thoughts

2014 was the worst and best year I had I guess. It began with the end of a manipulative and abusive relationship, followed by pain and heartache and death, continued with stalking and blackmailing and blaming myself. I shut my heart deep up in a box and graduated successfully from school, then began to think about everything. I short-termed worked as volunteer, then did casual jobs, thinking about what I could do with my life in the future. I came to terms with.. well, everything, then took a break from everyday life and months later I found salvation. 2014 ended with apologizing to a former best friend after I totally messed up our friendship and I became a better version of my former self. No more lying, ignorance and arrogance. Confess my mistakes and learn, apologize to people I hurt in the past. Care for others. I found the solution to all my problems in myself and I’m proud to be alive after all the bullshit I went through. This is me and I'm exactely where I’m supposed to be now. When I look into a mirror I see a girl who has a bright future and is ready to live. I’m thankful for my friends and family who supported me more than I could ever imagine before. Without you I wouldn’t be the person I see in the mirror this day and age. Happy new year!