Be with people who love you

so so just to introduce myself (I took to long writing introduce. I am very bad at english but I love it. I also type fast yk) I am just a person who likes to reblog things yad yad. I also love to be delusional yk thats all. 🤗

I am in tears, I love my friends so much, I love everything so much. All the cards and small gifts I started to tear up. I felt so incredibly loved today you don’t understand. This was the best day of my life. I would choose today to relive over and over again. I really love my friends and family so much. I didn’t even think I was going to make it to 18 but here I am being loved by so many people. Just wow.

Tumbler the place I yearn. I love women. I yearn for a loving relationship with a woman.

At this point I will take any woman. I love women. I miss my future gf or wife. I don’t yearn for the mines I yearn for a loving relationship with a woman. I so badly want to be like the “masc” to some woman. I just love women.

I feel like a ass because I love my best friend but I just can’t stand being around them when I’m visiting. I know we are basically growing apart and changing. We have some things in common but not a lot, we watch what they wanna watch when I’m over. This has been a thing since we were little, usual always wait for their opinion and then go with it. They have autism and a dash of down syndrome. I cherish them a lot and hold all our memories but what makes them laugh doesn’t make me laugh and it’s been getting harder to laugh at things. We have been friends for 12 years. I tiptoe when I’m over here because of how sensitive they are to things. I have adapted to doing things that I now do in my day to day life since being friends with them. I have learned to always care for people and for people who were granted to be the most amazing people. But I have also learned to minimize myself so I don’t overstep. I have also learned that even if someone said something like 2 minutes ago and totally forgot about it, it’s okay to let them tell you again. This goes the same for if they repeat things after a couple days or hours. If this is confusing, I don’t care because this isn’t really for you to understand but just to listen and read. For like 2 years I have counted down the days I leave when I visit because I can’t wait to go home and talk more and watch what I wanna watch. This week especially I didn’t really want to come down because I had important school to do and I had to focus on that but now I just plan on doing it when I get back home which is Wednesday. I should probably talk about this in Therapy. 🤷 I HAVE THERAPY TOMORROW YAY