It's been 8 years, and I find myself being drawn back to someone who, for lengths of time, I do good to forget.

I'm totally helplessly in love with them but when I carve them out of my life, I bury that love deep inside of me and move on with my life.

Then, sporadically we cross roads and I've got that knot of love and crap in my throat and I'm back where I started. I tell myself I've moved on but against my hardest attempts that door is left ajar.

When we are back in each other's lives it's like time never passed. I still get nervous around them. And feel like my body is on fire when we kiss or when I can feel them staring at me.

Do you think we are creatures of habit?

Is it possible to ever really move on from someone we genuinely love?

I don’t really move on, personally I start looking for my first love in other people which never really fills my soul.

I do believe we see things through rose tinted glasses. That’s why the relationship doesn’t work out reguaurless of how many times we try and make it work.

We’ve put expectations on one person and then move those expectations to the next person to see if they can fit the shoes.

I’m working on it but it’s a process.

Frankly I hold myself to a high standard and want others to rise to the same level.. then I fall short and feel like I failed the other person.