Know Thyself

its so crazay how being in a transitional period will have you obsessively reevaluating every decision in yr life to the point of actual insanity…hello

the worst thing in the world is doing things. the second worst thing in the world is not doing things. how has no one ever come up with a solution for this

i hate the expectation that i have to plan for the future. has anyone  ever considered im scared

i still cant believe there’s chemicals inside my brain and theyre fucking me up all the time 

you think you’re waiting for love to find you when in reality it has saved you in a thousand different ways since the sun rose today

so fucked up that i have to take care of my body everyday. what if sometimes i feel sad about the maintenance

i honestly don’t know how this happened but somewhere between my childhood and formative years i forgot how to exist like a normal person and started to either overthink everything or make disastrous choices without any proper thinking at all. no middle ground whatsoever

ping ponging back and forth between seeing immense beauty everywhere and feeling deeply like i am in hell

holding my own face in my own hands and screaming “there is no connection without an open heart! you must be brave! you must be honest! you must be true!” in the mirror

do it scared

beginning to think there’s correlation between the downfall of the superhero genre (which turned media into a soulless conveyor belt of bad one liners and cgi made primarily as money grabs) and the return of silly fun and thoughtful films