Lyrics to Red Light Cafe Show: April 5th, 2009
These are the lyrics to songs I wrote back in 2009. Still Alive: Such a simple incantation promoting life without inclination of needing something more burning my walls bringing everything down Such a myriad emotion the state of confliction is absent to no one being something more how electrifying I hear you knocking on my door i can feel it burning, and rolling and gowing deep within i can feel it flowing, controlling underneath my skin i'm still alive i'm still alive W-o-n-d-e-r-f-u-l E-l-e-c-t-r-i-c Down Doesn't Seem So Bad: I tried to stay by your Bedside but your bedside burned and banished me back to where i came from The hole i crawled out of didn't welcome me home with open arms just criticized with countless curses When you wake and wind up someone you hate When you wait up and wise up and realizing that down doesn't seem so bad anymore no, down doesn't seem so bad Just let it run away You'll feel it again someone Just let it go Let yourself breath Just get out of here September Sixteenth: These echoes sounding in my soul Can't bring me to my knees anymore But my eyes are swollen and paralyzed with the touch of feeling nothing at all Of being nothing Of sounding like nothing at all In fear of being nothing like you turned out to be I cannot correct the cracks and breaks that i have done to myself Only gasp at the man behind the mask that they have created The face that they distorted the lives that they have altered the face that they distorted i can't bare to face My head is bruised By the constant beating of repetitive bastarding Worn down to size the likes of what is left of my shallow heart Of my measured ego of my askew spirit of my measured ego thats shattered into place War Cry: this has no beginning it has no end no confrontations has no friends stripped of what it means to be human having no one ever to defend numb is the feeling you pretend when vitality is at its end having no courage having no hand to help the war inside your head im choked unprovoked and so uninspired lack of attention depressed for awhile go to the bar to find who we are and just start over again I Fell So Far: I fell so far so far enough where you couldn't pick me up i was ripped and worn tired and torn and still your face ceased to come quit convincing its not your fault could of been avoided if you just would talk now its your choice to stay or to walk please don't walk please don't sit there and watch me fall im going crazy im sizing the walls can't figure out how i got in this room 'cus all im seeing are things reminding me of you I fell so far so far where i couldn't see myself anymore i was wrong and timid angry, unforgiving so simple but too complex to admit it Letter To Adam: First of all, Im convinced that i think and worry about things too much. Even incredibly trivial things; i have this overwhelming experience. And i imagine that this email alone is probably annoying and disheartening. But i felt more compelled to write you my apologies. My apologies.
