Look, as someone who has their own bag of trauma, and has littles as well in my system, I am shocked they were even allowed to interact and post what they have been for so long.
I'm glad you are coming to me, I am hoping with earnest in this. While I do naturally feel for them, and I wish they would just, get offline and work on processing and healing. Because they need to do that, and if they are in a country where they cannot afford therapy, then they need to get off tumblr and just focus on support circles. I didn't know they were a syskid until my own friend told me, said friend who watched all those videos they made on me.
I was not apart of ANY of what Choco is claiming. And while I'm sure they are living on survival mode, like I am. It still isn't an excuse to call me: a pedophile, a groomer, part of a cult, part of a grooming ring, that i have sent rape threats to minors, that i have minors in my communities, that I do anything sexual with minors, that i am an anti when i just SPOKE to ONE fucking person who was an anti,(not meaning Rook here) and they ended up being my friend. Wow, shocker, not everyone has to like what you like or support you, but you can still be friends if you aren't pieces of shit.
I wanted to be a mother for christ sake, and because of my body, I cannot have children. Which is outright devastating to me. I was not meaning to upset Choco, I was simply stating a boundary after all of THIS had happened. I didn't want to be involved at all, and yet they followed me, so I made a general warning to let others BLOCK them as well. They took it the completely wrong way, and me speaking with Rook for like a couple days??? I haven't spoken to them since then, I am not in contact with them, I have blocked them, because I didn't want anything to do with it all.
I showed sympathy to someone who was self harming and suicidal, as someone who struggles with suicidal ideation, I wanted to offer sympathy, but apparently me offering sympathy, unaware to who Rook even was, was a huge mistake? So being sympathetic is wrong now? And we are just going to accuse innocent people, who are victims of grooming, CSA, COCSA, incestuous abuse, a grooming ring myself with my own FUCKING FAMILY.
I'm sorry to be upset, but I just want them to leave me alone, I am without my meds, I am wanting to harm myself over these accusations because it is DEVASTATING.
Choco's system is a wreck and all they went through I genuinely am sorry, I don't ever wish ANY harm to come to ANYONE. I genuinely liked Choco, but when the strobe situation happened, for my own mental health, I had to block. So, when they refollowed this week, it set off panic, literally in me. I get all systems/collectives have all different rules and how their shit functions, but having a LITTLE, being out and active in such spaces, is not healthy. I personally do not think a little or syskid should even have a blog. And people being sexual to them, is disgusting. But that is my collective's personal comfort, I have a friend who's littles CAN enjoy adult content, it all depends on the system. Again, this shit happened BEFORE I met Choco, and I have never once brought it up. Who is bodily an adult.
Like, I'm sorry I'm human and I mess up with my own words, sorry I make genuine mistakes and get upset for being smeared. I am sorry if some of my responses weren't the best, my own self is in survival mode, and I felt like I was being cornered and put on display for people to laugh at and assume such awful things of me. But they need to learn and realize what THEY do, has consequences, genuine real world consequences. Just for cyberstalking me, and falsely accusing me of such things, I could get the law involved if I choose to, and I will if the harassment and cyberstalking continues.
Please, do not send anymore asks about Choco, anon is being turned OFF. Let me move on, leave me alone!
