the things we do –& constance
exemplaris:
“You are most welcome, Ferdinand… But—”
There it was, that tongue sharper than most blades crafted by man in the last century. Still, having it turned on him had its own curious comfort; for one, Ferdinand supposed he was still alive to be on the receiving end.
(She had always been cunning where he had been bold; the number of times he allowed her to take him anywhere she wished, her small hand on his even smaller wrist, through the streets of Enbarr. The ire of his chaperone at being given the slip was nothing compared to—)
Tension bled from his neck, through his shoulders, and down his back as Ferdinand exhaled slowly. The frantic heat died down to something more tolerable. “On my honour, I will redouble my efforts until we are both satisfied. I do not intend on… repeating this experience. I believe neither of us do.”
(The next time… Ferdinand was sure that the next time, the stakes would be so much higher, and when it came, Constance would not be around to bail him out of that one. His lance would need to count for more.)
Adrenaline still flowed through him, but it slowly ebbed, leaving him drained with the distinct, hollow sensation of borrowing from the him of tomorrow. “I had arrived in the area as reinforcement for reconnaissance and retrieval… The Deer had met considerable resistance, and even the faculty were pulled thin from all sides.”
“We did secure one of the weapons of interest, Salem and I, but we were met with… resistance.” (Gently, he began to sway and sag forward. Enough of that now; she cannot support his weight and fly on her own.) “He was armed with magic and an apparent resilience against its influence, I thought, so I created a diversion to allow him to return it to the main party.
“I assure you I had not intended to sacrifice myself out there; there was supposed to be another scouting camp not far to the south west.” He hadn’t intended to put himself in that position. He hadn’t intended to rest his head on her shoulder either. It would be selfish to ask for any more, especially not after she saved his life, and with a jerk, Ferdinand sat a little straighter again in the saddle. Pull yourself together. “However, on arrival, the site had been deserted with signs of struggle. Thus, I maintained the course and inadvertently accumulated pursuers… until the course ran to an end, as you saw.”
✦ ` when all is said and done, whatever irritation remains subsides as ferdinand explains the situation. that being, that it was not that he thought himself so improbably clever that he could outwit thoughtless creatures that would offer up no admiration. she should have known that. there's the slightest twinge of regret with the none-too-distant memory of how she'd spoken to him. had the tables been turned, she would have most certainly done the same. she would have provided a distraction if it had been lady celica or lady micaiah or, well—ferdinand, even.
the only difference there would have been that she did not wield something as tangible as the lance he had to abandon. she would have been infallible.
( she learns later that this is not always the case, no matter how untouchable she convinces herself she is. )
she ignores the rest as they fly on. the slight slump of his body against her back, a brief weight on her shoulder that she knows. they'd fallen asleep like this once before, maybe. likely after some apparent scolding or something more innocent and bloodless than this, she thinks with quiet amusement. heavens knew how long it would take to get that inky black liquid off of her shoes. "i see." their flight would end soon, she thinks. no more than ten minutes.
if she remembers right, anyway.
she does not sigh, but her shoulders fall just a margin as the tenseness falls away. "i am—" constance considers a more charitable tone. "—relieved to find you in one piece then, given the circumstances." for what it was worth, she most certainly hopes that salem fellow that he mentioned did manage to escape safely. otherwise, all of ferdinand's efforts would have been for nothing. a quiet laugh is quickly disguised as a dismissive snort. "we will arrive shortly. you should rest." a beat, a pause. "i'll wake you. when, ahem. when we land."







