Man hindsight is 20/20. My bff recently just dumped me (again) and I feel soooo much happier. I didn't realize how much she was weighing me down. Literally every single friend I introduced her to of mine took me aside after and told me they didn't like her and asked why I was friends with someone so self absorbed. I should really start listening to my loved ones when they tell me someone is unhealthy for me...

My therapist told me I look like I’m wasting away into nothing. I asked my parents if it was true they confirmed. My ED isn’t even back I’ve just been too depressed to eat these past couple months and I stopped smoking weed on the daily which is the only thing that can make me eat on a regular basis (esp. Since I’m quite often too nauseous for food from my meds). Le sigh. I don’t even know how to change this… I did just soberly eat 5 pieces of pizza though so that’s good.

Everyone just keeps dying, man. I always thought I'd be the one to die young but BAM there's been like 4 people in the past like 12 months? 3rd in like 6 months. I'm so sick of death. I was never that great with it to begin with. And I have like barely any fucking friends. I wish I had someone to talk to. I know I have a bf but I'm not sure if he counts as someone I can go to, he always gets mad at me. Blaaahhh I just wish people would stop dying.