Iolar Súil

You are going to break your promise. I understand.

You’re lonely too.

It will stop your breath, how cruel I can be.

I am a demanding creature. I am selfish and cruel and extremely unreasonable.

I am your servant. 

I crawl at your feet; for before your love, your kisses, I am debased.

For you alone I will be weak.

I belong here, and you will not deny me.

I say these things, and the world listens.

I do not tolerate a world emptied of you. I have tried.

In the dark, I have pored over the loss of you like pale gold.

I will not let her speak because I love her, and when you love someone, you do not make them tell war stories.

I moved the earth and the water for you.

You will always run away with her.

You will always lose her.

You will always be a fool.

You will always be dead, in a city of ice, snow falling into your ear.

You have already done all of this and will do it again.

No one should be judged for loving more than they ought, only for loving not enough.

We look terrible to you, and severe, and you see our blood flying.

What we carry between us is hard-won, and we made it just as we wished it to be, just the color, just the shape.

There need never be any rules between us.

Let us be greedy together; let us hoard.

Do not leave me, swear that you will never leave me.

I am selfish. I am cruel. My mate cannot be less than I.

Sleep with fists closed and shoot straight.

I can’t abide a poor liar.

You look like a winter’s night. I could sleep inside the cold of you.

Oh, quit that. Blushing is for virgins and Christians.

Scold me; deny me. Tell me you want what you want and damn me forever. But don’t leave me.

Bad luck relies on absolutely perfect timing.

In his own country, Death can be kind.

What is the world but a boxing ring where fools and devils put up their fists?

Men die. It’s practically what they’re for.

I am no one; I am nothing. 

Nothing in me was not made by you.

A revelation is always the end of something. It might even be cause for grief.

Just tell yourself a story that’ll satisfy you and pretend he told it.

Forever isn’t bright; it isn’t like that. Forever is cold and hard and final.

I savor bitterness - it is born of experience. It is the privilege of one who has truly lived.

If you want to kill yourself, do not use us as your knife.

What did I do wrong? Was I boring? Did I ignore you?

Don’t you dare speak to me like that.

I have worn nothing but blood and death for years.

I have fought all your battles for you, just as you asked me.

I have learned not to cry when I strangle a man.

I have learned to watch everything die.

I am not a little girl anymore, dazzled by your magic. It is my magic, now, too.

Are we not devils?

No one is now what they were before the war. 

I have not seen you without your skin on.

Close up your head; your brain is getting loose.

We obsess. It’s in our nature.

I’ve a devil of a habit for being right.

In war you must always choose sides.

If you try to be a bridge laid down between them, they will tear you in half.

We are all dead. All equal. Broken and aimless and believing we are alive.

My old bones will follow yours soon enough.

It is better to be strong and cruel than to be fair.

I will see him with his skin off before I agree to fall in love.

After love, no one is what they were before.

I have survived, but I have not been spared.

In the space of one heartbeat to another I loved you and I was lost to you.

Frighten me, make me cry, only come back.

It’s not so bad, my darling. Being dead. It’s like being alive, only colder.

You’ll think it’s love, while he dines on your heart.

You will be so beautiful when you are old.

I cannot keep you and I cannot let you go.

You will live as you live in any world…with difficulty, and grief.

I look at you and it is like my throat being cut.

She said you’d come and I swore to eat your heart.

I still want to kiss you.

My heart is being cut in two. I cannot bear it.

What happens to anything beautiful?

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“I’m slowly walking through the fog, dramatically limping.”

“I mean, I wanna know if you fucked on the bathroom sink.”

“Are we gonna drive through a bad neighborhood at night and just see what happens?”

“I just heard a scary noise.”

“You look horrified. This isn’t the worst thing I’ve asked you.”

“Don’t be the person in the horror movie that goes to the strange noise.”

“I dunno, I mean, would you still love me if I shot you?”

“You don’t own the damn lake, sir!”

“I wonder if Mexico City is in Mexico.”

*begins spewing utter madness in an attempt to study*

“What we’re doing here is really fucked up man, I’m excited.”

“We’re gonna possess him, in the middle of a conversation.”

“Disassociating is like eating bananas, for me.”

“I’ve never really seen a dollar bill, so.”

“I know how this is gonna sound, but if you wanna get rid of them, my mom knows a spree murderer who’s due for parole soon.”

“We don’t want a creepy stalker as a grandma.”

“I can’t believe he fucked the girl that shot him.”

“I trust you, even though you talked about cannibalism.”

“Well, fuck your cheese, then!”

“Thankfully I bought, like, three pairs.”

“Are you speaking in tongues?”

“That’s nice, lady, I don’t wanna hear about your emotions.”

“I don’t know, I just feel like that’d be a good way to meet a famous murderer husband.”

“I wanna fuck him more than ever, he gave me a priest kink.”

“You paid off the morgue guy?”

“Batman lap dances.”

“I’m between laughing and shitting on the wall.”

“I can’t kill them, this chair is in my way.”

“This is illegal.”

“I’ve always wanted to fight a stranger.”

“I’ve created a giant penis to put on a billboard, could you print this out for me?”

“Why do you have so many pictures of Putin?”

“Love me some clown-fucking bat furries.”

“Followers were instructed to imagine Jesus during sex.”

“Dad, it’s Easter, Jesus told me to stay up as late as I wanted.”

“We have to go to dinner in the morning?”

“IT’S 4:20, BLAZE IT, DAD!”

“That’s lame. Don’t post my own conversations to me.”

“No, it’s okay! You didn’t miss anything besides me being angry.”

“What if I take out my tampon and rub it on his face to break up with him?”

“If somebody asked you to punch them in the face, do you think you’d do it?”

“It’s not illegal to own a flamethrower.”

“Like, are you trying to frame me, or is this your kink, or…”

“And the most horrifying part was that he had a picture of George Bush on his wall.”

“DON’T SMASH HIS FACE WITH THE FRIDGE DOOR.”

“Your kids are fucked up, they just killed two crazy old people!”

“Stop evil munchkin laughing over there, calm the fuck down.”

“I’m being held hostage against my will to say funny shit, I can’t leave.”