∇ΔDI INSIGHT

"I take the position that I know nothing about ʆσνe, and neither do you; at the same time, I know everything about ʆσνe, as do you. I have my experiences, and you have yours; there are small, human truths within the universal Ʈruth, the one Ʈruth. This I call God, the Most High. 

God is ʆσνe [and] lσνe is a verb; 

to ʆσνe is to take ልction, to δσ something in ʆσνe's name.

… in ʆσνe, the ƿresent moment matters… in the ƿresent, there is ʆσνe; there is σpportunity for ɕonscious and ɕompassionate activity toward the betterment and ɕare for yourself and others… There is always an σpportunity to learn and experience something new, to expose σurselves to Ꮤιѕdσm by recognizing the humanity in others, to see through their eyes our one world; in this way, with ʆσνe, we enter an ҽmpathetic space, as if it were a portal to a whole new world.

… ʆσνe proνides an σpportunity for us to ɕonnect on a higher plane, to our higher ʂelves. I truly believe there is, in each of us, a ʈrue version of σurselves. I try to attain this higher version of myself through Ꭾrayer and Ꮇeditation; through Ꭶpirituality and the belief in us, in myself.. I try to push aside my ego to learn something about the world, about my life, something ᖇeal and True, something sincere and beyond the surface. 

… to ʆσνe God, no matter the name, and no matter the religion, is to make a wholehearted reach toward the universal, to come to see for oneself that in spite of the lonely feelings we have as individual people, each of us can still stand on our own two feet, supported by a higher, deeper power.”

Harry’s letter to his daughter:

“If I could give you just one thing, I’d want it to be a simple truth that took me many years to learn. If you learn it now, it may enrich your life in hundreds of ways. And it may prevent you from facing many problems that have hurt people who have never learned it.

The truth is simply this: No one owes you anything.

How could such a simple statement be important? It may not seem so, but understanding it can bless your entire life.

No one owes you anything.

It means that no one else is living for you, my child. Because no one is you. Each person is living for himself; his own happiness is all he can ever personally feel.

When you realize that no one owes you happiness or anything else, you’ll be freed from expecting what isn’t likely to be.

It means no one has to love you. If someone loves you, it’s because there’s something special about you that gives him happiness. Find out what that something special is and try to make it stronger in you, so that you’ll be loved even more.

When people do things for you, it’s because they want to — because you, in some way, give them something meaningful that makes them want to please you, not because anyone owes you anything.

No one has to like you. If your friends want to be with you, it’s not out of duty. Find out what makes others happy so they’ll want to be near you.

No one has to respect you. Some people may even be unkind to you. But once you realize that people don’t have to be good to you, and may not be good to you, you’ll learn to avoid those who would harm you. For you don’t owe them anything either.

No one owes you anything.

You owe it to yourself to be the best person possible. Because if you are, others will want to be with you, want to provide you with the things you want in exchange for what you’re giving to them.

Some people will choose not to be with you for reasons that have nothing to do with you. When that happens, look elsewhere for the relationships you want. Don’t make someone else’s problem your problem.

Once you learn that you must earn the love and respect of others, you’ll never expect the impossible and you won’t be disappointed. Others don’t have to share their property with you, nor their feelings or thoughts.

If they do, it’s because you’ve earned these things. And you have every reason to be proud of the love you receive, your friends’ respect, the property you’ve earned. But don’t ever take them for granted. If you do, you could lose them. They’re not yours by right; you must always earn them.

... A great burden was lifted from my shoulders the day I realized that no one owes me anything. For so long as I’d thought there were things I was entitled to, I’d been wearing myself out —physically and emotionally — trying to collect them. No one owes me moral conduct, respect, friendship, love, courtesy, or intelligence. And once I recognized that, all my relationships became far more satisfying.”

⚛ T his month has shown up with a βΔNG, in the most gentle of ways. 

✦ I’ve been HUMBLED & given new eyes in which to see myself; but‼️ .... it ʟɪᴛᴇʀᴀʟʟʏ took cơsɱıc fơrces— “ᎠIᏤIℕᏋ IℕTᏋRᏤᏋℕTIᎧℕ” if you will— to check me. It revealed that the source of my frustration was none other than myself.

⸘▼‽

My ugly shadow self. ⤵︎

The self I️ swore was in her rightful place. The self that used my pain to justify my behavior; feelings of having been hurt too many times, feelings of untrust and a fear of being unworthy of unconditional love.

Being so caught up with (and in) my this pain, I️ never imagined there'd be a need to look at the ways in which I was “protecting” myself... Unaware of how deeply seeded the human mind can be, there was never a thought to question if my armor (the person I️ became when feeling hurt or betrayed) was actually doing its job and serving me. I didn’t have the awareness capacity to wonder (perhaps to even care) if my words and actions were harmful and/or hurtful.

I didn’t fathom the need to analyze if my armor was defective; I could not imagine that my behavior was causing any harm at all (because I was justified, I was "right," end of story). What was really happening was, I was putting my pain above the person I️ was blaming; essentially behaving in ways that threaten emotional security; the very thing I was fighting for. I was partaking in the very behaviors that had hurt me.

∞ HOW DEEP IS THAT?! ∞ ...fighting myself, manifesting my own fears: a self fulfilled prophesy.

Because I was so adamant on my pain being recognized and acknowledged, I didn’t see, that not only was I hurting myself, but someone else as well. I was inflicting pain on another soul.

▲▽ REALITY CHECK ▽▲

...I had no idea what to do with this new awareness. I didn't know how to process my shortcoming. All I knew was that it hurt my heart. So I just sat with it. Then I made a choice to confront who I’ve been. I admit, I was behaving in ways beneath my own standards. I wasn't meeting them. I wasn't who I was asking others to be. 

⫷✡⫸ How could I ask for something that I myself couldn't give? I wouldn't want to be around that version of me. Matter of fact, I intentionally make sure to keep away from those who devalue other people's feelings; who don’t care if they’re hurting someone simply because they feel “justified”, putting their pain above everyone else's. I was saying hurtful things simply because I️ believed I️ was being wronged, taken advantage of, unappreciated & unloved. 

【⚭ there’s levels to this shit, man! ...So many levels 𝛺】

I️ wasn’t any different than who was hurting me. 

I️ was the same, no actually- 

I was worse. I️ was judgmental and elitist.

❤︎ What’s awesome though, is, that this version of me, I️ didn’t choose her. She wasn’t my fault. I learned it somewhere in my childhood. I️ tried it, and it worked. It’s how I’ve protected myself and coped with emotional pain my entire life until now.

And in this moment, words don't capture the amount of gratitude dancing in my Soul. I am UTTERLY GRATEFUL for the Divine hand that is guiding my Life; for the mercy that has been shown, and the pain that has been spared. Because honestly, I'm not sure I would've seen it on my own without perhaps, destroying what I love and learning in retrospect.

So... Welcome, November! Bowing my hat to you, I willingly take off this armor and bow down in Humility.

Thank You.

(As within so without. As above so below. And so it is.)

- 𝓛𝓲𝔃𝓪  ❤︎