𝐎𝐅 ╱ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐍

the more that i simmer with gojo & the (lack of) knowledge we have about his upbringing, all his dynamics with the rest of the cast become so much more interesting to me. specifically after premature death. in that it took reaching the pinnacle of the power that dissevered him from normal humanity (since birth; we barely know anything about his parents, or how they felt about the gojo clan whisking him away to be raised as a weapon, but whether they love/d him or not might possibly have been irrelevant no matter what, given 'what he is') to begin to feel real responsibility and — regardless of the fandom's personal feelings toward satoru — real care toward it.

the toji/gojo fight hits me like a truck no matter how many times i watch it, because in spite of the lack of connective tissue between himself and others, it's like the whole of him is opened, and all-encompassing, after he dies. empathetic is too definitive a word to use for satoru, but whatever he feels, in those moments, inherently binds him to the nature of the world, and puts him on a path toward his purpose.

i.e., cultivating the traits he values in others, pushing them to be “strong enough to keep up with [him].”

i think shows of power & combat have always been where he is at his most 'connected' with others, and this is especially true after premature death, and the change it forces him to go through. but it's not just about the fights themselves — it's about bearing witness. stripping things down to what they are at their cores.

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do you remember what i told you last time?

have you been doing well since i saw you?

that's not what you told me back then.

when was the last time i saw you?

you were shorter then.

i'm picking the restaurant this time.

we've known each other since we were children.

always knew i could count on you.

that time was different. this is worse.

you're not going to let me live that down, are you?

i seem to remember a conversation we had back then.

so you changed your mind about it?

do you remember our encounter in paris?

you should know me by now.

am i the only one that knows the truth?

we had a lot of help back then.

your mom told me to look out for you.

you just love bringing that back up to annoy me.

maybe don't mention my past indescretions?

this was never going to work out between us.

i told you not to get attached.

i know more about you than you think.

i was there, remember?

i'm not about to forget all the shit you put me through.

you told me you were going to try and make this work.

remember what i said to you?

the last time i saw you, things were good between us.

you never mentioned this before.

that was the longest flight of my life, and you made it worse.

can i still trust you after all that?

at least we tried to make something work.

we never discussed what happened between us.

okay, but i'm driving the car this time.

i haven't forgotten what you said last week.

i'm still thinking about your comment.

i didn't realize it was you when i first saw you.

you seem to make a lot of enemies around here.

there's not much for us to talk about.

we worked it out last time.

i know you far better than you know yourself.

we have a long history.

is that the shirt you were wearing last time?

what don't i know about you?

i haven't told them about us.

you were the only person i could go to.

you know me.

this is bigger than both of us.

i can't stand your driving.

are you taking me to the place we had dinner last time?

that's not at all what you said.

didn't we agree on that?

i thought i made it very clear where i stand.

are these the same people that came after you last time?

are you still going on about it?

can we talk about it?

staying silent about it won't help.

you're the only person who knows the real me.

[ REST ] for the sender to rest their hand on the receiver’s waist.

[ GRIP ] for the sender to grip the receiver’s thigh in a suggestive way.

[ SLIP ] for the sender to slide their hand under a piece of the receiver’s clothing.

[ LEAN ] for the sender to lean down to whisper something explicit into the receiver’s ear.

[ TALK ] for the sender to talk dirty to the receiver.

[ PHONE ] for the sender and receiver to have phone sex.

[ KISS ] for the sender to kiss down the side of the receiver’s neck.

[ MARK ] for the sender to leave a mark on the receiver’s chest / neck.

[ BITE ] for the sender to bite the receiver somewhere.

[ PULL ] for the sender to help the receiver off with their shirt.

[ UNHOOK ] for the sender to reach round to unclip the receiver’s bra.

[ SQUEEZE ] for the sender to squeeze / touch the receiver’s breasts.

[ PRESS ] for the sender to press a thigh between the receiver’s legs.

[ RUB ] for the sender to tease the receiver through their trousers / etc.

[ SLIDE ] for the sender to slip their hand down the receiver’s trousers / etc.

[ UNBUCKLE ] for the sender to undo / pull down the receiver’s trousers.

[ ADMIRE ] for the sender to look the naked receiver over appreciatively.

[ COMMENT ] for the sender to compliment the naked receiver on their body.

[ COVER ] for the sender to kiss the receiver all over.

[ TEASE ] for the sender to very deliberately not touch the receiver’s genitals.

[ NIP ] for the sender to gently bite at the inside of the receiver’s thighs.

[ BRUSH ] for the sender to lightly run a hand over the receiver’s genitals.

[ UNDER ] for the sender to touch the receiver’s genitals under the table / in public.

[ WATCH ] for the sender to watch the receiver as they masturbate.

[ MORE ] for the sender to beg for ‘more’ while the receiver touches them.

[ PREP ] for the sender to help prepare the receiver for sex.

[ EAT ] for the sender to eat the receiver out.

[ RIM ] for the sender to begin to lick the receiver’s anus.

[ SUCK ] for the sender to give the receiver a blow job.

[ FINGER ] for the sender to slide their finger(s) into the receiver.

[ STRAP ] for the sender to use a strap-on with the receiver.

[ THRUST ] for the sender to fuck the receiver.

[ BARE ] for the sender to come inside the receiver.

[ SWALLOW ] for the sender to come in the receiver’s mouth.

[ DOUBLE ] for the sender to penetrate the receiver in two holes at once.

[ EDGE ] for the sender to keep the receiver right at the point of coming without letting them finish.

[ GAG ] for the sender to gag the receiver / prevent them from speaking.

[ BIND ] for the sender to tie up / restrain the receiver.

[ LIFT ] for the sender to lift the receiver onto them / their dick.

[ WEAR ] for the sender to have the receiver wear a plug / other toy in public.

(  various  dialogue  prompts  to  send  to  your  worst  enemy  (affectionate).  feel  free  to  change  how  you  seem  fit.  )

❛ oh great, it's you again. ❜

❛ you? kill me? that's funny. ❜

❛ for being someone you hate, i'm sure on your mind a lot. ❜

❛ you're the last person i wanted to see, actually. ❜

❛ do us both a favor. stay away from me. ❜

❛ you really are an asshole, you know that? ❜

❛ i'm the asshole? what does that make you then? ❜

❛ sometimes i think you must hate me. ❜

❛ i thought you said you never wanted to see me again. ❜

❛ if you want me to go, then you have to tell me to leave. ❜

❛ well, someone's cranky today. ❜

❛ well, someone needs to shut the fuck up. ❜

❛ just stay out of my way. ❜

❛ of all the idiots in the world, i'm stuck with you. ❜

❛ what is it you want this time? ❜

❛ sometimes i wonder if you're in love with me. ❜

❛ do you honestly think this is easy for me? ❜

❛ why would i ever want to be friends with you? ❜

❛ can we please just talk? ❜

❛ there is nothing for us to talk about. ❜

❛ you can yell at me later. just let me help you. ❜

❛ touch me, and you're dead. ❜

❛ oh, so now you care? ❜

❛ there is something deeply wrong with you. ❜

❛ i know i'm the last person you probably want to see, but... ❜

❛ you don't think we could be friends, do you? ❜

❛ i'm tired of fighting against you. ❜

❛ don't pretend you give a shit about me. ❜

❛ you're an idiot, but... i trust you. ❜

❛ oh, don't be cute. ❜

❛ wait, did you just say that i'm cute? ❜

❛ we're not good for each other. ❜

❛ if i say yes, will you shut up? ❜

❛ don't you have to be stupid somewhere else? ❜

❛ maybe we should kiss just to break the tension. ❜

❛ i'm sorry i can't turn off my feelings as easily as you. ❜

❛ maybe there's a universe out there where we're friends. ❜

❛ how can you be so smart yet so dumb at the same time? ❜

❛ don't think this changes anything between us. ❜

❛ you look ridiculous in that outfit, by the way. ❜

❛ if you die, i'll kill you. ❜

❛ is that a challenge? ❜

❛ ah, so you're not heartless after all. ❜

❛ i don't think i've ever seen you smile. ❜

❛ you never cared about me, so why now? ❜

❛ why didn't you kill me when you had the chance? ❜

❛ i don't even remember why we started fighting. ❜

❛ i don't have time for distractions right now. ❜

❛ you're not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜

SOMETIMES I THINK OF DOING TERRIBLE THINGS.

❝ AH... GUILTY AS CHARGED, i'm afraid. ❞ though it's only club soda in the glass he stirs idly, nearly untouched, his eyes haven't stopped following others and the liquid danger sloshing in their cups near the bar. it wouldn't be his first slip-up. being in a place like this is more of a strengthening exercise than anything. proving grounds. it certainly feels like combat, the way his insides twist and squeeze and tear, the way he must press the breath from his lungs to chase the visions of past highs from his mind.

the man is eyeing toji's glass, and toji raises it halfheartedly in some form of commiseration. "same as you, 'cept i haven't stopped being that different man yet. much as i've tried." two weeks sober. he wonders how long it'll last this time, sipping at his lamentably unspiked coke on ice.

独尊__Not really an answer he preferred, but sure, it made the most sense. This guy was.. a readable enigma. You could follow the trail of strength and pride with relative ease, only to hit some wall of repression even he couldn't manage to budge. What a frustrating bastard. A kink of the neck, halting his gait, as fingers slipped under the confines of his blinding veil, revealing half of a starfield view; Stepping in front, and leaning down with no indication or interest in personal space, it was noted that, yeah, he couldn't see shit. Che.

"That's fucked up. Not surprised, though. Bet I could get it, but, eh, what a pain."

There was a pause at the second bit, cerulean casting itself upwards momentarily, somewhere beyond the shackled beast as amusement wrung itself out of the agitation prior. Letting the blindfold fall back into place, those same fingers instead pressed at the fabric painted onto that heavenly musculature.

"See, stuff like this.. this is the kind of shit I tell those old bastards I'll paint the walls red for, if they try it on my kids. I can do whatever I want, right? Kill whoever. That's my prerogative as the strongest. But you know, it's not about me, right now. It's about them, it's up to them! I'm just here to make that happen."

"i think you've done enough damage to my insides without groping around in there," he says, mordant but not resentful — it's not as if the hole blown into his side was completely undeserved, after all.

the unease leaves him as gojo's blindfold returns as wonted. toji has half a mind to swat the fingers from his chest, but decides the fleeting annoyance of being poked and prodded is preferable to the embarrassment of being foiled by infinity.

A sigh left his lips for a moment. Why didn't he spend money? He did, just not on dumb stuff. Books, good food, and nice suits are what he normally goes with. Half the time, it was just given to him because his one from was bored enough to do so. ( not that he liked it) but the point was, he was saving for something. To earn enough money to live somewhere cheap. Where he only had to earn a small amount each day and have enough savings to keep him afloat.

Not everyone would understand that.

Nanami couldn't help but sigh once more and looked at the older male. The question still stands.

"I spend on things I need, not what I want. Blowing through a paycheck is the last thing I want to do. It's silly and wrong to do." a huff. "Can't live a little if you have nothing left to live with."

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