The Gordfather

Deep breath. ok. in the morning I do laundry. see if the ramen place I saw was hiring has a website I can apply on or when they’re open so I can go in & ask. wander around somewhere if my back & knee don’t hurt. prepare for weekend sadies preparation…

suddenly freaks myself out so bad I have to check under bed & in closet for Murderers & take a pair of scissors to bed with me just in case & also keep a light on

dvd ripper for mac era travis does have a sort of teen heartthrob quality

some times i do start a youtube video & catch myself Speaking under my breath to travis in the video the way i speak to cats & that is deeply embarrassing

takes a sip of milk then kubrick stares at my laptop as i open youtube & search "the sadies 2026" to see new videos

i have very much learned over the past 2 years that it is in fact good to set & enforce boundaries some times & not just adapt to Whatever the people around me do or want but i have also learned a lot of people fucking Hateeeeeeeeee when u say "nah i Really don't like that At All & i'll leave if u can't respect that" they Hate it

ohhhhhhhhhhhhh i forgot to take my antidepressants last night i think well that explains Everything

the fumblerrrrr............