All I Ever Get Is Sad Love

I never post here but I rlly miss my girlfriend and I still won't see her until tomorrow night and I'm like no bb I miss you 🐼 #lameeee

There's a mouse that keeps getting in my room from he other side and I'm kind of terrified and idk how to make it go home because I'm too afraid to kill it or touch it or be more than 5 feet away from it and I don't even have any food on the floor just some clothes what the fuck

When you can't sleep and then you see a mouse so you clean your room but you're too tired to clean the whole thing so you just tidy up but you still can't sleep because where is he hiding

If you wanna be my lover you gotta get with my crippling anxiety and self doubt

I'm sad I don't really know why, but I am and I hate it

How did this even happen though I want to cry

When yr psych switched and hopefully fixes your meds but it's only been two days so you're having trazodone withdrawal, klonapin withdrawal (lower dose) and the added ambien symptoms causing you to be an anxious paranoid mess who can't sleep even though I'm with a cute boy and I wish we could cuddle but I move too much and he needs his sleep. All of this is because I'm probably addicted or getting addicted to benzos cause I've been taking it every night religiously for 4 years fuck. It's taking all of my willpower not to take more klonapin because I need to not have a drug problem so it will work when I need it but this is all counteracting the drug that is supposed to make me sleep and I hate it and this is personal but whatever I hate it I haven't slept very well in 3 days and I just want to fucking cry right here in bed nest to this wonderful person who probably already thinks I'm insane but at least he still likes me but I just want to cry cause it sucks and I want to fucking sleep 😞😞😞😭😭😭😭😭

When you wake up and can't sleep so you decide to clean and then you see a mouse and try and find it but you can't so maybe it was a dream but I found his poo so where are you buddy I just want to take you outside and I can't sleep until I find you

I just want someone to cuddle with like why is that so hard.

I think I'm really cute and fun to hang out with so why don't guys like me?

I'm so bad at dating I'm gonna go die now because I just fuck shit up when I don't hear from someone for more than like 5 hours or in this case 11 hours this is why im fucking single and have all of my relationships burst into flames

I just really want a hug and to somehow hill the fuck out because I'm sure he will text me tomorrow right? Plz