Aaron Freier

It is said that before entering the sea

a river trembles with fear.

She looks back at the path she has traveled,

from the peaks of the mountains,

the long winding road crossing forests and villages.

And in front of her,

she sees an ocean so vast,

that to enter

there seems nothing more than to disappear forever.

But there is no other way.

The river can not go back.

Nobody can go back.

To go back is impossible in existence.

The river needs to take the risk

of entering the ocean

because only then will fear disappear,

because that’s where the river will know

it’s not about disappearing into the ocean,

I remember clearly when I did it the first time. I wrote down my desires in a list, my intention was focused on something good, on a experience I wished to come into my life.

Just after one year almost everything came alive, even those sloppy words I throw into the room... I want to see behind the curtains..

Be careful what you wish, I learned, was a great lessons which I embrace with pute love now.

Today, I could feel that a big thing is about to manifest in my life. I could feel someone got ready, is on the way. I was wondering why I was in mexico, wasn't sure if its just a part of a lesson or if there is more behind. Right now, reality and dreams are mixing. How far can I go from here?

My surrounding talks more to me than ever before or,, do I just get more aware of it?

At night I feel my room is filled with spirits, the day over they seem to hide, but the universe talks so loud and clear, I lost my fear, lost everything through the moment of being.

I'm waiting for you

Dwelling light breaks through shades of misunderstanding. What our controllers can't accept is, life was not ment to be controlled.

They can't face the stream of life. They made us build a vibrational prison all around through religions, cell towers, WiFi, power grids, chemicals (food, air, water), CERN, mainstream (radio, tv, music), languages, governments, races, to hide, that we all are one.

Their hope is to push the human soul into a field of inducted vibration to keep us, to farm emotions (frequency's) we create and transmit, but, how can a device made from gods manifestation, keep god in prison? Right, now you understand their fear.

Next step, computer controlled population, ai takes care of your thoughts, microchip to control, keep the sheep's, kill the rebels, all will be done in believe our consciousness (oneness) can be controlled through many minds, through ai, through a world control tablet (no joke).

They mastered the materia, found a way to poisen the manifestation of the human body. Make us sick and small, eating human flesh, drinking blood of our purest, riding the emotions we transmit in our worst and best moments. Roots of vampirism.

Force creates force, violence will answers with violence, let's met these poor beings with love, they lost the connection to their heart,

First time.

I was maybe 15, all around disappeared. Found myself as a theater, lights and actors, playing a role on a stage. I was all and everything.

Golden light, many faces, rebirths more than numbers, one thought, oneness.

I opened my eyes, decided to walk a while in the shades of theatric lights. Hiding who I am from myself.

Second time.

I was 18 (1998), worked in a skateboardshop, liked to be who I was for the kids, parents, the scenes of creativity on wheels. Samsara.

I set back on a chair, closed my eyes, darkness, nothing than one cloud, moving through nothingness, infinity.

Suddenly, starlit strings of pureness all around flashing through eternity backwards, dancing, not alone.

Slowly, attached, flickering intense, wholeness. Who are thou?

Couldn't believe it, don't wanted. 13 years martial arts, wisdom for the flesh.

3rd time

Vibrance starts to attract desires. Traveling, cultures, spirits, truth, darkness, pain, fear, cleaning, crown chakra.

Ground shivers, walls breaking, no resistance, her voice.

All comes back, theatric lights go dark, all actors gone except, infinity oneness. I stay

But,