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I'm so tired of me I know i say this a lit but I'm tired

I don't understand how the hell i be obsessing over a randon guy that i never even talked to i feel like a psychopath

I know it's wrong i really do but i want him i want him to talk me to love to be with me even though i know i like the imaginary character i made of him in my mind he could be a whole different person from what i expected

I always fuck it i keep it good for couple of days then u ruin everything and i go back to my miserable situation

My relationship with him now is kinda weird we respect each other very very few words between us .

But i want to talk about my feelings to him i really love my brother yeah i bet ppl don't even knew that they almost forgot that I have a brother

But i love and i feel so sorry for him that it breaks my heart his life was very tough i can't believe how my parents left him all his life he lived far from his parents and sisters he got a none caring father who just keep fighting with him he was never satisfied about him or us

I just want to hug him and tell him that everything is going to be alright i really really wish he lives a happy life i wish all the good things happens to him i just don't have the words to write my proper feelings ik that he's so sad and depressed of he wasn't a faithful men if he didn't trust in allah he would definitely end his life god please help him i really love him and care about him

It's always the motherfucking father at this point ain't no way I'd have another feeling to him but hate, the fucker fucked our lives it enjoy it fr fr I thin his pleasure in this life is to hate on us to say all these hurtful words to make problems out of nowhere to play those fucking mind games always and the victim is us me mother and sis

I really wich this comes to AN END I don't give a godamn what end it would be just enddd I'm so so fkn done enough i feel knocks in my throat and heart the past two days bcz of him

But at the end i believe that god will take our right from him