identity, and the freedom to understand yourself on your own terms. This week's recs highlight queer stories about Buck, Eddie, and the many ways fandom explores who they are and who they could become.
25 fic recs under the cut
1. double take, triple take Ā by kermytheefrog (tardigradeschool) (10.6k, Teen)
Warnings: passing references to homophobia and transphobia
Between the ages of 0 and 31, Buck speedruns the L, T, and B in LGBT. (Eddie will have to take care of the G.)Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
2. taking steps is easy (standing still is hard) by peppermintyero (12k, Teen)
Warnings: Internalized TransphobiaĀ
In which Eddie is back from El Paso and it's like nothing has changed. Except things have changed. Because Eddie is non-binary.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
3. Lessons in Flirting (Unintentionally and Definitely Not Romantically) by shrimprangoon (45.3k, Teen)
Warnings: none
āthe one where Eddie subconsciously flirts with Buck without realizing and Buck is actively trying not to have a heart attack at work about itā - set post-Chris returns from Texas in a world where Bobby lives, this chat-heavy fic is a hilarious getting-together adventure featuring a beautiful Pride scene.Ā
Reccer says: Definitely one of the funnier fics Iāve read! Very fun.Ā
4. Iāll tell them put me back in it (and I would do it again) by paleredheadinascifi (4.8k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Eddie doesn't know how to make his listening history private. Buck doesn't know what to do with the words in front of his eyes. Chris cannot believe he has to deal with either of them.Ā
Reccer says: pride but it's buck coaching chris through a gay crisis he is Not having while eddie pinesĀ
5. perfect boys with their perfect lives by littlesnowpea (3.9k, Teen)
Warnings: none
āBuck is bi,ā Eddie bites out. āAnd I donāt like it.ā
Thereās a long pause. Then:
āOkay,ā Frank says. āLetās unpack that.ā Ā Ā
Reccer says: eddie being insane and barking over buck coming out and spiraling over it is. my favorite.Ā
6. Christopher Diaz and the Gay Agenda paleredheadinascifi (4k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Christoper hyper-fixates on Queer Eye and takes it out on his freshly gay father. Buck's there, too.Ā
Reccer says: chris being aggressively supportive of gay!eddie in a way that is concerning to all, my belovedĀ
7. slow burn by paleredheadinascifi (3.8k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Christopher has some questions. He asks the two worst possible people.Ā
Reccer says: eddie having a sexuality crisis over buck explaining queer theory to chris! they're so family-shaped in this, and aspec!eddie is. so important.
christopher as way of making buddie confronting their feelings! eddie spiraling! buck being terrified!Ā
8. The key to your door should unlock mine by ListenToThat (25.2k, Mature)
Warnings: none
Eddie questions his sexuality, panics a bit, and then goes after what he wants (ft. some drama).Ā
Reccer says: Aroace spec Eddie!!Ā
9. burn this house to the ground by thelonggoodbye (@hawkslonggoodbye) (45.9k, Mature)
Warnings: Homophobic language, suicidal thoughts, implied/referenced suicide attempt, ableism
Eddie's anxious POV after Chris leaves for TexasĀ
Reccer says: The writing style is gorgeous and this author really has a great sense of the characters' inner livesĀ
10. Open Secret by Wabisabipapi (@Bucksgreyhairs) (4.8k, Explicit)
Warnings: Buck has a threesome with other people (offscreen)Ā
Ā After 9x07 Eddie gets jealous and ragebaits himself into queerdom.Ā
Reccer says: Some of the hottest dialogue I've ever read before the smut. YummmmĀ
11. Sometimes You Just Gotta by ZinnyDark (@zinnydark) (18.6k, Explicit)
Warnings: none
Eddie gets a vibrator. Buck helps.Ā
Reccer says: This is so well-written and super hot smut. I'm reccing it for pride because I think kink is an important part of pride, and it's Eddie exploring his sexuality.Ā
12. hold onto that feeling by Rehearsal_Dweller (@agentsnickers) (2.1k, Teen)
Warnings: internalised homophobia, the inescapable homophobia of the 00sĀ
Buck thinks on the Glee Speech and his own sexualityĀ
Reccer says: This really digs into the homophobia that Buck would have also grown up with, and what that has meant for his own sexuality longterm, and coming to peace with that. There's also a beautiful sequel fic centred around Eddie's introspection as well.Ā
13. we'll be carrying each other by dusktillmidnight (@thegirlwithataser) (10.5k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Buck and May develop a sibling relationship, and bond over being queer, all while painting their nails together.Ā
Reccer says: May coming to terms with being a lesbian is perfectly balanced with Buck pining over Eddie, and throughout their relationship to each other is central and v cuteĀ
14. you've got my devotion by kryptonian (12.8k, Mature)
Warnings: internalised homophobia, brief references to canonical cheating, two sentences about Bobby in a government morgueĀ
Someone leaves first. Thereās no other version of this story. But sometimes, they come back, too. (or sapphic buddie do the Texas arc onwards)Ā
Reccer says: This is a really beautiful and thoughtful genderswap, with a very good exploration of compulsory heterosexuality. It's also a MASTERCLASS in pining.Ā
15. we keep this love in a photograph Ā by burnthatbridge (2.3k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Eddie comes out. Hen downloads him a dating app. Chim writes his bio. Buck supplies the photos.Ā
Reccer says: This is so sweet and aching and makes me cry truly every timeĀ
16. tell me donāt, crawl back in Ā by oneofthesirens (@oneofthesirens) (5.7k, Teen)
Warnings: Author Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings
Buck kisses Eddie over a kettle. Eddieās straight. Eddie kisses Buck over pans. Heās ā not so straight.Ā
Reccer says: a foundational text of this genre (Buck making a move, Eddie thinking he's straight and rejecting it, Eddie haunted for weeks by what-ifs), and this one is extremely sweet and well written - you really get the sense that beyond also loving each other they really LIKE each otherĀ
17. Is It Stormy Where You Are? by Chash (@ponyregrets) (2.7k, General)
Warnings: none
Taylor and Buck bump into each other while Eddie's in Texas, and talk about being bi, among other things.Ā
Reccer says: They have a very fun and real dynamicĀ
18. But Honey I'll Be Seeing You by asexual-fandom-queen (writeordietrying) (@asexual-fandom-queen) (3k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Buck and Taylor run into each other at Pride, which Eddie does not love.Ā
Reccer says: The are that Buck and Taylor have for each other bleeds through this fic, and it's so fun to see an aro!TaylorĀ
19. Lifelines Ā by hetrez (17.6k, Teen)
Warnings: past homophobia, past biphobia, aftermath of a tsunamiĀ
AU where Buck and Eddie meet just after the tsunami and talk about being in the closet.Ā
Reccer says: They have a very engaging and fun dynamic in this, and it's heartfelt and funny and poignant by turns.Ā
20. do i make you proud? by youcantsaveeveryone (@loadedwithrocksalt) (24.7k, Mature)
Warnings: Internalized HomophobiaĀ
In one Pride Month, Eddie meets an old friend, learns about himself, comes out to people who love him and learns to be proud (in roughly that order).Ā
Reccer says: It's the coming out arc Eddie should have in canon :')Ā
21. you still make sense to me by farfromthstars (@doeeyeseddie) (31.1k, Mature)
Warnings: none
Eddie tries to figure out what he wants from a relationship and why it has never felt completely right before, and discovers a lot of things about himself on the way. Meanwhile, Buck has to work through his own issues and realizations.Ā
Reccer says: Beautiful exploration of Eddieās sexuality specifically!Ā
22. stay (i would even wait all night) by sunflowerbuckleys (flashhwing) (@sunflowerbuckleys) (3k, Teen)
Warnings: none
During the road trip back from Nashville, Buck and Eddie stay at a motel, where Eddie comes out to Buck.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
23. What's a little love between friends? by Graceful_Ashes (@graceful-ashes) (15.8k, Teen)
Warnings: Mildly dubious consentĀ
Buck confesses to being in love with Eddie, just to clear the air, so there's no secrets between them. Eddie is cool with it. They continue being friends, nothing changesā¦
Until Eddie starts acting more and more unhinged.Ā Ā Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
24. hereās my first hello by justhockey (4.3k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Eddie comes out to Buck as they're getting ready to go to Pride.Ā
Reccer says: I liked it!
25. This Old Love Has Me Bound by allyasavedtheday (@littlespoonevan) (9.5k, Teen)
Warnings: none
Buck comes out, tries to figure out if he missed any signs of it in his own past. Luckily for him, he keeps getting interrupted before he can think about Eddie.Ā
emily trying SO hard to not spit take while siobhan is visibly close to a panic attack and everyone else is crying with laughter as zaeth talks shit to koschei about taking out ermine
hj and lavonte really underlining that thereās no worse break up than one where you both still truly and deeply love each other but you just donāt see the world the same way anymore and you know it doesnāt work anymore so you have to call it even though you both still love each other so fucking much
thereās something so fun about siobhan and zac, known for puzzles and called shots, are both playing hot characters who keep openly announcing that theyāre too dumb to finish a thought
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fully weeping over the idea that nancy danderhoof has been carrying vesper childersā obituary around this whole time because writing it affected her so much
thereās something about the way in which vesper endears herself to people so much that even nancy danderhoof offers herself up for vesper to feed her
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āthose are instructionsā is such a fucking funny response to a genuinely terrifyingly powerful big bad whom you owe a favour and who could kill you in seconds telling you what you can do to stop them from murdering you
actually love zaeth sort of standing up to koschei and being rewarded for it, especially when heās been such an innately comedic character for the most part