Joey

it’s cruel how you say you like me so much but treat me as a dust collecting trophy on the wall

i wonder who i’d be if i’d learn to love myself before i forced myself to love any one else

people can be so cruel. the world is so cruel.

all i ever think about is you

Because the world in fact did end for me when you left me

they say they want a weirdo gf until they hear my lore of my wattpad obsession and the fact i was stuck in a maladaptive daydreaming state of harry potter marauders for 3 years with the same storyline over and over and that id listen to edit audios while daydreaming

is it because when he left me it made me feel so unwanted i can’t see anyone liking me or wanting me so i tell myself i like my alone time but in actuality im just so used to the comfort of talking to him it feels like cheating talking to other people

all i want is for him to feel the pain i felt when he was with her 2 weeks after he left me

its hard knowing you wanna look a certain way and then realizing you could never look like that because you’re not a pale white woman with green eyes and straight hair

i’m so jealous of the people that look so cool and have good fits and have such niche hobbies and interests and have a pc and lots of piercings like why can’t i be that cool like all i need is 20k and permission from my parents to get piercings

my heart always aches

i don’t understand but i understand for you

no matter how kind you think that man is, in the end he’ll always help you realize he’s a man