i hope one day we get to see the real robby. i hope we're able to see him find a way to drag himself out of these lowest of lows, and ask for help, and make steps forward in recovery and figuring out who he is outside of his actions within the hospital. i hope we get to see him learn, and understand, and then internalise the fact that he's worth more to the world than what he does in the ER department. i hope one day the show will start and it *won't* be one of the worst days of robby's life, because he's gone through hell and now he's come out of the other side.
more than anything i want him to get to the positive stage where the viewers can be directly shown the man who earnt the trust of trinity despite her traumatising past, and the man who has such a good rapport with the nurses that they automatically assume he's asking about them on a personal level when he talks to them since that's just who he is, and the man who gives javadi the space and encouragement to grow into who she wants to be, giving her the courage to understand that she's more than her parents wishes for her.
we know he's there somewhere, every interaction with the other staff show us that that's who he is inside, someone deeply caring and loving and driven, above all else, by an all-consuming empathy that is now eating him alive. i wish so badly that we'll get to see him happy and healthier and with the capacity to take care of not only others, but himself as well. he deserves that recovery and he deserves that peace and the medical community who have so deeply connected with this character deserve a story that is, at it's core, still driven by hope for a better future.
who knows if it will be one, or two, or four seasons down the line that we might get to this point. recovery is never linear and when faced with a broken system, the setbacks will be hard and the lows frequently catastrophic. but nonetheless, robby deserves a happy ending and deserves to find a way to get back the parts of him that burnout and depression have stolen from him. my biggest wish with this show will be to see the day robby has found some peace and respite, and is able to give once more the empathy that his relationships with others are all founded by. that maybe this might be a sign to people that hope isn't lost, and we can work for and achieve a better and kinder future within the medical field and beyond.
