In This Kind of World

Or why are there bones and skulls in hell? The ones in hell are supposed to be tortured till eternity, so there is no death and decomposition of the body.

Or why do any nightmares that Dream sends to darkness or uncreates have enough time to finish their sentence?

One night I tried to list all the emotions inside me. But I was empty! There was nothing inside me! I couldn’t understand how this was possible. Because a few minutes ago I felt ...., I couldn't remember! 

I sat and thought for an hour, but I couldn't remember. “Fuck it. Who cares what I feel” I thought to myself. I filled the emptiness with a dream of my missing half, lay in bed, and closed my eyes. 

I dreamed that all of my emotions stood around me. I thought they wanted to attack me. None of them had a face, though. One by one, they put a very long stick around me, made a cage, and imprisoned me in my dream. 

Each time I watched this episode, I wished that my relationship with my sibling were like the relationship between Death and Dream. I miss my brother. I wish I could walk with him, talk to him, and tease each other.

I wish I had a friend like Hob Gadling to sit and talk and wait for each other. Remember his dialog with the bartender; I wish my friends were as brave as him.