I keep thinking about Nicky being the most chill Catholic in the world because the Crusaders were promised total cleansing of ALL their sins, even those in the future, if they joined the Crusades and I’m thinking of Nicky still being smug about this in the face of homophobes a thousand years later because his soul is Teflon thanks to a Papal loophole, nope, thank you very much but I literally can’t go to Hell for loving my beautiful Muslim boyfriend, the Pope said so

IMAGINE HAVING A PLENARY INDULGENCE AND ALL OF TIME TO USE IT

The funny part about the "I'm not going to coddle my kids, the real world isn't going to be nice to them" kind of people is that once their kids are grown and out of the house, they spend years being continuously astonished to learn that people as cold and mean as their parents are actually extremely rare.

do you ever think about them having trouble sleeping on their soft mattresses after rescue? about them sleeping on the floor with their windows open? do you think after rescue they have to keep convincing themselves that this is better? this is better. nothing can happen to me here. this is better. but it doesn't feel better. or real. do you think sleep feels like losing control for tai? do you think she's afraid of it? even years after her last sleepwalking incident? sleeping next to simone who doesn't KNOW and tai won't tell her because how could anyone who wasn't there understand. but this is better. it's better to have a wife sleeping next to you peacefully than a girlfriend using rope to tie herself to you. this is better. it's better to sleep alone than worried you'll miss the moment your girlfriend starts sleepwalking again and won't be there in time to catch her. so van leaves the tv on at night because she's not out there anymore but sometimes she still wakes up forgetting. and when the nightmares wake her up she puts her hand to her cheek half expecting to touch her teeth. and miles away (and they shouldn't be so far away but this is better) nat runs and drowns in her dreams. is getting by on an average of four hours of sleep. wakes up in cold sweat from nightmares where she's dying and feels no relief when she opens her eyes so she drinks to make it stop. lottie makes it stop by taking pills. so afraid of her dreams she would do anything not to remember them when she wakes up. this is better. but what if she could have stopped something awful if she only remembered? if only she understood? so lottie cries and apologizes to laura lee over and over again until sleep claims her. and miles away shauna wakes up in panic wanting to run out and save jackie from the snow