shin literally went: "i love you. i was living a meaningless life where my only purpose was to die alone on the battlefield achieving nothing before you changed me. your words and strength saved me from the multiple suicidal states ive had throughout the course of the story. the one line you said about how i should be proud to have fought, survived, and made it here in the end changed the perception and trajectory of my life. the author spends half of the story writing about how my extremely traumatizing survivor's guilt keeps me from wishing for anything ever in my life, but my first ever wish and the reason i fight now is to show you the beautiful things in the world that haven't been ravaged by this cruel war. half of my internal monologue is about how i want to show you the sea one day. i change and become a better person for you because i don't want to make you sad anymore. not only would i literally die for you, i would go as far as to live for you too." to lena and that's called being so fucking in love




















