ad astra.

I sing the lord’s euthanasia blues When I take you and your brother in the back pew Drive into the median, keep myself from eating and wonder why I feel so sick Tradition’s ligature marks always yellow through

I lied when I said I didn’t want you In no time, you’ll forget the way we were supposed to be Asking what I’m on this time, holding on to you like I do Like we’re the only people in the world god left to mind to

Two drowning coals won’t ever light But if I ask you to, you’ll warm the night

If I want you like I said I’d never do I would hold my breath and sit down next to you Terrified you’ll bite the hand that needs you And right now I need you I don’t know what happened I don’t know what happened I was young and sweet And then something happened Something overwhelming Something everlasting

Time drags on I hate him for the time he’s gone I’ve been here for weeks, I’ve been here for years I’ve been here too long I forgot what stop means Either I drink it or the boat sinks It’s easy for him to get out of me What I’ve been praying will get out of me

Will I always be crying during sex with you All my dreams take place in heaven where it’s quiet, lying next to you Heavy breathing and sighs, bruises between my thighs, look me deep In my eyes like I’m a river worth wading And if I’m crying, it’s because I’m in love