I'm really pretty sure that I'm a lesbian.
I have this sense of lucidity surrounding it.
But I don't want to be a lesbian. I dont want to deal with my family. I don't want to deal with how people would see that. If youre a lesbian it shapes how people see you before anything else. Straight people get to just be neutral. It affects your professional ambitions. Either you love freely and have to defend your opinions on gayness and trans ness or you suppress that part of yourself. Straight people are allowed not to have an opinion.
I love my boyfriend and I don't want to hurt him .








