inlovewrafe

I still love you, I promise (pt 2)

pairings: ex!lovers; rafe x thornton!reader; rafe x sofia;

warnings: angst; sickness; ed; pregnancy;

"Do you need to sit down?” You hear a muffled voice as you feel your feet beginning to give up on you. "What- What do you mean I'm pregnant?” You ask with a shaky voice. You had a feeling that you were but now that your suspicions are confirmed, and you hear it out loud, you can't believe it. Don't want to believe it. You are denying it. "No, I can't-“ You choke on your words, trying to make sense of what you were going to do. You feel a sharp pain in your heart as you realize. He isn't here. He isn't yours. He is hers.

You realize you will have to raise the baby alone. His baby. You were forever going to have a reminder of him. Every time you'll look at the baby, all you'll see is him.

"What if I don't want the baby? Can't I do anything about it?" You blurt out without even thinking. But as soon as the words leave your mouth you regret ever saying them. “I'm afraid you can't. You are already three months and a half in. Your boy is developing.” You freeze in your spot. "What do you mean boy?” “You are having a baby boy, congratulations!” She gives you a warm smile but you feel your stomach drop. A boy. You were having a boy. 'What will Rafe say when he finds out? Should I tell him?' You were deep in your thoughts when you heard the doctor talk to you again. “That'll be all. We'll schedule an appointment to check on him but we'll do that later on the phone.” “Thank you.”

You made your way towards your car as you stood frozen in your seat. You'll be all alone, raising your baby, while he plays happy couple with Sofia. You took a shaky breath as you pulled out of the parking lot, driving to your house.

When you got there you quickly made your way inside, seeing all of them displayed on the couch. The sound of the door closing made them all look towards where you stood. “Where have you been? Do you know how concerned we were?” Topper yells as he is quick to stand up from the couch. “I know, I'm sorry.” You mumble while fidgeting with the rings on your fingers. Sarah and Rafe spare a concerned glance to each other before they turn their attention back to you. “Sarah I need to talk to you. It's important." You say still fidgeting with the rings. "Yeah, 'course” She replies as she starts walking out of the room, following you.

“What happened? Are you okay?” But you don’t answer, instead you pull her in a hug as she remains confused but squeezes you hard as she reciprocates the hug. “I need to tell you something but you have to promise me you won’t tell anyone, especially not Rafe.” “I promise! What is it?” You take a shaky breath as you say the words out loud. “I’m- I’m pregnant.” You wipe away a single tear that escaped your eye. “WHAT?” She looked at you shocked and excited at the same time. “Shhh” You hush her because you don’t want the boys to find out. “I’m sorry. Is it Rafes?” She asks just to make sure. “Of course, who else’s would it be?” She nodded her head with an obvious expression on her face. “Yeah, yeah.”

“I don’t know what to do, I don’t- He isn’t even- How will I raise-“ You mutter between choked sobs as you panic. “Shh, shh, it’s okay, I’m here for you. You’ll be fine.” She tries to reassure you, but you can’t calm down. You sob into your hands as she pulls you in a hug. “It’s okay, let’s just eat something and we’ll sleep, yeah? We can deal with it tomorrow, okay?” She mumbles as she gives you gentle strokes on your back.

“Okay.” You let out a quiet response as you wipe around your eyes. “Do you want to order something? The boys already ordered when you were out. Or we can make something ourselves.” She gives you a light smile as you plop down on one of the chairs. “We can make some pasta if you want to.” You played with the necklace around your neck. “Yeah, sure, whatever you want.” She smiles as she puts a pot with water on the stove. You get up and take another pot where you can make the sauce in. You pour the sauce in the pan and add some seasonings to it.

After some time, the pasta is ready and you plate it. “Wow, this looks delicious! Ask the boys if they want some, while I wash the dishes, please!” You exit the kitchen and made your way towards the living room where you see the boys caught up in a game.

You clear your throat and all three heads snap towards you. “We made pasta. Want some?”

“Did you poison it, or why are you asking?” Topper raised a brow while snorting.

“No, but I’ll make sure to poison it next time, just for you.” You gave him a wink as you waited for an answer.

“Yeah, sure we’ll have some!”

“Come on then!”

You start walking to the kitchen with Top and Kelce in front of you and Rafe behind. You feel a hand on your wrist starting to pull you back.

“Why were you at the hospital?” He asks still holding your hand.

“I-“ You suddenly felt out of breath at the touch on your arm. You stare at his hand and back up at him, and he quickly lets go of you as if your touch was fire.

“Just had to check something.” You murmured, missing his soft hand on yours.

“Check what?”

Your breath caught in your throat as you tried to look for an answer, but couldn’t come up with anything.

He was still staring at you, waiting for a response.

“What’s going on here?” You hear Sarah’s voice interrupt the silence between you and him.

“Uh, nothing. We were just talking.”

“Okay, come eat! You haven’t eaten anything today! Come on!” She grabbed your hand, leading you to the kitchen where you saw Top and Kelce on their second plate already.

“Oh come on! Leave some for the rest of us.” You laughed as you sat on a chair next to Sarah.

You ate half of the food on your plate when Kelce got up to go and plate a third portion.

“Kelce, chill out man! Do they keep you starved?” Everyone laughed as he sat down with his plate.

“You are the best chef ever! I might come over every day if you are cooking.” He laughed.

After you all finished eating, Rafes phone was buzzing with a few texts from next to you.

He was putting the dishes in the dishwasher with Topper so you though it won’t hurt anyone to sneak a quick glance.

As you glance at the texts with pit in your stomach you start feeling sick. The smile from your previous jokes was replaced by a sad expression as you remained quiet, taking out your phone to scroll on instagram. When you noticed the boys finished with the dishes, and he was walking towards you, you got up from your seat to retreat to your room. You repeat the texts from her over and over in your head with a heavy heart. ‘hey baby’. They were calling each other baby. Yours and his nickname. Now you were truly sick. You rushed past them and upstairs to the bathroom gaining a few concerned looks from your friends.

“What was that?” One of the boys asked but it was silent.

Sarah followed you upstairs and Rafe went to check his phone. He saw a few texts from Sofia but he ignored them. He placed his phone back on the table and raised a brow at nothing in particular.

“What was that? She was fine like a minute ago.”

“I don’t know man, she must’ve seen something on your phone when it buzzed ‘cause she seemed happy like three minutes ago!”

You were fast asleep now with Sarah massaging your scalp while you dreamed of how easy things used to be when it was just you and him.

To be honest in your head it was Rafe that was massaging your scalp while you slept next to him, not Sarah.

“Look at this view! Rafe it’s beautiful!” You said as you admired the beauty surrounding you both.

The salty breeze of the ocean giving you goosebumps as it hugged your skin. The sand and the water colliding together like they were made for each other, while the sky was displaying gold rays of sun making the sand that was sticking to your skin radiate your features more.

“It really is beautiful!” He smiled softly while watching you with only love in his eyes.

This was the moment when he truly knew that you were the one for him. That he loves you.

“I love you!” He said with a genuine and soft voice.

You turned around shocked, unsure if what you hear really came out of his mouth. You were not expecting this.

“You don’t have to say it back. I just wanted you to kno-“ But before he was able to finish his sentence, your lips crashed onto his, hands going behind his neck, while you got closer on the picnic blanket.

When you pulled away you both were smiling like fools.

“I love you too!” You said without hesitation as he pulled you against his chest. You sat there in a comfortable silence, watching the sunset as you replayed his words over and over in your head with a grin on your face.

You looked over your shoulder again to see what he was doing, but he wasn’t there. You sat up panicked as you started to call out for him, but to no avail. He wasn’t answering.

You looked around desperately but all you could see was a bunch of sand, no track of Rafe.

“Rafe!” You called out again, and again.

“Rafe, where are you?”

“Rafe, please, this is not funny!”

“Rafe, please don’t leave me all alone!”

“Baby, please come back!”

I still love you, I promise (pt 1)

pairings: ex!lovers; rafe x thornton!reader; rafe x sofia;

warnings: angst; sickness; ed; pregnancy;

You were shifting around in your bed. The hoodie you were wearing was clinging to your skin uncomfortably.

The now familiar wave of nausea hit you as you bolted out of bed, running towards the bathroom. Your hands were clinging to the toilet seat as you emptied the little food that you ate yesterday in the toilet. Your body was shaking slightly. You got up from the floor, walking towards the sink to brush your teeth.

After you were done you headed downstairs towards the kitchen. You sat down at the table while looking down at the screen of your phone where you saw a post from Sarah’s account with you two from three months ago when you were at Toppers birthday party.

You noticed Topper walking into the room while mumbling a “Good morning” as he made his way towards the coffee machine. “Do you want a coffee?” He turned to face you as if he couldn’t talk to you if his back was facing you. “Yeah, sure.” You muttered before going back to scrolling on instagram. “Then you can make your own.” He replied with a slight smile on his face.

“Oh, come on Top.” You whine lowly. “I was just joking around.” He laughed but he then noticed how your cheerful expression that you once had on your face every day two months ago was tiredly looking at him unfazed by his playful demeanor. He also notices how you started eating less and less and how your once full of life and love expression turned into a cold and broken one. The bags under your eyes from your sleepless nights and the pale color of your skin were replacing the pinkish shade you always used to have on your cheeks and the way you always looked rested and put together.

He was pulled from his thoughts by the beeping sound of the coffee machine. He placed the mug he made you coffee in, on the table. You noticed that it was your favorite mug that you always used. You mumbled a small “Thank you!” before you took a sip letting the caffeine get in your system.

He made his way towards the fridge, opening the large door and scanning the interior for food. He decided that he was just going to have some eggs and bacon. “Are you hungry?” He asked as he turned around to face you. “No, I’m okay. I’ll probably eat later.” You said lowly as he hesitantly nodded his head. He made his food and he placed it on the table next to you. He sat down and started eating.

The long silence between you two was broken by the buzzing sound of his phone. He quickly scanned the text before glancing up at you and then back at his phone. He cleared his throat before looking at you with a look of regret on his face as he said “Kelce and uh- Rafe are coming over. They said they’ll be here in two minutes.” You choked on the coffee that you were drinking. “What? No! They can’t- I can’t” You panicked at the thought of seeing him. Seeing Rafe.

You hadn’t seen him in two months since you and him had broken up. And you didn’t want to see him now. What were you going to say to him? What are you- How are you even going to face him? He just moved on and now was dating Sofia, a girl that you knew and used to be friends with. Not close but still you guys talked and were at maybe stage two of friendship.

You found out he was dating her from Topper and you were devastated. You refused to eat anything and cried yourself to sleep. You were a whole mess over the fact that he replaced you in just a month.

You were pulled out of your thoughts by a loud knock on the front door. Before you managed to react, Topper was already at the door, opening it for the boys to come in the house.

You quickly started to run towards the stairs but you noticed that you forgot your phone on the table so now you had to go back and get it. After you got the phone, you sprinted towards the stairs while cursing your parents out in your thoughts for making the stairs near the front door.

By the time you got there they were already in the house, watching as your small figure was drowning in an oversized black hoodie with the hood up. They were facing your side as you tried to run up the stairs. You slipped and hit your leg with a loud thud. “Fuck!” You yelped in pain as you were now holding your leg in the middle of the stairs.

“Hey, you okay?” Kelce asked from down the stairs as they all looked at you. You mumbled a quick “I’m fine.” Before quickly making your way up the last steps and to your room.

Rafes heart felt a tight squeeze at how you were running away from this, from him. He only noticed your thinner frame as it practically sprinted past him to put a long distance between you two without even sparing him a glance. He was pulled out of his thoughts by Topper and Kelce who were heading towards the kitchen to grab some snack. He followed closely behind them and stopped dead in his tracks at the mug that was long forgotten on the table.

He observed how your favorite mug was displayed on the table with a little coffee in it. You probably left it there when you went upstairs. Actually ran upstairs. He made his way towards it before grabbing it and putting it in the sink.

When you entered your room upstairs you scanned the darkening spot on your leg with a sigh. Your phone buzzed from where you threw it on your bed. You picked it up and saw that it was Sarah.

You made your way down the stairs and just as you stepped down the last step, there was a knock at the front door. You opened it and pulled Sarah in a tight hug. “Hey babes.” She muttered, still holding you. “Hey.” You smiled a little in the warm and soft embrace. “You hungry? The boys are ordering food.” You muttered while making your way towards the couch. “Yeah, you?” She responded so quickly that you let out a laugh. “Damn, okay. Yes, I haven’t eaten in forever.” You laughed, but she stopped dead in her tracks staring at you with a face full of concern. “What do you mean? You have to eat.” She inhaled sharply, her tone suddenly changing. “Come on, I was just joking around.” You tried to push this conversation away but she wouldn’t budge.

Thankfully Topper and Kelce came into view. “Hey girl. How are you?” Kelce asked while pulling you in a hug.

“Hey Top, has she eaten today?” “Come on Sarah, just let it go, please.” “No, she hasn’t! Why?”

Sarah turned around, raising a brow and crossing her arms with a knowing expression. “You are skipping meals!” She raised her voice just slightly to show you that she was mad at you. “ ‘Am not!” You responded, trying to sound firm. “You are skipping meals? Why?” You heard Kelce bug in while stepping next to Sarah. You gave Topper a pleading look as to make him help you out. But he didn’t. He joined them instead.

You were now full on interrogated by your friends and brother until he walked in the room. “Come on, you can’t do this to yourself just because of him. You can’t continue skipping meals. It’s not good for you.” Sarah let out a frustrated sigh while signaling with her hands to show just how mad she was.

When Rafe came into view the room fell dead silent. It was the first time you saw him in two whole months. Damn almost three. He was just standing there, like he was processing what he heard. He was repeating the words over and over in his head as the expression on his face changed.

This was the first time you looked at him in months. His deep blue eyes awakening memories and reopening wounds that you weren’t sure were healed in the first place. He furrowed his brows, suddenly processing everything while his face turned into an expression of pure horror. You weren’t eating because of him.

“What? What did you just say?” you heard him ask. The voice you once loved, hell, you still loved was full of shock and pure terror at what he just heard.

The tension in the room could be cut with a knife. You stared down while fidgeting with your hands. He knew you did that when you were anxious. “Don’t do that. Stop it.” “Why aren’t you eating?”

The voice that was once whispering sweet nothings to you and how much he loved you was now tinged with judgement. You stayed silent. Your hands now resting on both sides of your body. “I-I don’t know- I can’t-“ You grabbed your car keys from the holder and ran towards your car. You were sick. Sick from whatever was making you sick all the time, your friend’s judgement and Rafe.

You let the tears fall while you made your way towards the hospital. You wanted to find out what’s wrong with you. But you already had a feeling you knew what it was.

a/n: this is just PART 1 of my series that i want to start. hope you like it!!

This morning you got a text from Rafe asking if you’d be down to hang at the beach with him and a few other people so you accepted.

Now you are sitting on a towel on the hot sand, a mojito in one of your hands and a book in the other. Rafe is sitting beside you, sometimes stealing glances or sipping on your cocktail.

After all he bought and brought all the mojitos in the cooler just for you because he knew you loved them. And you did. But he would never admit that, not in front of you and surely not in front of his friends.

You felt his burning gaze on the side of your face but you pretended to be reading. You tried to focus but ended up reading the same paragraph several times and you just gave up.

You closed the book and placed it in your bag, turning your attention to Rafe who was now staring at Topper and Kelce trying to drag Ruthie in the water.

You watched as they grabbed her by the arms and feet and sprung her into the water. A quiet gasp left your mouth, followed by a giggle that brought Rafes attention back to you.

“What’s so funny?” he quirked an eyebrow eyes staring deeply into your soul. “Nothing, sorry.” you muttered quietly but still obviously amused by the situation.

He didn’t respond, he simply stared at you lost in his thoughts eyes scanning all over you while parting his lips slightly. You knew that look all too well. He licked his lips, a smirk forming on his lips and you knew something is about to happen.

It took you two seconds to put two and two together and realize what he was planning.

You sprang up from the towel and started running down the beach away from him. But when you glanced back he was right behind you a hand gripping your waist to stop you from running.

He picked you up over his shoulder while you were struggling to get out of his hold. He was holding you firmly, not enough to hurt you but enough to not let you go.

“Rafe, I swear to God if you don’t put me back down now.” you were kicking your feet, hands punching his back trying to get out of his hold.

“Rafe please” you yelled seeing him now knee deep in the water.

“Its fine baby, its just water!” he responded calmly but you could practically hear the smug smirk placed on his face.

Before you knew it, he had already started counting and was now about to throw you in the water.

“One-“ you heard as the cold water hugged your body sending goosebumps all over your skin.

You resurfaced with a gasp, hands wiping the water from your lashes while you made your way towards Rafe who was now laughing with his friends.

You were so going to get payback for this. He just has to wait and find out what you’ll do.

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She was now seated at the bar at the Country Club waiting for her mojito to be prepared while me, Topper and Ruthie are waiting for her at a table.

I listened to Topper and Ruthie shit talk half the island in like thirty minutes until they reached me and Y/n.

“So. You and her are dating now?” Ruthie asks while looking in your direction.

“Who? Me and Y/n?” I also turned back to see her talking to the bartender about her drink or something.

“Nah, we casual. A quick fuck here and there, but that’s all.” I lied. She’s not just a casual fuck for me she’s my everything. The reason I wake up, the reason I stopped using drugs. I’d probably be dead without her. And I know it. But I don’t admit it.

“She’s just always after me.”

You stared at his back, your heart sinking to your stomach while your eyes well up with tears but you don’t say anything, the knot in your throat not letting you.

“Oh shit-“ you hear Ruthie and Topper both say in unison you don’t glance in their way. You can’t. You just stare at what’s now his shocked face when he realizes you heard him. And you did. You heard everything he said.

You simply turn around and start heading towards the exit. You place your drink on a random table, tears now clouding your vision.

Rafe is walking after you, calling your name and begging you to listen to him but you don’t hear him. You can’t. The words he said replaying in your head over and over again while you physically feel your heart shattering more and more.

You are pulled from your thoughts when you feel a hand on your waist, turning you around to look at them. Of course it was him.

“Baby, listen to me please.”

“No, no! Let go of me!” you didn’t shout, you simply whispered, a tear leaving your eye making its way down your face.

“I didn’t mean it! I could never mean that.” he said, his hand going to wipe away your tears.

“Then why did you-“ “How could you say that?” “Why did you say that?” you were now looking at his face, searching for an answer. A real answer.

“I don’t know, because I’m a coward and I couldn’t admit how much I care about you. And I do. I care about you too much.”

“If you did you wouldn’t have said that.”

“Baby please- I do mean that. I really do. If it weren’t for you I would probably be laying in a ditch, dead. And you know that.”

“No-.” “I just- I can’t. I need time.” you don’t wait for him to respond. You simply turn around amd start walking away from the Country Club.

Away from him.

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This morning you got a text from Rafe asking if you’d be down to hang at the beach with him and a few other people so you accepted.

Now you are sitting on a towel on the hot sand, a mojito in one of your hands and a book in the other. Rafe is sitting beside you, sometimes stealing glances or sipping on your cocktail.

After all he bought and brought all the mojitos in the cooler just for you because he knew you loved them. And you did. But he would never admit that, not in front of you and surely not in front of his friends.

You felt his burning gaze on the side of your face but you pretended to be reading. You tried to focus but ended up reading the same paragraph several times and you just gave up.

You closed the book and placed it in your bag, turning your attention to Rafe who was now staring at Topper and Kelce trying to drag Ruthie in the water.

You watched as they grabbed her by the arms and feet and sprung her into the water. A quiet gasp left your mouth, followed by a giggle that brought Rafes attention back to you.

“What’s so funny?” he quirked an eyebrow eyes staring deeply into your soul. “Nothing, sorry.” you muttered quietly but still obviously amused by the situation.

He didn’t respond, he simply stared at you lost in his thoughts eyes scanning all over you while parting his lips slightly. You knew that look all too well. He licked his lips, a smirk forming on his lips and you knew something is about to happen.

It took you two seconds to put two and two together and realize what he was planning.

You sprang up from the towel and started running down the beach away from him. But when you glanced back he was right behind you a hand gripping your waist to stop you from running.

He picked you up over his shoulder while you were struggling to get out of his hold. He was holding you firmly, not enough to hurt you but enough to not let you go.

“Rafe, I swear to God if you don’t put me back down now.” you were kicking your feet, hands punching his back trying to get out of his hold.

“Rafe please” you yelled seeing him now knee deep in the water.

“Its fine baby, its just water!” he responded calmly but you could practically hear the smug smirk placed on his face.

Before you knew it, he had already started counting and was now about to throw you in the water.

“One-“ you heard as the cold water hugged your body sending goosebumps all over your skin.

You resurfaced with a gasp, hands wiping the water from your lashes while you made your way towards Rafe who was now laughing with his friends.

You were so going to get payback for this. He just has to wait and find out what you’ll do.

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She was now seated at the bar at the Country Club waiting for her mojito to be prepared while me, Topper and Ruthie are waiting for her at a table.

I listened to Topper and Ruthie shit talk half the island in like thirty minutes until they reached me and Y/n.

“So. You and her are dating now?” Ruthie asks while looking in your direction.

“Who? Me and Y/n?” I also turned back to see her talking to the bartender about her drink or something.

“Nah, we casual. A quick fuck here and there, but that’s all.” I lied. She’s not just a casual fuck for me she’s my everything. The reason I wake up, the reason I stopped using drugs. I’d probably be dead without her. And I know it. But I don’t admit it.

“She’s just always after me.”

You stared at his back, your heart sinking to your stomach while your eyes well up with tears but you don’t say anything, the knot in your throat not letting you.

“Oh shit-“ you hear Ruthie and Topper both say in unison you don’t glance in their way. You can’t. You just stare at what’s now his shocked face when he realizes you heard him. And you did. You heard everything he said.

You simply turn around and start heading towards the exit. You place your drink on a random table, tears now clouding your vision.

Rafe is walking after you, calling your name and begging you to listen to him but you don’t hear him. You can’t. The words he said replaying in your head over and over again while you physically feel your heart shattering more and more.

You are pulled from your thoughts when you feel a hand on your waist, turning you around to look at them. Of course it was him.

“Baby, listen to me please.”

“No, no! Let go of me!” you didn’t shout, you simply whispered, a tear leaving your eye making its way down your face.

“I didn’t mean it! I could never mean that.” he said, his hand going to wipe away your tears.

“Then why did you-“ “How could you say that?” “Why did you say that?” you were now looking at his face, searching for an answer. A real answer.

“I don’t know, because I’m a coward and I couldn’t admit how much I care about you. And I do. I care about you too much.”

“If you did you wouldn’t have said that.”

“Baby please- I do mean that. I really do. If it weren’t for you I would probably be laying in a ditch, dead. And you know that.”

“No-.” “I just- I can’t. I need time.” you don’t wait for him to respond. You simply turn around amd start walking away from the Country Club.

Away from him.

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return of the routledge chapter seven

kook!rafe cameron x kook!jj maybank x kook!routledge!reader college smau

warnings: reader being slut shamed

a/n: i have decided i will no longer be using the reaction feature on memi... 38 crashouts later :)

six | eight

return of the routledge masterlist

taglist: @rcwhore @mariechristine00 @h00d-tr4sh @rottinglexi @cokewithcameron @m1sche1fm4nag3d @ravenssorrow @mochibunnyyyy @cherryhoneybabe @therosequartzwitch666 @rafes4 @inlovewrafe @tragicallyherek @sensitvegansta888 @dr3wstarkey

movie night with buffy [87/?]

⤷ love, rosie (2014)

@pscentral event 18: adaptations

SAM CLAFLIN PAGE TO SCREEN ADAPTATIONS

f!dist. 13!reader x finnick odair — finnick odair masterlist

starry’s sweets — order #004

ask : “hi!! your writing event is so cool! can i get a medium box of strawberry cookies with graham crumbles and chocolate chips please? thanks!!” — anon

summary : when finnick odair almost dies to save your life, you feel almost indebted to him once you and the rest of squad 451 arrive at tigris snow’s shop in the capitol. finnick gets force-fed pain medication to dull the burning in his leg from the mutts and you nurse him back to health as he becomes extremely loopy and extremely cute. 

warnings : injuries, finnick odair almost dies but doesn’t, loopy & drugged up finnick (pain killers/morphling), cute considering the situation they’re in

word count : 1.4k

Rafe Cameron x Old Money!Reader

Contents! - Swearing, suggestive language, use of Y/n, alludes to Rafe's past addiction.

Summary! - You sneak out of your family's sprawling estate in a silk dress to meet your sinful boy.

A/n! - Make sure to get your requests in! Hope you love it <33